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• shopping with mum because she needs me so much:

1. To get her Vitamin D at the cheapest price
2. To get hams, bacon, cheese, dried tomatoes etc for her, she needed my accompany so she wouldn't feel fearful around people who speak English 
3. It was a huge mistake to go to BWS, she thought that having two reward receipts can get a champagne for free but indeed, it says 'get 2 for the price of 1' means 'buy one get one free'...
4. To get 3kg of beef casserole, 3kg of lamb casserole and 3kg of lamb ribs from that Kahil's Butcher, those two lebo wanted to talk to her, however she was too shy to respond to them. They were so nice that gave us a 'pressie' - a pack of sausages

• did a bit of academic reading of course 2094, skimmed through a few pages and highlighted the key points..
• Had a wonderful dinner with her. She tried to imitate the African cooking and it ended up to the mix of Chi and African dish...never mind, it still tasted so good with chilli lamb casseroles. I craved for more after I ate most of them...
• Michelle asked me for help to do another 500 words this time. I refused as I still got a large amount of readings to do for my own course=.=
• Finished my freaking 500 words plus research, the exploration of the overloaded historical info of two prime ministers was not too bad. Simply just looked for their political ideas, accomplishments, leadership roles and their relationship of both parties by comparing their differences and pointing out the similarities
• Didn't get to finish my own readings though...:S
• Eating chocolate at late night, no fear to be a fattie...

Friday

The highlight of the day: receiving panpan's long message once I got up...

Turned on my laptop and continued with my preparation for that tut...Jenny called me at 12 just to tell me to change the time to 5:30. Now I got more time to prepare for that 2 hours....Without mum's bothering, I might have finished everything much quicker by 3...

Before I left my house, checking my phone to see if there's anyone call me. Surprisingly found out there was another long message from that panpan. A moment of confusion from his even longer reply, I was wondering whether he sent to the wrong person. Re-reading the same text for coupler times, half of it was regarding to the text I sent last night but half of it got me really perplexed...So to my curiosity, I sent back another text.

I bumped into Brian when I just got on the train to Hursy, to be precise, it was him who recognized me at the back so he came to sit next to me. I was surprised he was on the same train going to the same place with the same purpose-tutoring...He told me that he's been teaching at least 7 people per week, this is not that surprising to know compares to how much he charges each student...Yes...50$ for an hour, two times more than my price, then I started to question my life if I should also raise up my price a bit...He then asked me when I am free so we could catch up, since I haven't seen my card buddies for so long..I also heard David has implanted one of his teeth, maybe I should go and visit him some time~

When I got in the library, I couldn't spot where Jenny was so I called her. I was told that she was still waiting for the train at the platform...When she got there, it was already half an hour passed. We started our lesson at 6. She didn't look ok, apparently 4u Maths is the one to blame, studying for it is even more fatal than the killer bee and thus, someone like me would rather to choose all the subjects required for more readings and English when I did my yr12..

According to the same rigid rules, I gave her 4 texts to analyse plus the extra big question. During the time she was doing all the questions, I read my uni textbook. It was really lucky having her as my first customer because she treats my lesson seriously :) I enjoyed explaining everything in depth when she asked, this is just showing how passionate I am as a tutor :3

Panpan sent another text explaining he has mistaken his own text as mine, so he replied to his own text LMAO I showed Jenny as well so we had a great laugh >.> Btw for the last big question, I have taught her which two texts would be the best to write out of the 4, to my own opinion, in order to generate a remarkable answer for the marker, you gotta know the way of how to impress them in the first place.

After the tut, Jenny was teasing me=.= She brought up the topic of 'human centipede' to explicitly show how hardcore I am>.> Maybe I am seriously a hardcore influence so that now she's greatly corrupted>.>

Before I reached that god damn train station and ready to run to the toilet...I just found out that side of the train station where the toilet is...BLOCKED~!! BLOCKED!! why you do this to me when I am super busted here? So I was like   OK FINE...I just gonna drop off from wolli creek, only a few stations away from here, I CAN hold it...=.= I then looked at the screen at platform 3...NO TRAINS TO WOLLI CREEK IN HALF AN HOUR?? That was not a joke...I ran upstairs, and the bigger screen showed there was a train to Wolli Creek in 1 minute IN PLATFORM 1!!! It was a critical moment to my realization after I saw that, I ran for my life to platform 1...

AND door just closed by the time I got there..................................=.=

I felt like I lost the whole world to my way back to platform 3....

So I ended up catching the train to central just to PEE....yes....took the long way by transferring the train from central....

That fattie called me from oversea because mum told him that I tutor somebody so late....The love from parents is huge, so huge that it isn't just confined to calling you for multiple times when they can't see you, but also to the extent of getting so worried, anxious, and then angry at you due to over caring...even so, I don't want to give up tutoring, I mean, it's so easy to solve, if they don't want me to go home late, I can just ask the girl to change our time to daytime~

Lastly, panpan's got high fever...that lil beast should take care of himself well or else I will smack his butt hard when I see him next time >.> Happy valentine's...Happy happy happy valentine's, OUR event page is updated with our lovely photos and some wishes....

*smiles*... 

the 12th

Since I was late to uni, somebody has already taken my spot which was next to Jodie. I sat somewhere else alone but then I saw Ailin and Gwinny were at the next row. After the lecture, had a talk to Michael, he looked really sick with serious flu.

Later, we went to cafe together to see Bianda and Felicia, a girl that is keen to learn Chinese...Bianda and Michael stayed with me after Felicia left for her class. Bianda complained to me about her assignments but she enjoys learning Japanese and Korean. I can tell how much she loves learning languages when she communicated with Michael in a mix of Japanese, Korean, Chinese and Indonesian even though Michael had no idea what she was talking about most of the time lol

20 minutes later, Bianda also left. Michael and I stayed for another half an hour discussing about our courses. I told him that I failed to transfer to screen and sound, he was quite encouraging to ask me not to give up and shared what they have been doing for the screen and sound's core courses. We also shared our experiences of presentation and what impressive skills we can use to get some bonus points from the tutor...Our talk has brightened up my day so I was also late for my tutorial for 5 minutes because of this.

Gwinny was one of the presenters for this tut, she presented well, so did her group mates Casey and Jacky. Although the most challenging time was when Robert started to question them word by word based on what they were answering. I saw he ticked one of the columns 'pass' on the criteria. Robert must have been thinking how casual they sound, the less association they made from the readings definitely didn't match his sky high standard when they answered his questions. 

Oh btw, because I was late, my name wasn't marked to the roll call. It's a really common phenomenon to spell your last name out when somebody asked right? So I did when he asked my last name. He then repeatedly asked the same question 'I said...what your last name IS..' 'L-I-U....Liu..' 

'Yes...thank you....I asked you what your last name is, just answer me what it is, I didn't ask you to spell it. I am not silly ok?' =.= well...that's what I do all the time? And I was just helping him to look for my name quicker=.= Similarly, Lara spelt her name as well when he asked about her last name...lool So he goes sissy and said 'Omg...why do people these days have to spell their names when I just ask them to SAY their last name..' 

Anyways...That's my day...nothing's really that special...and of course I do know this post is poorly written with the absence of thoughts and emotions>.> This is because I am getting tired, and I will be even more tired start from next week....yes....the ongoing assignment for somebody til week 13....challenge accepted!!!~

the 11th

Another delayed post here...In short, today was ok. I went really dizzy because of 4 academic readings I have done for my course=.=

Nothing can beat my dedication in this moment I believe. I didn't even get to eat for the entire day since eating is really time consuming(for me), so I only bought one chicken satay and ate it in my way back to the library. There was this guy also has been staying at the same spot as long as me. He asked me to look after his stuff before he went to get some food...He then came back with a big burger, which was quite distracting when I was starving here doing my work...If this is permitted to ask a stranger for food, I might have asked him 'hey bro...can we share your burger...pretty please' *with puppy eyes* Since we have stayed together  in the previous 5 hours, I regarded us as half of the fellowship of the most hard working students in the library? (overly imaginative scene appears) Of course I am crazy but not insane(yet)...In fact, we stayed quiet in that 5 hours, there was only two times we talked, or I shouldn't even call it as a 'talk'. The first time was when he asked me to look after his stuff, the other time was when he elbowed my waist by accident as he didn't notice that when he got his stuff out of his bag...I didn't even say a word until he elbowed me the second time because his chair was getting too close to mine, and that has pushed me to the left...I asked 'sorry can you push your chair rightward a bit?' and he replied with 'oh sorry, I didn't notice' So here is our fellowship, I even felt like saying goodbye to him before I left, why would I even have the feeling of not-willing-to-leave-this-guy-alone to a stranger...Guess I was just starving to crazy...

But no...I swore that I would not go home til I finished my plans for today, it's a must to get it done after all of my procrastination lately, you just gotta pay the price you know :S By the time I finished everything, it was nearly 7, I went to the exit of upper campus, waited for the bus there for another 15 to 20 minutes in the coldness. 

Got back home, ate my dinner with her, she dragged me to watch a game show called 'total blackout'....Then procrastination started...I knew it lool I knew I wouldn't do much work when I got home, it was a really wise choice to do more work effectively in the library so now I can chill a bit :3

Btw gotta tutor Jenny on Friday, means no gym tomorrow as I need to prepare for the lesson... :(

Lazy posts (9th and 10th)

Monday(9th of Sep):

In the morning, I am the super turtle...It would be really unusual if I arrived at central before 8:45 on Monday so that person has waited there for almost half an hour. We hugged, talked for a bit and departed in different directions. He was late because I didn't let him go btw...

Skipping the first lecture for the day because it was way too early to survive in a lecture that is 2 hours long..Instead, library is a good place to have more productivity when I can do much more work alone. I finished a 25 pages of academic reading in that one hour plus have skimmed through my lecture slides.

I remembered that I needed to go to a conversation class at 12, though I had no idea what a conversation class really does in the first place after I signed up for it. As soon as I found that room, I sat at a corner waiting for others to come. This girl came and wondered if I just signed up for it since she didn't see me last week.

The teacher came and another two Korean girls came and sat next to me. She started to take the roll call and asked me to introduce myself to the class...Then she talked about her exam that she did in the previous week, in the sake of not to feel left out, I randomly asked what the exam was about as everyone was so quiet just listening to her ranting how irritated she was, when most of the multiple choices weren't something she has prepared for. Then she moved the topic of what she would be doing later after the class-her urine test...>.> And she also talked about the election. As a media student, I was seemingly the most interested one talking about politics. I asked her why Tony Abbott could win this election while I could see from social media was mostly about people's negative comments toward this candidate..She told me because of the country people, who are being so conservative voting for him, and this has added much more vote for him than Kevin Rudd within Australia. She then said 'so yeh, just end of this topic, this is getting me so upsetting, this election is sooooooo upsetting=.=' lool 

Moving on to the topic, where she asked us to talk about our problem of our degree and life. One of the Korean girls initially talked about English literature when we had a group discussion. She's an exchange student (and sorry...I still cannot remember her name though I have asked for 2 times=.=) so she was wondering if we also write essay in high school. And she also told me how much different between Korean life and Aus life. And then didn't know since when we started talking about food, that Korean opened up a topic of GMO later on...this topic made me so damn hungry for someone like me who hadn't eaten anything at that time..=.= 

After that class...I went back to the computer area in level 3 and spent another one hour there typing up my notes. At 2pm, having my tut with Ailin and another two friends. The only thing I can remember is that I kept yawning in that 90 minutes tut, even my friend said that my yawn was so contagious that got him so sleepy as well...>.> 

Tuesday(10th of Sep):

A hot day with all the hot activities *winks* His first time(s) has taken by me, this is just how I love to be the creator of first experiences :3

We watched 'Brave' the ranga who's been dreaming to have her own life and have gone through a journey to get her mother to transform back to a human. It is a really good movie for mothers and daughters to watch, my favourite last scene where the ranga desperately cries for her mother, who may have turned into a bear permanently without this reconciliation, regarding to the hint of 'mend the bond torn by pride' of the spell from the witch. That mother-daughter bond really deeply got me when I thought about my own mother at that time, with the past memories of our unhappy moments. Panpan cried as well and I passed him the tissue...But yes, I did feel great to have such a moment of how simultaneous we both are touched.

Another one is one litre of tears, we only got to watch the first episode yet I could already feel the continuation of sadness...Leaving panpan's house at 5:30 and we waited for the second train to come, before I departed, tricky me bit his lips hard...

In the train, there was this weird tall white guy in uniform walked past me but returned to the back row when he saw me sitting at the corner. He then opened his legs wide and kept facing to my side, at first I didn't think that much, only that I found that ridiculously awkward and wanted to avoid making eye contact with him. So I turned my face to the other side, and when I turned back, realized he was still checking me out so I started to feel extremely uncomfortable. But I couldn't see why he was doing that in a public place, until he started caressing his genital sexually=.= And he got up after the train arrived at Redfern, I thought to myself 'this wanker is finally dropping off..' Then the next second, he moved right opposite to me and put his left leg on the seat...I finally couldn't stand this sexual harassment, he was purposefully getting my attention by doing some disgusting kissing sound, I ignored that. But now...he's completely facing me like WHAT? I was scared yet I seriously wanted to say 'hey dude...can't you see there are so many seats there...and why can't you just go Kings cross if you are horny like hell...=.=' I immediately got up and moved to the stairs, waiting to get off while kept looking back if he followed me...And he did...After we both dropped off from Central, he walked ahead of me but looked back and checked if I was also going the same way as he did. He made it too obvious when he was still waiting for me downstairs...So instead of going to my platform, I rushed to another platform where it is just right at the corner when I turned left, ran up the stairs the fastest I could...I rather to take the long way to get home so to ensure I was safe...

Just a '.......' day

The weekend(combined 7th and 8th of Sep)

Saturday (7th of Sep):

The winner of the election

Australian won and lost at the same time. The result of election can not satisfy everyone. Some agree and some angrily disagree...

In every election, it deals with wide range of potential voices from both sides. Those constructive criticism to the winner this year is really predictable. The phenomenon nowadays is the shift from physical discussion to online debate where multiple platforms that social media has offered is one of the 'noisy environment' that putting more emphasis on this issue.

What I can see from here is my friends' updated status on Facebook. One of them is furiously used at least one F word to every sentence she typed, to enhance her strong hatred then what comes next? It led to a series of drama when a long chain of comments from other Facebookers venting out. Just by scrolling down the whole page of news feed from my homepage, I counted, there were more than 10 people who have mentioned the key words of PM, Tony Abbott, Australians, election and fail. This is the power of a democratic country when it comes to an issue such as a political stance.

For me, frankly saying, I do support Kevin Rudd more than Tony Abbott even though these two guys have nothing to do in my life, but their policies do have something to do with the improvement of my life. But who knows? Little people like us would not really know what the government is up to. Can we really judge what is the best for us and who can create the best outcome for this nation within the next 3 years? We only have all the plain assumption dependent on what either of them have promised from the ad on TV and social media, the mix of both most influential old/new platforms to take our sides. I stand on Labor's side, if the offer of national broadband is allowed to increase our speed to absorb more information out there and that we can catch up with more advance technology with other countries, why not? If under his government, I can still receive youth allowance with stable commodity prices instead of a skyrocketed inflation, why not? So I voted for Labor because he has promised us all that, this party has claimed as the one cares about the public at large, the small people like us, the grassroot, the really bottom people who should not be forgotten. So I go, yes, he will be the one for Australian tomorrow, like most of my friends, most of the social media users from Facebook, Twitter, Youtube etc, majority were pretty supportive to this party, as we know, in any economy, the poor are much more than rich.

Then here comes with Tony Abbott who also has promised us that Australia will be more prosperous under his government. The huge difference is that all I can see from what the social media has displayed is the hostility towards this man. On Facebook, the ad of 'If TA wins, you lose' which is self explanatory, as well as the short ad on youtube where it says the huge number of jobs will be reduced, the funds for foreign aid and public sector will be cut, the expenditure that he thinks should not be existing altogether is advocated as his 'streamline process', in other words, a 'cutting' process. What it means here is that the swift change of an economic condition, in the meantime, there must be some sacrifices from a large group of people. But with a lot of uncertainty, we don't know (yet) who will be the ones suffering. But of course, I don't go against anyone, maybe I would say if this revolutionary movement can make my life better, I would be really thankful? To my observation, what I have heard about the most is the 'cutting funds' from this liberal party, I mean, if cutting funds can really do good in a society that is required for a budget emergency, it is essential to take the precaution. But according to the data, Australia does have high economic growth then I don't get where this budget emergency comes from. I don't know politics that much, and from the accumulative advantage of surplus in an economy, it would be a good starting point, however what will be the plan of making a surplus to the economy really means to some people like us?

Nevertheless, the change of government cannot fulfill everyone's wish after all. Tony Abbott is the winner in 2013, but for me, Kevin Rudd is not a loser either, he is indeed another winner for all of his supporters, including me, who see him as a really nice old man onscreen. 

They both are the winners because they have been serving for the nation's well being :

So in the time of rebuilding that lies ahead we must never lose sight of that clear and guiding light. For it remains the beacon of progressive politics for us all. It is what others have called the audacity of hope. Or put more simply, our simple audacious belief that we can make our community and our country and world a better place for all, not just for some, for all.

                                                                                    ----------------------------Kevin Rudd

Temporary break?

That panpan finally appeared, the first thing he said was 'hey'...second thing he said 'I think we need to have a break'. A break? Really? A temporary break just in the sake of thinking over our relationship? For me, a break can lead to a permanent one but I wasn't surprised at all when he had such a request. As he said, mental stress from what I keep bringing something up, which is quite upsetting him. Perhaps I've been too pushy everytime when something doesn't meet my expectation...

Sunday (8th of Sep):

Kid is still a kid

My underage customer was being a good boy in the first hour. The extra task(his assignment) was added in that 2 hours, it was about making a speech based on the model of a bush campus. Questions such as what have you learned from planning, designing and making process, what features you like the best and why you enjoyed making them....I did most of the work for him because he wasn't willing to help me out. So later on when his mum came in to check, I had to be honest to her. His mum totally told him off, shouted at him. 

He then gave me the middle finger and sarcastically said 'thanks a lot'. 

I calmly said to him 'well, you're welcome, you know if you behave yourself, I wouldn't do that.' 

'really?you wouldn't tell my mum about it? Then why did you lie' 

........

See who's talking here...I lied?=.= 

'You said I did behave'

 'I said you were OK...just OK...You never behave, I was being so nice for the previous lessons until she asked' 

He disagreed 'Sure you are nice.. :S'

I raised my eyebrow, sensed he was being really resentful 'OK...so would you prefer I tell your mum in every lesson we have?'

'Of course not'

'Exactly, I promised you yeh? I wouldn't tell her if you can just pay a bit more attention here.'

He nodded 'ok...'

It was sort of a 'deep' talk to a yr3 kid I suppose...But his mum asked again before I left their house, I did have dilemma of concealing his misbehaviour yet having the moral of not to deceive his mother..At the end I caused him to hit by his mum and got yelled at, that is another day of banning him from watching TV because what I have being said...I didn't want to do that too but it's hard, really hard...

Hair 

I haven't cut my hair for a while so finally I had time to do that, since I am not bothered to dry my hair up for almost an hour...I thinned my hair into layers, I don't know where the courage is from as I didn't really look into the mirror that much when I did that...

My super long hair becomes moderately long, then I started to braid my hair on each side equally. I am not specialized in any unique braiding styles, so just the one that looks like an African. Now this reminds me of my old hair style back in high school...

8th Monthsary

There was still half an hour left to our 8th monthsary...Before it reached 12, I gotta do something of course...

So I typed up a letter to express both of my appreciation of being with him for the past 8 months, also my apology that I have brought him with a lot of pain due to my arrogance...(the content is omitted here..)

This would be my first time to say happy monthsary...as soon as it reached 12, I sent a message on that event page I created the day before, and uploaded my word document to the inbox. I hope what I have done does contribute a bit to our 'little love journey'>.> I really feel gay saying that but oh well...Like I said, tomorrow will be a new beginning :) That freaking panpan fell asleep before we gotta say night night to each other>.> *long sigh...*  

So...my weekend was great :) I believe everyday is a new experience so I am looking forward to see what tomorrow will bring me with :)