Chocolate morning.. (16th of August)

A big fat hug was given as I walked out of the toilet...Haven't felt this warm panpan hug for a week long>3<

Anyway I don't think I've ever had breakie this early with panpan. So we had no idea where to go as we met up. It might be the first time ever to have chocolate for breakie>3> He ordered this pancake and I ordered this dish to fill up my stomach. Silent breakie time with my clumsiness cutting the butter which someone was calling me like a baby cutting her butter...And I ate the whole thing because korara didn't want to waste any food...Butter is not just a flavour...It's FOOD for me...so shush...

Going to Burwood afterwards because we had nothing else to do...Nothing much really, only talking for the rest of the time at the park. We saw those two Asian girls there taking selfies with different poses like no tomorrow>.> Was such a funny thing to see btw...He scrolled down my photos and found my student's self reflection, the one I took last time in his house, has cracked him up quite a bit. And my love for DJ equipment is shown from how many photos I took on my phone. :3 We also talked about some HSC stuff such as he sees himself as a dumbo for not getting into the course he wanted. I might not sound encouraging enough for telling him to look on the bright side...But yeah..>.> There are so many pathways other than uni right? Uni is not everyone's thing isn't it...

Coming back to finish those 20 pages of reading for international relation was the first thing I did. Most of the time I highlighted some major points that I found during my reading time. To ensure I didn't miss anything, I did some mini revision by reading through the lecture slides again...

Tonight I watched that movie again, to let myself drown into some unimaginable traumatic memories from cultural terror as the story progresses...I wouldn't believe myself to choose this movie for my critical review for my internship, but along with the act of bravery from the prostitutes who voluntarily replaced the school girls who were meant to be sent to the Japanese as sex slaves, this theme is the perfect example to manifest that particular form of art I like.

Lastly...In my point of view, sleeping buddy is as if a friend with benefit for me. I don't get how a guy and a girl don't have any affections when lying on the same bed...Somebody seems like he starts to tell me a lot more than I used to know...So I start to have doubt in how I used to see him as an innocent one...

Embrace freedom, and embrace your mum (15th of August)

Human alarm wanted: kiss me to death...

Can't believe I fell asleep in the library before having my seminar, so I ended up sleeping on the bean bag for 2 hours straight...Lucky Karen fb me when it was almost 12, I went all the way to the lower campus just to meet up with this girl. You know how long it took me to go from main library to law library? Almost 20 minutes....Pretty much that one hour break time was gone after I went back and forth...

She was staying at there with her friend while studying a bit when I went to see her. Her friend is a cool girl, that's all I know. Her jacket is the type I like...It would have been a good time if I went there earlier because I had to go back to upper campus in 15 minutes...

Sitting at the front was the best choice I made, I didn't fall asleep this whole time. My brain reacted fast in the first 40 minutes. To make everything easy to remember in my own way, I created some interesting dot points from every slide to catch up with lecturer's speedy explanation. However, the second 40 minutes something popped up on my phone, and it started to draw my attention away by making me have this deep thinking moment when the lecture was getting up to the part of R2P...

Once again after the lecture, I bumped into Karen on my way to the library. She was standing there and looking around, as if she was hesitatingly waiting for something. I patted her at the back asking what's wrong. She pointed at the stall where it's right next to the library and saying that she wanted to get the sausage...I went lol...just get it then...She gave me this innocent face and saying she's scared...Waiting her to make up her mind was like a challenging task for me. But as a friend, I could only push her to do something. All in a sudden I felt like I was responsible for taking care of this first year, I went up to get her the sandwich. They said no to me after I admitted that I ain't a student from the education faculty. So I tried...After a while of waiting, she finally got her sausage sandwich by her own...We then had a small chat about first year. This girl came to us asking about how she found first year. Guessing she was a postgraduate who wanted to help out newbies. 

I didn't get to study because of Karen>3> That half of hour was perfectly planned to revise the lecture notes of the lecture I just had, but I got no time for that as it was time for me to meet up with Natalie who was already standing at the main gate and waiting for me. We went to this Malay restaurant on the same street for our afternoon tea? It was supposed to be an afternoon tea...But never thought that we had this non-stoppable epic talk that made us stay there for 3 hours...During the time we were still picking what to eat, both of us spent a decent amount of time staring at the menu. In the meantime, I was the one always brought up some interesting experiences related to food and such, which made it even more distracted for us to pick the dishes. 

If I seriously want to write what we talked about in that 3 hours...This post would have exceeded 1000 words...Well....To streamline the most interesting facts I found from her, such as how she felt about her uni life compare to Hongkong, the filmic values, techniques etc we both have in common, scary encounters etc...I really wish I could have known her much earlier. She is really a good friend. My ideal type of friend...

Anyway...the links that someone shared was worth my time reading them. I could relate to that farewell article as well as that mummy article because those moments happened to me as well. I mean, how many tons of tears can you weigh for saying goodbye to the one you love? Maybe crying silently is the most heartbroken fact that depression is felt, but not seen...And it's so true to notice the person we look for the most as we enter the house, is mum. She's forever there for you, be your shelter, and any forms that she can possibly take JUST for you like nobody else can and will. My last word to this post is...love the one who you should love...Don't forget to talk to mama more :) 

PS: not getting to finish my plan, but you know what? Somebody's busy tomorrow...That means I've got a whole day to do the rest...

PS1: Great choice to study for liberalism...Love this topic..

He called me a grown up (14th of August)

Everyone wants to sleep in, same here...But I can't...Almost everything important is next week so I have to have each of them finished before Tuesday. I even carried my international relation textbook to my studio class to read. As soon as I finished my task in AIT, I quickly opened my textbook and started reading a few pages until I got tired of it, I had some rest by reading those three articles online for media course. They ain't as boring as they sound. Though some technical terms are essential for me to check what they mean by using google, I tried to motivate myself to keep reading til the end as knowing there is not much time left here...

Reading them is another task to do for my critical review which is due next Friday...And I haven't started it yet...=3=

Everyone else was complaining how troublesome coding is when making a website, simultaneously I was having my painful moment doing my epic readings. Hence, to comfort them, I joked about which one they prefer, coding or doing 50 pages of readings and a thousand word essay, and laughing so hard in self-mockery...In my studio class, Helen let us to do the second task which is to design 7 logos based on Gestalt's law on Illustrator, and then post each of them on our blog following by a brief description underneath. Katie has been working on hers with complex structure using several shapes, whereas Tia, on the other hand, was slowly getting two done in two hours. Huge differences in people's productivity really...At the end of the lesson, I got all of my design finished, and was forced to move to another room. Kael and Game were also in that room working on their weekly projects as well. But guess Game was too sleepy to recognize me lool He didn't know I had been sitting there in the past 10 minutes lol...

Mickey, Pai and Katie came to the same room afterwards. Katie seemed so happy to see me, she even hugged me at the back when everyone else was there. Because of her high-pitched voice calling my name at the back row, Kael and Game even turned around looking at four of us...Later, after I finished my blog post, I went up to Mickey who has always been the one asking for help. He did ask me how to convert something to a right format...

Saying bye to everyone in that room as I needed to go uni at 3-ish...Having my Mc Spicy at Maccas. Exactly be at the lecture at sharp 4. Soon being a hyper talkative one when I saw one of my group friends in the lecture sitting 3 rows away from me, asking her to come to the second row to sit together afterwards. We shared a lot about the courses we did in the previous years, and wasn't sure who brought up this coming assessment that is due next Friday.

The lecturer didn't know what has been happening to his computer. It failed to show up anything but the UNSW logo. He couldn't help to show us his lecture slides when explaining things, so he let us leave an hour earlier than usual after he briefly went through the housekeeping, as well as to answer some problems some of us concern.

I tried to look for that place where I'll be having interview for my internship after uni. World Square that is..I will never want to be a lost kid worried about how to get to a place in a hurry. Especially I only have one hour to get there. Now I know where I go next Tuesday, everything is just going so well for the day...

Tonight I did something to make my fatty feel cheerful. That's when I asked her to generously call him back to apologize for something. She should've felt how one would feel if someone has doubt in her. Fatty was enraged for hearing about those kind of things. It was me to convince her to get back to him for cheering him up. Call was made, I could tell how good he felt as she gave the phone to me to talk to him, he hasn't called me for being a caring daughter for so long since last time...I do care about both of them, really. But I don't want to be cheesy. So before I ended up the conversation, I asked him to take care, have more rest...For now, one of the sweetest things I said to that somehow...He paused for a few seconds saying nothing, then slowly doubting if he heard it wrong...and said that he's now at home, he's doing well these days...That was a really warm conversation indeed, letting me know that to make parents to feel how much you care for them is just that simple...

PS: My niece is so damn cute sucking her finger, and dancing like crazy on webcam :3

Take care people...(13th of August)

What's happening these days? How come everyone else around me, including myself got sick? >3< My brother Corey has been sick this morning so I thought that he'd have a day off. Til then, he texted me asking if I was at the station but I didn't check my message til I left my house, and it was 8:20, presumably he left 20 minutes ago...So I missed the chance to meet up with him :( And Anthony fb me at 3-ish saying he couldn't go out today due to sickness...But we still had a good talk on fb about food etc :3

Skipping classes is one of the phenomena we usually see. Several of my friends didn't come to the first class today. I ended up sitting with Nelson and Tia in design principles and quietly doing my work. In today's lecture, it was mostly about Gestalt's law which applies to images in relation to their similarity, proximity, continuation, multistability, figure and ground and all the elements that make up a good design project...I finished my blog post for today's assigned task in the last half an hour before heading to my second class. In studio, I talked to Tia a lot although both of us got something else due in the week...Nelson, on the other hand, was sleeping soundly. He had trouble waking up til someone gave him a call. I talked to this girl Casey today because I was wondering how coding is like. Before she told me anything, I've already heard of heaps of people complaining this and that. But it was even more terrible than I thought when she told me about her friend's experience which she screwed up her project because a dot was missing....How the heck would you know where to put that dot in, so you gotta go through everything from the beginning, ONLY for that god damn missing dot...

For lunch time, I went to Broadway with Tia to grab some snacks and come back to AIT. Knowing that we only got 10 minutes left for her class, she couldn't get a big meal...As soon as I came back, I walked to another room to start doing my uni work...She joined me after her class, Pai came in once to greet me before she went to work. And I helped Tia to read through her web design project, picked up some minor mistakes and gave her some suggestions. The highlight of my day is when I saw the text from Mimo, my internship program informed me that I now am one of the candidates left for interview next Tuesday. I have to do some preparation including writing a 500-word evaluation of film, song or whichever I am more interested in....

Thanks for parents' support as always. I'll take fatty's words in mind. Besides, having interview next Tuesday is believed to be my good day when mum's birthday is also on that day. Don't know if we are going to celebrate her birthday or me that getting my internship...What I know is I need to get everything organised, planned for each day, so to avoid last min panicking....Now let's get this started...

PS: Nan sold his phone for 570 and getting a new phone from oversea...He saw me walking past UTS on my way home so I joked about going back to visit him. He then laughed at my silliness...
PS1: Time slowly creeps on from time to time, technology changes way too fast. Estar Takee, this holographic smartphone will be the first to be made to create an even more lively experience for the users..Now this ingenius invention will soon to be the threat of all the smartphones....even apple has started to be panic...

Silence, the first responder (12th of August)

Attending morning classes is really not my thing. But life leaves you no choice when having two timetables at the same time...

I was once again..late for a few minutes for my Jap tut. Lucky I got my hoodie to cover my head or else I must be soaked under the rain on my way to my tut. I was sitting with a complete new group. This girl seems so pro in Japanese as she even taught me something I got confused with. Then the remaining half an hour was for us to revise all the kanji we've already learned from the lecture. As a former kanji sensei from last semester, I raised my hand for continuing my job in the class when the tutor asked. So I am responsible for this white girl's kanji this semester. She came and sat next to me asking something she found difficult with the kanji. I asked her to show me her writing, and she quickly took out her notebook, writing up a few kanji with close book. All in a sudden, I was a bit shocked of how neat and pretty her kanjis are. Normally westerners are more likely to have problems to write Chinese characters, but for her, I see none. She's a quick learner who is capable to remember the proper stroke orders and from how I've told her to keep the balance of each part of the kanji, she then would fix her own problem when she re-wrote them the second time. Her listening is really good as well. During the dictation time, I was also having trouble with some katagana, she told me the phrase that I wrote should be with a dash, the extending sound. And she asked me where to get my rings because she loves them all lol...as well as my headset that she loves the most..

After Jap tut, I texted Ailin to have lunch together. She called me up and told me that she had to discuss her project with her friends. So I was actually sitting there with her and her group mates the whole time for their discussion. Surprised that I found that one of her group mates is also my friend who I was with in my tut last semester. We both were shocked getting to reconnect each other through Ailin lol...I left with Ailin as she had to attend class later at 1.

Then I headed to the canteen alone to get my lunch. I went back to the library to do my work afterwards. My goal today was to finish readings for international security and I failed to do so because halfway through this boring reading sesh, I started to look elsewhere because couple hot people were sitting around me...

Dinner time with mum at night has sent me to that hysterical zone of both warm family talk combined with depressing death talk after I told her this famous comedian, Robin William found dead in his apartment by the police yesterday...Yes, this film producer, actor, comedian passed away because of the long period of time he has been trapped in depression caused him no longer see hope in his life. Fame, money, lust of power etc are all gone with his death. What's left here for the ones alive to understand is that depression occurs to everyone, no matter how strong you are, how much popularity you've gained, even you are one of the funniest people on this earth. There is no best method to cure, or to make depression go away, outsiders can never get how you truly feel, but you, are the only one to help yourself out. We all have been through that moment when helplessness we feel within us makes us become irresponsive towards others....But then again, we ain't alone. We might not able to get someone out of a dilemma, the best we can do is to BE with them, GIVE them a hug, quietly LISTEN to their inner voice when they want to vent out, DO what they want you to do. If a true relationship is valued, we feel things without words...

Restless makes happiness (11th of August)

It wasn't a good feeling at all for being super exhausted in the beginning of the day. But even worse was that the headache and diarrhea came at the same time. My decision was made not to go uni today afterwards. But no rest...I wouldn't like to have a slack day having no productivity. As soon as I finished my breakie, I got on my laptop and started going through the lecture slides for Jap lecture this week. The grammar points for this week are all about comparison and such, which I didn't think I've missed anything difficult. I also did my Jap homework with 10+ pages, for both tutorial and seminar. Though Seminar is on Friday, I wanted to get everything done beforehand. Finishing off Jap homework, lecture etc for this week, next I moved on to my media and international relation readings. I opened a new file to jot down all the notes I found relatively important from the contents I read. Then I continued with my international relation readings that left from last week. However, during the time of reading and taking down notes, Nan texted me in his class so I got a bit distracted. He still blamed me for dogging him last night =3=....And yay...Dinner outing on Sunday with another friend of mine after tutoring again. Can't wait to try another restaurant at Surry hills :3

So mum was scared of using her new product, the nutrioven that she just bought a few days ago. She asked me to translate half of the booklet for her for any safety issues before using it, and she was still aware of its brightness with occasional blinking when it was cooking the meat as if it'd cause explosion or such. I finally had some time to sort out my photos again hehe :3 It makes me so happy just by seeing hundreds of food photos I've taken so far :3 I'm such a foodie Asian..

Later, I built my skeleton for 40 mins before showering. Panpan was wondering why I took so long to do that. Well, I felt like they are really breakable when I took them out >3< I intended to do more studies and perhaps, read 'Dracula' as well later on, but by the time I finished everything, it was already time for me to go to sleep...It might not sound a lot to do, but it actually has taken my whole day, without much rest, to do all those above^

PS: Always remember to take the best care of your health, and not to forget safety is the first priority...With lots of things happening these days, either knowing people who passed away or any current news from all over the world of wars inflicted by political conflicts, threats posed by terrorist acts or simply, any events which possibly destroys anyone's life...Feeling blessed to live in a peaceful country...

Surry Hills ticked off (10th of August)

Kiddy time was fun...More to say was...he is really an entertaining child...I had no reason to not like him for his amusing moments during our 2-hour tutoring. I tried not to laugh but he really was born as a comedian...That was the first time ever a 10 year old kid telling me how sex tape, this movie is like. Inexperienced watched an 18+ movie with his mum and cousin in the cinema. His yuck...yuck...and more yuck remarks when describing some sexual scenes was a bit contradictory to how enjoyable he actually looked. It might be too early to judge a kiddy. Well, who knows...Being a comedian doesn't sound bad does it?

And I seriously had to say...I've got a big fat meal tonight with Nan, the friend who took me to Surry hills, where it was 10 to 20-minute drive from Redfern. We couldn't decide what to eat in the beginning so we used that online rating thing to pick a Spanish restaurant. Yet it directed us to a Jap restaurant so he suggested to just randomly pick one out of these. We walked back to that French one which provides a mix of good food from other cultures. Nan's stomach is as small as a bird. Most of the time, I was the one eating most of the two of four dishes we ordered.

He begged me to go and watch that movie 'Guardians of the galaxy' but due to several reasons, I rejected him. I mean, it was too late as the movie started at 9...I had to go back home to finish my homework for tomorrow >3< He then kept saying I dogged him when he was driving me home>3> Well...but didn't I say I swear to god I'd go and watch another movie with him next time...Hope Nan wasn't mad at me...>.>

Our little talk before heading to bed was sort of planning to go to other places next week or so. Sunrise might sound like the best option, one of the must-to-do thing for couples..Other than that, I'd like to go to somewhere new and afar :3