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First time to arrive in Hursy this early, almost 40 minutes before the actual tutoring time...She needed me to go real estate to ask about our lost remote, means that I was compelled to go this early, rather my own willingness...

I was scared Jenny wasn't awake at that time but thank god, she picked up my call at once...I walked to her house and spent 1 hour talking through all the stuff I planned to teach her...fixing her work, showing her my correct answers (actually I am not even sure if my answers are right but at least, they seem more critical?heehhee), pointing out some mistakes she has made from her work and explaining fully how to fix it, so to avoid making the same mistake next time...which is something a tutor should help with her student :) the offering her some strategies that can be taken to cope with terrible exam condition...I felt like myself is getting close to be an excellent tutor lool only if I can have a few more students :3 I feel excited to see what she will be getting in her coming trial next week because I partially engage as well..

After that, mum killed my battery by the time she called me after the tutoring...Soon after I arrived in train station, she came. Lucky she came to the right place at a right time or else I wouldn't know how I could contact with her without my phone...>.>

She went in another supermarket and bought another big pack of seaweed for me, also some vegies at the last section near the fridge...She didn't forget about my favourites too :3 onomnomnomnom my beef slices *o* 

Unlike last time, today we only carried one bag one handedly. She smartly put all the plastic bags into those big ones she took from home so to save more spaces and efforts...

Once I got back home, turned on my laptop, took jenny's paper out and started my job to fix her work for tomorrow's tutoring regardless I was already damn tired after all I did today. Also typing up answers for her exercises, that means, no time for me to be slack tonight. Since I gotta wake up at 6: 50 tomorrow and leave my house by 8 to go Chatswood to tutor a kid for 2 hours, then travel all the way back to hursy to have another tutoring...In order not to waste every second I spend during travelling, taking my media book with me is necessary :) I can't wait to tutor two people at the same day tomorrow...

But yes, I didn't talk to the bf for the whole day..don't know what he has been doing~hope he's doing well and having fun with whatever he's been busy with~ not angry or anything, just yeah, leaving a person hanging there is so not cool especially when you were fully engaged in a conversation, the other person seemed unconcerned..what about we just stop talking? 

A day without somebody...night

The shortest post

'Sha shaaaaaaaaa~time to wake upppppp!!!!' She broke into my room, forcibly pulled me to the edge of my bed...'omg....wait....T___T can I sleep a little bit longer..' I moved back to where my original spot was, she then lied next to me and scratched my back like what I did to her when she was sick before lol

Didn't get to do much in the arvo because I was attracted to a new show called super orator.

After dinner, mum was trying to clean my wallet and has found a bunch of cards placed in different sections...she asked me to take them all out, I claimed they are my status symbols. You know, having no cards in your wallet just incredibly seems so odd..She ridiculed my magnificent kiddish thought, pointing at my library card and uni societies' membership cards and laughed...Library card? a status symbol? Then she made me laugh as well. Her irony has hinted me that I've got no credit cards or any sort of bank cards >.>

But yes...we laughed at that for half an hour, I didn't even know what was so funny about it but we just laughed...As we continued, stopped and caught our breath, she was picking several bags for tomorrow so we can shop again. Once she mentioned about last time each of us carried at least three bags each hand, she described us as refugees escaping from a village and she won't allow this happen again, such a description generated laughter soon after she said it...It seemingly had no finish line to our unknown happiness during that time....

Anyways the bf came back at that time, I talked to his stalker today. I wouldn't call it a conversation because she just asked me to ask him if she can borrow his physics textbook... Though I didn't quite get why he doesn't allow her to borrow~meehhhh none of my business anyways...He's been quite busy for the entire night since he came back, movies then checking mails, shower for so long, came back and it was bed time already...Alright then, busy right? I know what to do then, lucky I will be busy these days too and even luckier, I am not getting myself attached to any particular person..

Nameless...

I saw Michael (what a common name...) today after the lecture..That smartass is such a liar, last time when I invited him to come to this course with me, he said his course is clashed with this one..but today he just showed up so I was like O.O this cannot be true!!

Ok I need to get more sleep, so I will make this post as succinct as possible...Later on, I went to my 2091 tut, where 5 of my friends are in there...Ailin came with her friend Gwinny(my new friend today) and I have mistaken her as Joyce (another friend in this tut)..so I greatly embarrased myself when Gwinny was so confused of my reaction....I was like sorry man...my friend and you look alike>.> (awkward.....)

Then Joyce came, sat next to me and Ailin said she knew Joyce as well...oh god...mutual friends both exist in real life and virtual network...I was still waiting for Shabrina, Lara and Cady to come, you don't know how damn good you feel when a quarter of the class are those ones you know :) Lara came with her friend, she didn't see me til I greeted her~ I talked to Ailin and Joyce alot, that energetic mood I had today has turned me into a chatterbox...I didn't even know most of the time I was the one who's talking, Ailin just responded when I paused a bit lool>.>

Cady came late and searched for someone she knew when she was at the front, she found me when she looked back during everyone's introduction...That tutor is so eccentric btw, he spent more than 15 minutes to introduce how great his contributions are to the communities, what areas of studies he's good at and how well he strategically teaches us in numerous approaches...Also, he strictly has lay down so many rules and asked us if he should have added more...one of the students wanted him to move up to the next slide so much, she was like 'sir, you have covered all that already :)' LOL A few of us have giggled a bit loud because of that>.> The way he talked has revealed his true identity, I am not being racial discriminated against somebody here, but this is like my first time ever to have a gay dude as my tutor, AMAZING!!>.> It was already so amusing looking at him chronically showing his sissy side, hearing his soft voice and curvy body movement...I didn't want to say a word because he would just pick on you whenever he feels like it...

The time he asked us to form a group with three with all different backgrounds, in order to give diverse opinions when we do the presentation. I mean, his idea is great, but asking us to find our partners within 30 seconds by asking everyone what background, what degree and if they are willing to work with you will be demanded a bit more time I guess?

The sad thing is asians in this class were a bit outnumbered so I was one of those odd one out lool when he asked if there's anyone still hasn't found a group to belong...I walked out with another girl>.> Anyways...I ended up grouping with a white girl and my friend Cady lool so yayyy I still gotta work with one of my friends hahaha

After that tut, that really really funny tut...I went to somewhere with Cady, she said there would be a club showing disney movies at that time. However she just realized she read the time wrong when we found nobody there in training 2 room in arc >.> damn it...

So I went home, posted to Shabrina's wall asking her why she was absent in the tut...She didn't check her mail, thought the tut only started next week>.> girl...you have already missed out one tut now in week 1...My friend Lara commented on my post, positively thinks it would be fun in this semester :)

So yeh...another busy day when I got back home....busy working on my students' tut, doing course readings and a lot more~ oh oh and the african's dish was so nice and I felt sorry for the girl on the news, who got killed by the pregnant woman, who pretended to ask for help and took advantage of that>< Good people should have their lives prolonged :( and you just gotta judge whether you will be taking a risk to rescue someone because it's not everyone is harmless and will feel thankful to your good will...

But yes...My day is complete :)

Wednesday..

Ailin didn't get to come to expo with us today and I made Haiwon wait at the library for almost half an hour because I missed my train. I felt so bad and sorry for everyone around me when it comes to an outting with me>.> I haven't seen Haiwon for the entire holidays, I miss this girl so much since she's one of the friends in uni I would consider as close. By talking about close, she gives me a feeling of being a really good listener, and her attitude is the best among all the people I know from uni.

Anyhow, we have been waiting there for almost an hour, standing under the heat and waiting for those pink shirt people to call us out to sign for the stickers. During the time of waiting, Haiwon told me about her epic holidays in Korea and went to her cousin's wedding in Canada. Then she gave me a souvenir she bought from Korea. A really cute notebook and a sort of iphone/laptop wiper? The way she gave me was soooooo adorable as well :3 I asked her to think about some questions to ask the employers later, she said she hasn't done much preparation as she just registered on career online site last night. Oh well, I mean you can never do enough of preparation when it comes to a face to face application, only if build-up confidence is here not to have the fear of doing lacking preparation.

We went in, talked to several employers in this crowded space. Everyone was narrowing the way we walked as well as we did the same to others. That exchange program I applied for AIESEC is not going to work for sure, I won't leave my mummy alone for more than 6 weeks...Also the internship and the person who's major in the area I want to apply for has been telling me how great this job is, what sort of interesting projects she's taking a role in, how fast this institution will get you improved in different fields, and how competitive to get to this position. And I only care about the last bit the most. At this stage, I cannot measure whether a project I will be taken is fun or not, also knowing it doesn't matter how much improvement this will help me because whatever you are doing is already an improvement itself.

Internship expo was ok-ish...no doubt, I wouldn't get accepted as every one of them is in high demand>.>

Then I left my beloved friend Haiwon, gave her a hug before her lecture started and wished her to have a good time there...She gave me a :S face signifying her unpleasant to her lecture lol

I was told not to go there too early by the bf right after I sent him a text telling him I was going. The really first time we were so sync. So I went to Hyde park and did 10 pages of readings. During that one hour, there was this oldie sitting opposite of me on the bench playing his accordion, the sorrowful rhythm has played out his separation from the mainstream when I looked into his eyes, the hopelessness and helplessness can only be felt by someone, who has been sitting there quietly for the whole time.

It was still so inspiring and encouraging to see somebody tried to earn a living with his performance, in my eyes, it was simple yet persistent. Don't know what kind of reason cause him to make this move, but he has given me this idea of once I've set my mind on the goal, I must go through with the task. My persistence may not be rewarded, but the sustained effort will be letting me to have one step closer to my success.

ok I've gone too far lol, the alone time with bf was...>.> with all those tantalising moves and stuff..We stared at each other's face for quite a while after I rejected to give him my password of Facebook. He then said I owe him =.= *contents omitted* So yeh, my manliness was up once I became crazy and random squashing his chest, pressing him on the carpet, pushing him towards his bed when he was sitting in a wrong position>.>

Funny how we reacted towards the ad of pizza at the platform when we both were tortured from super starvation. Nothing was sexier than that ad...the only unhappy moment was he kept asking my reason of not giving him the password and unwillingness to let him know about my past. Well, I will feel insecure if a person sees me through my mask? The transparency of one's identity and experiences may be a constraint to certain circumstances if others know too much I would say.

By the time I came back home, I was already damn tired...oh oh btw in my trip to central, I smelt something burning on the train, so did others>< I was like oh noooooo... is this terrorism or some sort? Several people in my carriage went for the emergency button and talked to the driver, everyone was asked to drop off once the train got to central...I just left instantly, didn't want to know what was going on there, I mean what if there was something danger during the time I stayed...

Last word: this post is for yesterday...I was too tired to update =.=

What a day~

In short, shopping with mum for an hour, she asked me to ask about the everyday rewards card when we were at the counter at woolies. I felt pretty annoying as she's been wasting one hour of my precious time while I already told her I would be pretty busy for the whole day!! I know there is nothing to blame since the food she bought was all for me anyways>.>

When I came back home, I pondered what I should be doing first...By looking at those unfinished answers for interview questions, I decided to continue with that. Although she was next to me walking back and forth, I didn't really get distracted this time. Further preparation of the interview is needed, so I added quite a few questions that they may ask during internship interview. OK...I am kind of out of topics here, a list of activities I did for today: Reading dictionary, researching some companies' background, cultures, values and their recent developments for career expo tomorrow, learning English from a grammar site, contemplating for 15 minutes when I couldn't make up my mind, checking up tips for interview...

Sometimes I wish I am an IT person :( I have this urge because Microsoft is one of the list of employers who are coming to career expo tomorrow...I tried to make myself relatable to the application of Microsoft when I contemplated today and I still couldn't think about a reason to apply for it, since they are fundamentally selling technology, maybe I can think of myself as promoting their technology?>.> yes...in my dream...such a big brand company won't give me an offer anyways>.> Just from how globally they grow and have such a big impact on every nation, a trivial person like me ain't even sure what values and contributions I can bring to them...Imagining in the worst scenario, I don't even know what questions I should ask them when I get to face a big company, my pulse will be pounding as I get nervous, then a brainless question  may pop out of my mouth: so what does your company do...oh god...no way....I rather not to ask then>.< 

Come on, heads up, where is your bravery!?! Where is that brave, intelligent, confident, humorous, friendly little Yoshi go? (sorry too many adjectives to describe myself AHHAHAHAH..>.>) Anyways there is this friendly person asked me to tutor a year 3 boy, this is a great chance for me to get a second customer in my tutoring career...

6 minutes to bedtime...the awesome lag to my net hit right on time...what's wrong with this world? Why can't you just let me do something smoothly for once...

Lastly wish me all the best for tomorrow's internship expo, doesn't really matter if I am still jobless, at least I try to attend something...night night *going back to eat my nuts...onomnomnomnom* No wonder I am so nutty these days...

UNSW I AM BACK~WOOOOOOO

That over excitement I had in the morning...That's right...I was too excited to wake up on time>.>, besides, bf himself didn't get to wake me up at 7 as we planned, instead I woke him up=.= My quick breakie was two muffins and one glass of orange juice. I know this kind of combination would get me diarrhoea, which was true...I stuck in the toilet for half an hour after I came back home...OK...I will talk about this bit in detailed later, don't worry, not now not now~Of course I don't wanna disgust anyone in the beginning of the post>.>

It was the millionth time that I missed my train...There was no exception in the first day of uni especially morning classes are just so hateful to attend to. OK for instance, no seats when you get on the train, you gotta hug the pole and stand with some tall people that your head can only reach their armpits...Not to mention that the eerie silence on the train possibly suffocate you when you are so scared to pick up a call with the weirdest ringtone you've got on your phone. The full silence can make you be the focus whenever your beeping text alert tone occurs. You just feel like getting lost or jumping out of the train when people look at you as if you are one weirdo they have ever seen today. So my suggestion is to set your phone as vibrating mode; be tough and give those people an I-don't-give-a-shit look; last solution is to catch a later train that not people are on so problem solved :) You can see I shamefully gave myself an excuse to be late lol  

Nah, I was joking...partially joking I should say, but yes, I seriously prefer to catch the later train because I need to sit down and rest my ass!! I am just so blank when I stand on the train for 30 minutes or more, a feeling of the beginning of my day is over and I need to go back home to recharge my energy...

Anyways...I met up with my bf at the entrance. His new haircut with his cute smile even made him more pinchable to my point of view lool As usual, I was late for lecture for more than 20 minutes. When I got there, there was no seats left for me in the room. It was so surprised to know much more people came to the class today. I went up to the first row and sat down, looked around and saw one of my friends was sitting right at the second row...She didn't look this side til I got her attention by texting her. The lecture was ok. However, lifting my head whenever I needed to look at the slides was getting me so tired=.=

After the lecture, went to the bookshop to get the textbook for that course. The awkward moment when you came back home, mum was bewildered as she thought I wouldn't be home that early for the first day. I felt like I wasn't welcomed when she said why I was back>.>

Then I did a lot just in the first day I came back from uni. Homework, listening to one hour of professional talk from a guy called Lee Rainie, taking some notes from that talk as well as my 10+ pages of readings, translating two statements for mum and explaining how it works, basically that 5 hours was incredibly productive.

Except I didn't get to get on with my interview questions as my brain was so drained after 5 hours of productive thinking and working. My busy life is back once uni starts...side story: diarrhea was so bad that I finished the rest of my toilet paper, which my mum just put in a few days ago...To my assumption, this either could be the side effect when uni starts or else it wouldn't be that accidental at the same day OR muffins I ate in the morning did a great job...

Her birthday is coming soon, in less than 3 weeks..Guess I need to get something done ahead for her~anyways, just talk about this some other days, sleepiness has made my outstanding expression go crappy. Sure I need to get more sleep from now on to refresh my brain...

Oh btw, I failed to be accepted by the internal transfer request. They never know how wrong they have missed out this super talented student, SHAME ON THEM! >:[  

The last day of holidays

Oh nooooooooo calendar says uni starts tomorrow!!!

AND no tutoring today again....luckily she texted me a few minutes before I left my house >.>

The last day of holidays was alright I guess...

Since no tutoring today and I have already done all the preparation for her, that means I don't need to do much for next week lool

Panpan's really busy with his family business, I mean, helping his family~

Mum asked me to go to her room so she could massage me. I giggled in pain so that also made her giggled to the point she went teary lool

Seriously I didn't do much today, one of the most productive things I did was to finish my last post. Oh also read dictionary and downloaded songs from Youtube converter. What's more? I reckon today is one of those days I finally felt completely free, unlike some other days, I've been busy like hell...Didn't really get to have time to do my hobbies such as photoshop and remix...And you know, when I had the time to do a masterpiece with photoshop, it says I couldn't get access to CS4 because there was virus involved....Alright, my destiny has been fooling me all the time, even in the last day of holidays...

Uni starts tomorrow, I thought I can at least have a relaxed day doing something I enjoy=.= Oh well...I wish myself all the best starting from tomorrow. Btw that somebody still hasn't come back yet, assuming either he has fallen asleep or too busy doing something and has forgotten about me~

As I have stated, nothing really...an insignificant last day of holidays....night