Pain continued...(29th of August)

Short post here....

thought it would not be a problem for me to finish 2000 words in one day

but it was...

1200 words were done by 4pm...

BUT....

that side of me was out again

which caused me to re-edit what I've written a few times at night

so that means, it had no time left for me to write more...

I tried to go to sleep earlier but I couldn't

still thinking about the essay and all that

adding to mum had found out something after she got paranoid towards who I talked to

she checked my messages...

like seriously....

no privacy at all..

a sleepless night

gotta wake up at 3am to continue doing my work...

such pressure...

there is a need to prioritise things

like really....

(28th of August)

After a long day editing my essay...
around 3:40ish I felt the need to submit
like quotes and everything was satisfying to read
except that it would have been even better if I could spend more time to edit to its perfection
oh well....what's done is done

the rest of the night was to chill with somebody
we companied with him to get some food
came back
and chilled with him by watching an until dawn episode
later he left
to my curiosity
I continued to skim through that entire 6 hour game play video alone in the library
instead of starting my second essay
I, once again procrastinated...
god knows I shouldn't have started that laziness ever ever again
coz each time it is like it pushes me to the edge of cliff
and that I'm going to be falling from my own fault

ok...this is it...
time to go bed...
tomorrow will be the last day to finish 2000 words essay......
oh dear...

A part of my painful week (27th of August)

been working on two things today
one was for monday readings
and the other was for my essay of course
not to mention that my printer stopped working because some paper stuck in the middle of the printing process
and I forgot to turn it off before I pulled them all out
maybe that's why it failed again...

the first essay still not finishing yet
some references are needed to support my argument
but my brain was drained at 10-ish
somehow I couldn't get going anymore
I also showed somebody my unedited essay so he might have some opinions on how to improve in some parts
night night world.....my pain is still continuing....

正能量 (26th of August)

坦白说

早上6点半起真的挺累的

而且整整一天都忙于readings and writing里

几乎连break也充分利用到读书和写Blog

所以说

每分每秒都没有停过学习或写作

虽然下午2点后开始有点疲倦

但我还是坚持把未能做essay的时间省来把readings看完

原来一天是真的可以干这么多事情的

只要你有效地去利用

还真的没有完成不了的任务

虽然从早学到晚

脑子也被使用了超过12个小时

但脑细胞没有想象中的衰弱

反而到8点后

我写essay的冲劲又回来了

于是我很起劲地找readings和edit整篇东西

而我现在看来

之前写的东西很多都是没有达到我要的标准的

所以重写某些段落和内容一点也不足为奇

大概是看书多了

想象力也慢慢扩充了罢

连我平时没怎么用过的单词突然间在写的某些时刻会出现在脑海里

essay还未接近尾声

不过我也得睡了

这几天豁然开朗

也许正因为我对家庭压力渐渐释怀了

所以本人对生活的积极性也提高了不少罢

我能感受到正能量is on its way...

好罢，该睡了

明天早起~继续奋斗！

Peak productivity (1) (25th of August)

所以聪跟我说他准备投身于纹身行业

我有点惊讶又有点替他开心

惊讶的是少有人会有这么个意愿去做这种职业

毕竟在中国这种地方

纹身本来就不像国外一样这么流行

但同时又觉得这小子活得好有勇气

居然会在某种机遇下去做这么一个事情

另外身边并无一个朋友是接触这些的

所以我还是挺佩服他下定这决心的

嘛。。。今天任务巨多

除了要开始写一部分的essay外

还得做一下design

因为high school students的水准太低

我们还是得做final touch去修改一下design

但问题是，他们竟然在word doc上做

所以我得重新把图片弄到photoshop上抹掉那些挺难看的字体

来重新做一番修改

第一次修改后

henry不是十分满意

于是他又从网上找来了original design psd file给我

叫我重弄一个

这么个折腾后

我从10点搞到几乎12点才完成

而且还有给alice做numbering

显然我不想再花更多的时间了

我真的得委托我的minion帮忙完成这鸟东西

于是整个下午我忙于essay中

看书中

break的时候还得继续读下别的readings去扩充自己的阅读量

晚上不停息地一直做到做不鸟为止

我的感觉就是就算今天完成不了

我明天是必须把这东西完成的

因为周日那美好的一天实在不希望错过

唯有秉持着这熬过去的信念罢。。

很累很累。。

另外晚上跟某members聊了好多

尤其是小jacq

她的关心和善良是真的很有爱的

她所给我的帮助胜过ph所有人给过我的帮助

之后她还不忘地帮我reserve了一个spot

也帮某猪出了钱

还call他brother in law

另，alice我也很喜欢

除了jacq以外

她就是我最喜欢的member了

很谦逊还很乖

而且每次都能在短时间内完成我要她做的事情

很开心跟这类型的人一起teamwork

最后罢

promotion真的挺有效的哈

谢谢各位的支持

我们明天才第一天摆摊

early bird就已经在今晚全卖完了

大家都激动不已

尤其是小jacq和bea她们

如果以平均每周至少50张票来算

大概5个星期

也就是第十周左右我们就可以卖到250张票了

那我们接下来就可以松下一口气不再worry这么多了

大家的努力还是没有白费的

teamwork的实力真的不容小觑呢

最后的最后

我也要努力去劝服身边的人来参加呢

比如说

周日就是一个很好的交友机会

如果能有几个人团购

那是无比的好哇。。

好了。。

又到该睡的时候了

明天早起 （我保证这次！）

继续奋斗。。

(24th of August)

told somebody about what happened to mum and I last night

including my real emotions and plans to change in our casual talk

.....another good day starts with an intense lesson

I mean, I really don't like the discussion session

morning class is worse enough

it requires you to think a lot in your worst hours would have been like hell...

like questions, then answer the questions given from other mates

and report to the class also...

was good to know that it would have been so much interactive

which it did anyways...

anyhow...having lunch with Doris as usual

my really really bestie...

but the rest of the day was with zero productivity

Seriously, no study mode at all

so I headed back home to start my essay after having some rest on beanbag in the library

ok...at least I got my essay started...

and before I went to bed

mum was there having some deep talk with me

we gradually got to know each other

I started to tell her something happened in the past

including the things I wish her to change....

Turning point (23rd of August)

Burwood half day trip with somebody...
was not too bad
but it could be much better if we picked a right restaurant to have lunch at
mission impossible was niceeeeee
lucky we weren't that late
and missed that much
by the time we rushed all the way back to darling harbour
and ran almost all the way to IMAX
the movie just started...
love Tom Cruise's action movies
always do
though this one doesn't really give us a sense of urgency as much as others do

After finishing a series of plans we had for the day
it was time for instant noodles at home
the Korean instant noodle challenge here we comeeeeeeee
despite the fact that we didn't have much to prepare for the challenge
even didn't have time to make sure whether phone or camera has enough of space to store the videos
anyhow...
filming has been fun
the entire process was more of a child play
we introduced the noodles a bit
and tried to dramatise the effects
it seriously wasn't that spicy for me
except that my face was reddened
and had me sweaty
but the taste wasn't bad
it was actually spicy in a good way
which I still wanted to have it next time

was a fun night ey
fun killing started when I got home though
a night of pain and miserable facts of the past was once again, came back
this time, I finally couldn't hold it anymore as she dragged me back to the room from the bathroom
with me naked completely
just because I came back home late...
her over-caring has made me feel so sick
so I let everything out as I cried next to her
as I started to get so anxious from how I almost couldn't breathe as I cried
she started to ask me what happened
I told her everything, from whatsoever I feel towards everything and everyone
from how I don't like Australia because the sadness from the past has saturated...
also how I have been having that much of burden from time to time
not that they know of...
I bet it was so much of a relief after we rebuild our relationship tonight
I try to move on
like I really try...
this will be a good turning point to get away from my hardship...