lol Saturday (3rd of May)

I raged like a tornado at somebody again and totally ruined a Saturday which wasn't supposed to be like that. It was just a feeling of being played and treated as unimportant...You know when you've waited for several hours of no response until you made your first move to ask if we were still meeting up. Then he said we weren't lol...Now you see how unimportant you mean to somebody...NOT IMPORTANT AT ALL~lol ended up going unsw but couldn't even get my work done then ate alone at a random restaurant...really good life there~ :/

Cherish your day (2nd of May)

Being with Natalie for couple hours in her dormitory enjoying our time alone to decide what each of us is going to ask and answer for our interactive Jap exam. Time flies, three hours were gone along with lots of happiness, frustration, and problem solving. To try to make the conversation more interesting, we have added lots of humorous effect in a drama queen-ish way. Funny how my tummy kept on making sound as I fasted for 10+ hours, Natalie found it hilarious and poked my tummy >3< ahhhhhhh SHTOPPP IT T____T I like this cutie pie because our silliness is at the same level which we found this group work quite fascinating as you think you've found a right partner :3 However, by the time we finished making our own version of Jap conversation while I ate most of her chips, >.> it was already 8-ish....The coldness I felt once I stepped out of her dormitory gave me a shiver and the bus took me 20 minutes to wait >3< My hands had turned all icy as though I was just coming out from a freezer.

Sadly I didn't get to finish my plan for the day as I came home too late. Even I had not much time to enjoy my meal that mum made. I quickly finished my dinner and hopped on computer to get something done before my brain shut down. Somebody told me something bad happened at Burwood and hj was forced to close for 4 hours. Most of the time it was the driver's fault, and today's case wasn't an exception. Motorcyclist has overtaken a bus and hit an old lady in her 70's. How unlucky a person could be these days. People, please be careful when you cross the road even when you think that's safe enough to cross, doesn't mean there is no danger counted on other factors.

PS: talking about birthday pressie, I just feel bad having nothing for somebody. I know he likes luxurious stuff which I may not be able to afford it...
PS1: Nice talk with mum about friendship and benefits you get from friendship, and nice video she showed me that made me cry my heart out. Standing on the stage to express how much she loves this person in possibly the last day of her life, yet she can still smile off only 20% of the chance of surviving after the operation. I mean, how positive she could be, you only see bravery and love in her eyes... *bows*

Thirst for knowledge (1st of May)

Yes I woke up at 5ish this time just to finish my really last minute screenplay that is due a few hours later lol.. I knew that I'd be late again for my Wednesday lecture so I asked Seri to sign my name when it was close to 9am. Naughty brother then said I'd owe him 3 milk tea...lool Not remembering what time exactly I got to Central, but I was blocked by a Chinese oldie who came up to me and asked where to get to a particular street in Hurstville when I was rush to AIT. I then told him this is city and that he had to catch the train to go to Hursy. Without knowing which street that is in Hurstville from his written note, I felt bad that I couldn't really help a lost person that much. Funny how I didn't notice Kael was just standing there 1 meter away from me and waiting to cross the road when I was talking to that oldie until he greeted me lool>.> I was more surprised that he had to go back home and get his celtx file as he saved the wrong thing into his usb..

By the time when I arrived at AIT, the first half of the lecture was almost finished. Then Tia who was in the computer room waved at me before I was going to go to my lecture. Mind you she skipped the lecture too but she wasn't the only one. Some people that I saw were supposed to go to same lecture as I did, were all jigging to do their own work. So I walked in the room where she was, and she needed help to save her celtx work. I guess online celtx is really different?

I showed Tia my hard copy which she spotted one error I made. I forgot to put a dot next to parenthetical of off screen god damn it=.= But yeah...even Seri laughed at my silliness of being so careless>.> I was sitting with Seri in the second lecture the whole time. He then showed me what he made for his animation project which is a weirdly shaped cat. I couldn't tell what it is if he didn't get its body fixed >.> Before I left for my second class, I waved at him saying bye, he ignored me the first time, then I shouted at him at the front saying how impolite he is to his sister, he then realised I was saying bye to him. Before he waved back at me, there is this white guy sitting at the front waved at me saying bye and everyone just laughed their heads off...

So today throughout the lesson of digital images, we were taught how to retouch the face using photoshop. Yes, you've guessed it right. This is one of the most usable method for girls these days to beautify their faces in an image by removing pimples and smoothen their skin using photoshop. Helen taught us how to use several tools such as patch tool, simple and fast. But after all, to make a face looks natural, you need to flexibly choose the right tool to cover the flaws the previous one left.

pre-production class was full of fun. In lab class, we are always allowed to move around like today, the whole lesson was just for those ones who haven't finished their screenplay, the rest of us didn't even need to come. But I was just one of them that care for my attendance so I did stay for the whole lesson. My friend Gold was there painting his coffee cup cover while I was searching for some samples of how to do a storyboard. My new friend Carson sat next to me doing nothing but talking to me for an hour. He told me that he got his offer from Macq but refused it all because uni doesn't seem like a right choice for him. Like the rest of us who come to AIT, it's our creative mind that pushes us to do something different. Well, in the meantime, it's the practicality AIT has here that many of us believe this is a right place to reach our goals. Carson's friend called me an expert for helping him with his screenplay last time. As he didn't go to the lecture this morning again, he came up to me and asked if I could explain how to do a storyboard..Knowing how time-consuming storyboard is going to take to finish, I suggested him to invite his friends to be the actors so he could save hassles. Then Pai came to me 20 minutes before the class finished, she asked if we could do it together next week after classes. Collaboration is the best hahaha

Anyways now my friend Gold has gradually become my idol lol He's one of the oldest friends I've ever known and close to. (After today's almost 3 hours of talking, we just have shared so much....this is what an ideal friend should be like, an experienced, mature guy that knows a lot and can help me in so many areas)I was told that he did the military service before but didn't know he was in airforce department for 2 years until today. That's something new to know. And because that I am highly interested in any air force related jobs, I got to know a lot from him who told me quite a lot of things that all of us may not know. He even told me some codes such as the geographical locations that he had to remember for the sake of any emergency might have occurred. As he was there for two years, he was a part of their team that handled most of the problems when North Korea airplane crossed the boundary of South Korea. I got to know so much more history from those hidden facts between North and South Korea from him. I used to think that South Korean has this snobby attitude toward North Korean until he told me that they actually feel pitiful to them who live in such a poverty. It was quite interesting by talking about their physical practices such as they were locked in a room full of chemicals to experience the pain they'd possibly get from that weakest chemical weapon. Even without skin corrosion or even worse situation they might experience, staying in such a place for 5 minutes is painful enough to have that extreme moment of hell. Apart from all those things from air force department, this guy knows how to use so many softwares. When I asked him each one of their function, he clearly described some particular tools and suggested me to use which software for what purpose or need. Like geezzzz man....How could you be so pro....I mean that a few hours of talking have let me discover sooooooo much...Then he showed me his personal website and blog. Most of computer people, should have learned CC language and should be able to make a website. He has proved this. That official website of his seems quite professional in a sense and the exhibition of his artworks are so abstract. That's one thing we both are in common, mind you that I like abstract artworks as well. Anyways, he LIKES blogging too!!! He updates his blog every now and then when he feels like expressing his thought. Knowing him is one of the happiest things recently, I mean, he stays with me for couple hours and waits for me to finish my tut task, helps me to fix any problems I have. But most importantly is that he IS sooooo intelligent, almost have everything I want from a friend!! OK....I am getting too excited here....

I told mum about him when I got home. She said, now you know the benefit of having a maturer friend? I always like to be friend with maturer people as you can learn a lot from them. Oh btw...forgot to say Gold got the same result as I in pre-production O.O Anyways....She was patiently listening to what I think about all my friends. It was more of an analysis of what each person is like in my point of view...At late night, I have read some articles before I went to sleep. Craving for extra knowledge is one necessary thing to do in life. Knowledge is just something you will go no where without it. Of course, a blank canvas is to be filled with different types of colours (knowledge) including those from other people you meet in your life's journey, there will always be excitement no matter what...

Diligence (30th of April)

We start to learn PS6 in our digital images class. The first lesson is just the basic to use our old friend-the pen tool to create a path and use colour adjustment to change the colours, eventually use lasso tool to highlight some important parts we wanted to show from our chosen images. Gold and Pai came to me after the class when it was the time for me to learn extra things from those two pro ones. They have taught me some shortcuts in order to save me so much more time to do my tut tasks as usual. Gold and I walked back to central together afterwards and we have shared so much as per usual.

In our way back to the train station, I asked him to wait for me outside of maccas and ordered a Mc spicy because I was super hungry. I didn't get to finish my last bite until I arrived at uni and attended my Jap class. That was the first time I was late for my Jap class so everyone settled down and class has already started 5 minutes ago. I didn't get to sit with my friend Kiah as that table where she was sitting was already full, then I went to the table at the back where there was a vacancy there, and sitting with a guy with glasses. He must be a smartass just from the way he talks as well as he got even higher mark than me for Jap mid-term exam. Anyways he was such a keen one asking about the bonus point from doing our homework, and he also told me sensei hasn't decided which week we should hand in the homework yet. And because he tapped on my shoulder and sort of freaked me out before I walked out of the building, we both talked for a bit on our way to upper campus.

I skipped my media tut just to finish most of my screenplay that is due tomorrow. I gave up writing my media blog for this week even though I seriously wanted to make it as my fifth post. But for me, I don't like doing something that only for a do-it-for-getting-the-mark-yet-not-putting-much-effort-into-it purpose. If I do a task, I have to make sure it's up to my standard or else I rather to wait for another right time when I'm inspired.

Ok enough of talking about my boring break there. Productivity is something that I need the most, not just me, this is just a thing for everybody to achieve each day but especially when you have two degrees to handle, time is your biggest enemy striving you for completing each task at a faster speed. My Jap seminar within that two hours was great except that I made Fukui sensei a bit unhappy when she found out I didn't do her homework. Although not like I did that on purpose, but she had a few minute talk with me which made me feel like she was asking me to be more aware of the fact that I'd fall behind if I am slack off. Jacob san was so late for the class and hence, I partner with Natalie for our interactive exam next week before sensei announced we should find a partner...If I waited for a bit, I might have partnered with him. Natalie has gotten my contact details, fb, wechat and phone numbers, just everything. I told her to fb me tomorrow night though I wasn't sure whether I'd be free by then. Funny how the Jap supporter has given us an intriguing fact when Jap women have their own way to carry their bags. Therefore we can tell who's Japanese on the street lol

My last two scenes of my screenplay has disgusted me a bit since the climax has to be extremely horrifying, also I have ran out of my brain cells for the day so I chose to finish the whole thing tomorrow morning..Just leave me alone...I need some sleep now...

PS: to add something for 29th of April, I forgot to mention about Seri who mischievously used HIS method to entertain me in a way that it was such a bad timing to bring up something regarding to the supernatural thingy...Meditation does do good to your blood circulation and good spirit, MOST importantly is that you will be more aware of your surroundings which you are now able to see something that others can't see. He got me so frightened when he asked me not to be dreamy and create any illusion, but stay with strong eye contact or else you'll be the next one to see something unexpected...because they do feed on weaklings...

restless brain (29th of April)

• report (done)
• readings (all done)
• media blog (half done)
• screenplay (1/4 done which is the one that I worry the most as it's due on Thursday)
• Had more than 6 meals today plus watched two talk shows during my breaks 
• Productivity to the max
• Now my brain needs some rest...
• night

Define life (28th of April)

Dizziness caused me not being able to go uni in the morning. It's a typical problem after one night of one or two hours of sleep for me. I mean, I am that kind of person that need to have at least 6 hours of sleep at night which I rarely do so. That's why I always be like a half charged battery having energy drained 5 or 6 hours later. I thought I'd have gone back to sleep. Somehow, I was encouraged to review Jap and Media lectures that I missed for the day as the first thing I did after I made up my mind not going to uni. Then later on, I have gone so studious the rest of the day as my study mode was on as it proceeded. I completed my online forum which will be due this coming Wednesday. I have read through everything from two lectures and taken down some notes. To get half of my jap homework done and left some for tomorrow. But most importantly is that I've read more than 100 pages of readings including online readings for media course. Those are all for me to prepare for what I need to write for my blog. 

Briefly run through something I read or heard today:

Doing online forum is a compulsory ongoing task to replace our tut discussion weekly, I treat it as less important and hence, it's the last thing to do. However, I do learn so many interesting facts about Science like the videos some others link to their comments. I don't know if other groups will be as same as us who largely contribute so much more external resources to put in a long chunk of comment. At least in my group, I see quite a few of them not only share some academic readings and movies via links but also the videos and books they introduce there are worth your time to explore. These great commenters also drive me to spend a lot more time to devote to this online forum. Anyways, for this week, our central topic is about intelligence, a distinction between human and other species. Several questions are derived from what the lecture is about but most of all, I found one of them have argued majority of others' point of view when the question is asked how the intelligence which can adapt to different environment (human) is different to other species who can only adapt to one single environment, and if the former has more evolutionary advantage. It's seen to be an easy question and obvious response to our prediction: Yes, definitely the former has more evolutionary advantage because problem solving formed by the complex structure of mind (We don't say brain here. Conceptually BRAIN and MIND are two literally separable things) which the surroundings are easily understood by us to know how to act, react and enact. Thinking process can never be linear and we have that ability to make the linkages with past experiences, whereas what makes other species more subordinate is that they are less likely to formulate an equation to adapt to the change of environment. Therefore humans have been living for years because we significantly develop our ways to build our shelter towards the predators and that increases a much higher chance to our continuation of reproduction. However this commenter disagrees with others, she said that when facing with MOST of difficult problems, human might be the boss but here, we put emphasis on a particular situation where other species are recognized as geniuses such as the KOALA (yay....I used koala in my comment as well :3) with scent gland in the centre of their chest to rub on the tree trunk for the sake of dominance. But after all, her point is coined with the word 'DIFFERENCE' to oppose other commenters. And I supported her with my agreeable manner providing other proofs to further up her view of difference. I use this example of a foreigner speaks a broken version of whichever language we speak, ok say, I am Chinese, I just came to Australia and that my English was much crappier than now. It sort of gave people a first impression that I was not intelligent or maybe I was even accused of having this speech problem too because I couldn't even express my thought fully. And half of the time I felt quite frustrated of not being able to directly make an effective conversation with people. However, you can't say I wasn't intelligent due to my language barrier, nor can you even make a comparison to whether you are more intelligent than me when we are just DIFFERENT. To link this back to other species and human, talking about the different levels human and other species are, there is no hierarchies when difference is acknowledged to be the case.

OK...another thing I've heard the most is gratitude. That shared moment when mum read me some stories she read from wechat where it seriously has become her main resource centre to expand her knowledge lool So here are some of my opinions I have for three stories. To respect your parents: doesn't mean you are obliged to create wealth for them but spend more time to be with them and understand them. Some minor things could always make them utmost happy. To listen to people who in need, help them without any rewards...

Anyways before I am going to finish this post, I just want to say.... The rent will be increased in two months. I am not sure what kind of challenge our family will be confronting. But I hope that before all that coming, my life is no longer a mess, so now I need to make a balance, a great great balance in order to prepare for my further decision making.    

Cruel reality (27th of April)

You know how much impact the ferry disaster has on Korea when you are heard that the Korean president has resigned because of that. Mum and I were talking about the most recent incidents, the missing jet MH370 and the tragic ferry disaster both involved a large criticism towards the governments. Korean president is just purely unlucky to encounter such a day during his time of presidency. Imagine how bad you feel when someone throws a water bottle at you when you sincerely visit a grieving one :/

I finally have started to construct my screenplay. But it'll be a bit hard to manage to finish it within 6 to 10 pages as you get carried away to create that extended version through this process. And to my curiosity, I was searching for some pro screenplay online, such as the one for Frozen which I have bookmarked it for further reading when I have time. I like how long the introduction has taken up a few pages just to provide background info before it gets into the actual story yet you don't find it long-winded. A good read, a valuable resource to know how to make a proper screenplay for a starter.  

And I dreamed about Grandpa last night and it gave me this feeling that his presence was just there yesterday. In that dream, he came back and visited us. Even though I clearly knew that it was his spirit that talking to both mum and I, we weren't scared to look into his eyes and had this long conversation. I remember he told me how beautiful the after life is. The peacefulness is nothing you will ask for more. From how he described everyone there, you pictured how friendliness people are there. It's a unity, a paradise of what he really calls it as similar as Australia. He said, people all speak different languages too but he has found his way to cope with this. I was trying to decode what message the dream sent to me when I woke up, and I guess that, it's not really a dream if you think deep about it, but more like a clue from grandpa telling me something.

Thinning my hair after my shower was the first thing I did. Mum was right next to me while I was looking myself in the mirror and using the razor to thin my fringe. Yes, save up money and time if you are capable to do it yourself.

To end the day, it wasn't a happy ending when you gradually lose hope in a relationship. Someone said I am like a tornado grabs him off the ground whenever I rage. I really wish I am one so I won't be coming back to the same spot man~

But thanks Seri who spent an hour talking to me at late night...