周六狂野 (28th of March)

抽风抽到过于严重

好像快接近变态了

今天一整天没做过任何工作或学习上的事情

除了对着dar dar发了一整天神经

另外终于在一个月后激情地kiss了两次

在library睡了两小时后

还有被announcement吵醒后说人家的是开玩笑以外

今天就是一个放松的日子

我大概是少了一条筋

还是要抑制下过度的大笑

不然会吸引很多尴尬的目光

嘛。。。这段时间有点累

我只想要呼呼的大睡

很多事情还是不说出来的好

委屈什么的还是自己知道就算了

话说责任还是在的

正是因为责任在

所以某些时候就算不是自己的错

做head的还是得承担所有

再者，其实我不想多说什么了

洗洗睡。。周六过去了。。。happy hours也得结束了

明天还得投入身心继续接受命运所安排的考验

PS: voting day...go labour

Ordinariness (27th of March)

Couldn't go sleep til 3 last night

due to the fact that VP asked me to do 200 tickets for the promotion

They were all thanking me for being so devoted to whatever I am asked to do

Plus I was having so much fun doing the 27th letter exercise

Without asking much help from Sharon

I finished my tasks and showed her

She said the sentence at the bottom was excellent

The appreciation of the brightness I had today made me go so delighted

Bet today was a fine productive day
I even finished a few paragraphs for 2036 assignment 1 within one hour when dar dar was away talking to his parents...
nothing much happened afterwards (I just cannot remember for some reason...)
day ended...sleep tight pplz...

Me le boss today (26th of March)

Screening time...three words: traumatizing, dramatic, tragic

not so productive today though

I didn't get to write even half of the essay

I just couldn't concerntrate at all, it was more like my brain losing its sensational part of things...

lunch with dar dar

somebody told me he would be looking for job right after his project

but he might extend the date to submit his project

meeting with my members

boss all the way to 7:30ish

Jacq is so active, I had some good vibes from her presence

 Jerry seems so quite, just like how talkless she is online

the short reply, the shyness, the shame not to say anything wrong

And funny how I mixed up Summer and Jerry all the time when I called out their names

Even before that I thought our department would be lack of members

now we seem to be outnumbered

People who have taken a few roles have to be taken off their names from the list

so to give that spot for someone else that hasn't arranged for things to do

Like Joyce,who was keen on helping

and misheard roundhouse as your house where she was asked to stick posters at

LMAO...Joyce is my super comedian who brings light into my life since the first day I knew her

Sorry to say that but to the ones I couldn't talk to much, such as Jerry and Summer

maybe next time when I see them again, we would be all friends, much closer

Sorry for my selfishness to dar dar who bought back the fried rice without receiving my thank you

I even snatched his chopsticks away and started using them...

Dar dar must be so tired of me sometimes

I seem like I am the one adding even more burden to him who has already been under so much stress from his project

Yet I couldn't be more to help him or understand him, or even treat him nicer

So to make it up for that, we both went to Coles to get him stuff

he bought the watermelon, the huge one

During the time we walked back, and waiting for the bus

That sudden depressing thought hit me right on my face as I was told that he wouldn't go to uni anymore after his project's done

I know how less time we would spend together

Not that I'm surprised

more like I already have known

It's just how it will turn back if nobody's there

emptiness remains, you find something's missing again

plus, sleepless night

much work to do for PH

200 tickets, meeting agenda thing, chi versions for both flyers and posters...

What life means to me? That is, to finish whatever I can finish til I can't...

有意义的几件事 (25th of March)

今天总的来说是个很有意义的日子

原因有几个

120拿到了

这算是我第一份正式工作拿到的第一份工资

然后在lunch之际，去了siege的lindt cafe看了一下重新开张的案发cafe

当时很多外国人围在外面

新开张的lindt cafe并没有让众人疏离

反而更多人为了纪念逝去的两个英雄而去捧场

厨师带着平常的微笑serving customers

见到了几个大婶一直指着那两块金牌说disgusting

她们眼里对袭击者的那种愤怒

还有许多白人自觉地去送花

让我感觉到这个民族的凝聚力和团结

他们对互相的爱四处可寻

从那一瞬间我眼泪浸湿了眼眶

我仿佛又回到了不知道是哪一天

可能是上一年

再上一年

我被某些瞬间感动到不知所措

只是因为一个举动

一个表情

一种无形的力量

我已深深地为澳洲人的淳朴而感叹

第二件事是当我回到ait我被同学的爱而包围着的温暖

其实是小事一桩

就是Nelson帮我提前霸位置了

我一进去就看到他对我招手叫我坐他旁边

全班看着我踏着小碎步有点尴尬的去到另一边

接着那一群朋友一边拉着我说话一边说

太好了，这课有你，我们就不担心了，我们有你照着 lol

Mickey还一边捎着我肩膀一边问我冷不冷

于是Nelson就跟他说 人家是女生 不要吃人豆腐>.>

Nelson还口口声声跟他朋友说要跟我一组做assignment1...

嘛，其实对我而言，跟人合作还是自个儿做都一样

反正做的量也少不了哪去

另外我们之前没准备要将自己的设计present to the class

而Diana要我们每人介绍自己上星期的设计

这么一来，大家紧张了

幸亏我还是蛮淡定的

我把整个过程讲了一遍

她还建议我改哪里会使我的设计变得更好

嘛

在ait继续待1个小时这样子

把任务全完成后

回家途中收到n多信息

有人希望我帮她看一下post

有人希望我帮忙一下essay
exec and committee groups很热闹
还有人问我什么时候有空聚聚

我edit了一下我member的post

然后又不好意思地拒绝了ailin的请求

如果我真有时间

我绝对会帮

但这段时间真太忙了 :(

开心的是

我最近的proactive-ness让Barbara和Beatrice很高兴

尤其是Beatrice，她感谢我这么积极地帮她，建议她某些事情

还每次秒回他们的信息

我突然感觉到那一瞬间真正融入到一个团体工作的愉悦

有时候我会无法适应其他executives的高要求和刁钻

可是我发现当我慢慢尝试去接受一些事情

还有一些人的时候

这些事和人并没我想的那么difficult

她private message我的时候

我淡淡地笑了

我感觉到她感觉到我的转变

使得她对我渐渐地改观了

有那么几秒的触动不知道是她说的话打动了我

还是我的行为打动了她而我自己为她的喜悦而打动

反正吧 有些真诚不是做出来的

也装不了

真心诚意是用心去感受的

你做得怎么样

是不需要强调的

当事情的标准达到别人所要求所期待的时候

就算是默默不语的你

也会得到别人的赞许与掌声

Mah Tues (24th of March)

Mah Tues...

Class, break, class

break with dar dar

who came 20 minutes later

such a humiliation once again gotten from him who described me as one clumsy piggy >3>

In class, Linda greeted me, couple people sitting next to me so we formed a little group having our discussion about the poem we learned from the lect today

Heavy rain caused some accidents though

Depressing weather had its own depressing moments...

A girl fell (I think?) when she was carrying the rolling bbq thing with the guy

Bea said she was bleeding and lying down at Mathew's

the exit of the building was blocked

full of people standing there surrounded the spot where the scene was taken

I hope it wasn't that serious anyways

So I was asked to go home earlier...

like before 8

the restriction of freedom is happening now

or shall I say to how long it would stop

It actually has been with me for years

the over protectiveness of the parents

the lovingly restrain from a mum

the pressure I got from being such a good daughter

.............

So I was told that we would be having this committee meeting next Wednesday

and the after-race dinner would also be held on sat

so many events

so eventful that life is too good to be true

yet too busy to even have some rest

or just take a day off

You know how bad it is to hear about the bad news of the recent flight crash, again..

Sometimes you might think you are the most unfortunate

but look at the ones who lost their love ones in some atrocious accidents or some natural disasters

what would you say to this?

the most unfortunate hasn't happened to you

we should all feel lucky how death hasn't arrived

You ain't on the list of Lucius..

Think on the bright side, we are still here enjoying our days

the present is great

yesterday was great

tomorrow will be greater

that's only when you don't admire of others anymore and start focusing on what you're doing...

New member (23rd of March)

Another boring cheesy film in my media lecture...

Doris and I were like OMG...

But still, was better than the one we watched last week...

Grand Hotel was one of the worst, of the worst...

I couldn't be bothered to do much promotion at the stall

But nice to know a few more new friends from there

Damian, the white dude was suggesting to act out a scene lmao...>.>

Oh and Jacqueline was shoooooo cute...who came to the stall for food =3=

Glad to know that she'll also be in my team throughout the year :3

Nice talking to her within that one hour man xD

I could already feel her amazingness from our convo

Smartass is studying software engineering lol

I wish this cutie can cope with all the workload after all haha

Other members such as Christie is good too

she instantly sent me messages for the promotion post in the morning for me to check

I told her some minor things have to be fixed

after a few times of re-editing

everything looks perfectly written x3

For Patricia

I know that she's a hard worker

so I didn't expect much from her to dedicate so much to the deadly race

but at least she responded me with everything I wanted to know

Life shouldn't treat her that bad..

I seriously regretted my last decision to take Philbert to my team

he didn't seem quite interested at all from how shortly he replied me

=3=...

Jenny didn't come because she was up to something

well, I will see her some time next week then

Seminar made me sleepy...lucky I had my hat with me today to cover the sleepiness appeared on my face

I really didn't want my tutor to see how inactive I was...

Finally finished everything planned for the day

the newsletter and all

like FINISHED...

dinner with dar dar

that has always been my happiest time in my day when I see someone's face

Remember all those little things during dinner?

My retardedness is brilliant 

seeing someone being happy made me even happier too

However...I was forced to go home before 8 these days...

this restriction was imposed upon by her, again...

strict rule...cannot disobey... 

PS: room booked

group  meeting this Thurs...

prepare for my meeting thingy really soon!

高效成事 (22nd of March)

完整的一天

早上去meeting两个小时

被分配了多几个任务

还被hr director唧唧歪歪了一下

yibing迟到了将近45分钟

接着hr director继续唧唧歪歪

说到几个她认为貌似我们不怎么做事的人

她貌似欲言又止，没提到我，但我也猜到她对我有多怨妇了

所以我决定在Minutes后做出所有的改变

去到lab后我一直马不停蹄地计划今天要做的事情

把成员加好，讲好一切要做的事，跟他们分配任务

弄了一下roster还安排了这周四晚上开会

所有的一切都掌握在我的计划中

我在联想着

只要把这part搞定我就可以休息那么一下下了

为了确保每个人的回复必须速度

我那么bossy了一下下

催他们like的like，查的查，share的share，comment的comment

反正就是要给我response

现在这时间紧迫的关头

我觉得我也丧失了原有的善意

更多的是希望他人能理解

毕竟每个人的时间都是时间

我的时间也是时间

我必须高效做事情

也需要尽量把每一件事做到近乎完美

回到家嘛

还在忙admin的东西

所有加的加，告诉的告诉

继续忙着该忙的

也计划着该计划的

明天又是个好日子

只要心态好

其实真没有什么handle不了的

在生活里不应该有太多的浮云

因为当空想成为一种习惯的时候

就意味你赶不上该有的节奏了

可能这两周还忙到吃屎这样子

你看我脸上也熬出了一颗大大的青春痘

原来我还很青春呢

还很有活力呢

还有很多奋斗的精神在支撑着我呢

所以我还怕什么呢