C'est la vie (17th of January)

C'est la vie

Life, living, happiness, family, friends 

C'est la vie

today, I went shopping with her

because she said she needed to get me some formal clothes for work

Tireless shopping for discounted goods at hursy

I found my leather shoes

and the second item only charged 50% in the same store

Happiness

from both of our faces

I even asked whether she was happy

when indeed, I should be the one feeling even happier 

since they are mine

...

C'est la vie

Shopping for clothes

Heaps of choices

with low prices

in Myer

countless of trying, with minor discussions in the corner 

with her, who has high standards in every little detail in goods

We ended up laughing the hell out of us 

picking that many 

as if today was boxing day..

But she's happy, as happy as I, who was also being happy for her being happy

She does care how elegant I will look

I start feeling myself is changing

the style and everything that is shaped by how she wants me to be

I do know how I should dress for work

though being casual is the most comfortable for me

But yes, we adapt to wherever we are in, right?

C'est la vie

ordering some food at the food court

and been talking about this big shopping day

seeing how satisfying she was

I ate with a smile on my face

C'est la vie

crazy ride? peaceful days..

Some say the true secret of happiness lies in taking the genuine interest in all details in lives

and some believe life is about living, happiness is dependent on how high you want to be

But I agree with the philosophy which says, we don't remember days, but moments

This is life..

Pamphlet design (16th of January)

Long story short

No hope...really no hope to contact with that maintenance guy

From Monday, to this Friday, I still couldn't reach him 

Nobody picked up the phone call

She asked me just keep calling next Monday...

About my pamphlet design

no, I haven't started it

But flyer, yes...been doing two versions in several hours

Bits and pieces were fixed to better, til I felt they were ok to show somebody

I like my own design...I'm sorry to say that

And I like my concepts too lol

Though nobody will be asking what a design means to a flyer

Nobody would be interested in knowing the story at the back..

Btw somebody's video posted on Fb today and I watched it

It suddenly dragged me back to a few years ago when I was in love with Fish Leong's songs

Especially her 小手拉大手

好温馨..好温暖..

Endless unknowns (15th of January)

Not so sure whether I got the good length of animatics

But I've done enough of work for the visual effects and transitions

even Sharon said mine looks so interesting and cool

She also said I might trim down my animatics when I actually do it

Back home, been watching several series of that show

and I was fully inspired by the talks and the speakers

For some time when I watched it, I took a glance at that guy's face where the speech reached its climax 

that everyone gave him applause 

I shed some tears

Like everyone else, how can we not feel proud of having someone to speak the truth out

and having this absolute attempt to do something for a country

We are too small to be influential, but thinking so big to change something

Language could be the killing weapon, or the greatest gift, all depending on what you want it to be

By watching this show, it makes me reconsider what should be achieved in our lives

the goals we have set on any stages, are we on the right track to chase our dreams?

what about some delicate things we don't pay much attention to, will that be the reason to make some changes at some certain points?

We ponder on things, heaps of things, beyond what life has presented or make its appearance to us

I really love how this show unfolds the really deep side inside of us, and letting us know 

there are still a lot to learn, a lot to enjoy, and a lot to change, rather than standing still 

and having zero progress in the endless road

Life might seem long

but at that blink of eyes, or maybe the next second, we will be gone

We don't see what's coming

unless we have one step forward..

PS: Glad to know granny and her had a good talk tonight. As she said, no relationship can be maintained close if you ain't willing to make the first move to reach that person

PS1: a few hours of photographing the third part of my animation, was a great success to keep myself awake til 2pm. I couldn't let go of my camera and my set up. I really had my good time starting picturing my animation from this moment. :3    

Complicated human (14th of January)

No...I rather not to believe that charging $20 is true

 Medicare's free of charge has been years

Now you are telling us this will be abolished?

And that we have to pay to consult a doctor?

Will that be too cruel for everyone to accept that Australia is no longer a welfare spending country

in which the government won't take care of the poor?

We all have learned that several sectors will be defunded as that part of the $240 mil budget cut
the move of Abbott's government is only inflicting more chaos, reducing service levels and putting more pressure to the ones that are the most vulnerable
Maybe there will be even more horror stories coming up
What grassroots can do is to take the best care of ourselves
and to make sure the continuing brutal act won't affect us much
..............

Animatics is done halfway
I quickly cut the storyboard into individual images from PS
And putting them to premiere pro
started doing my video making
But it has taken a long time to add all the visual effects and transitions
I tried to do things quick
But someone has been asking me hell lots of question when I was doing mine
I seriously don't like this guy bothering me some time
One that treats you as a friend, but you shouldn't have taken this for granted
I mean, why can't you just come to the class at least once a week
So you know what we're doing =3=

A box of salad for lunch is damn healthy I guess
At least I didn't go for fatty food
I really love my chicken and the topping they put in
It tastes so good

And I really hope somebody's mummy can recover soon
It sounds so bad when you know the root of your tooth cannot be removed
I still remember that once mum had her toothache
I felt her so much just by looking at how much she struggled to get rid of the pain
But it was unchanged
And that had lasted for quite a long time
She had trouble eating, I ate whatever she cook which wouldn't affect her pain too much
It gradually healed
Just like her shingles, it may seem she's healed, but not completely
it's still there
sometimes food will still get stuck between her teeth
and that tingling feeling left because of shingles
still there sometimes
I still remember how I got back from writing diaries after half year of stopping
That is exactly during one of the darkest periods
Her pain, a lot of pain that I felt from her, and during a long time I had been taken care of her since that shingle happened
I cried with her almost every night
I finally felt the need, and a must to express myself again
because I just couldn't take this anymore
I may make this sound a bit too far
But it's true
Love can only be defined when you want to take care of this person for good
when they need it, they need you, and you won't let them be alone
When they are in pain, you feel more painful than them...
................

Anyways, I would have listened to more if I didn't fall asleep during screen editing
I seriously didn't mean to do that
But I was having trouble to keep my eyes open
Lucky I've learned some parts taught by Patrick when I was in my yr2 in uni

Another pedo stared at me for quite a while before I dropped off from train
That eye rape moment was still
Uncomfortableness was filled in the air...

Thanks Sinclare for helping me out with the content writing
I thought I would be alone again, doing all the work lol

And and and and bruises rubbing was freaking hurt
Especially I was banned from yelling out my pain
because she said, it was too late to cause noise >3>
That cramped feeling, numbness, almost detached my flesh and my soul because I tried to distract myself from thinking and feeling about the pain I experienced
I couldn't feel my legs, or should I say my legs weren't belonging to me for quite a few mins...
I don't know how I got through it
I really don't...

Lastly, maybe sometimes I'm hypersensitive
I didn't initially think that will cause us unhappy in the beginning
I may care so much the sacrifice I have for a relationship
because I never want to be the one sacrificing more than the other
Or maybe I was just overwhelmed by some emotional stimuli that I didn't even get to realise
Well, who knows?
People are complicated.... 

Say yes to confidence.. (13th of January)

  A great success in the interview

Thanks for Jamie's help 

A friend in need is a friend indeed

This girl is such a great friend of mine

who came all the way in order to bring me her jacket and shoes in the early morning

Though I didn't really fit her jacket

which looks over-sized on me

She then swapped her shoes with me 

Just to make me look taller with that jacket

I was brought to this building where it only took less than a minute walk from the train station

It is a huge luxurious office building since I had that feel as I walked in

Like any of the Airport check-in

There is a gate where blocking us out

And we needed to tell the security guard who we were visiting, which level we were going to and all that

The guy next to him smiled at me, and said 'You'll get the job. Good luck!!'

lol...I already could feel I was full of energy to face my challenge today because of this smallest act

The interview went well

better than I expected

But my introduction didn't go smoothly 

In the beginning, I was nervous for 10 seconds

And I paused when I spoke

I even forgot to introduce my educational background and such

Until the interviewer asked

A lot of common questions related to strengths and weaknesses, attributes and personality, working experience and educational background were asked

I guess the strategy I used, did its magic

 Acting I can do something by telling myself 'I can do it' really does give me confidence

Thanks for manager's friendliness too

It let me feel so stress-free when talking to him

I knew I would be passed

Just from how he's been telling me what the training is about

as well as he started asking my availability to work

But still, I would have performed better if I could have a few more days to prepare

My friend said she cares more about my availability than anything else though

Anyhow, I received this message telling me I got accepted from Jamie a few hours later

That was fast

Indeed fast

Of course I was damn happy too

Before I even got to AIT

That sudden upsurge of happiness and pleasure is the abiding sense of achievement

and satisfaction derived from having my goal reached in 2015

I promised myself that I'd soon to at least find a job this year

and I didn't know it would come to me this early

Now it has proven that chances don't knock twice

We don't wait, we grip it as it comes

So I also promise myself, I'll work damn hard

and manage other things well at the same time

My excess energies will go to all the possibilities to seek for my better self :)

PS: Hope dar dar's mummy will be recovered soon. 

PS1: Promotion and design department is getting busy now. Pamphlet and flyer have to be done this Friday...Lucky Sinclare seems like she's willing to help writing up the contents lol

PS2: Must have been eating too much meat these days. This horniness....>3>

Lucky job found (12th of January)

Wow....Cicret..

Really a secret that may lead us to another level of technological advancement

The development of skin projector, this incredible futuristic wearable technology is simply something functions the same as our smart phone which create images and the sensors along it 

creates the touch interface 

But you know what?

Later, curious me actually googled this product which claims that it'll be coming out this year

And I found this article says that it doesn't exist

Every second we watch there is deception lol

It's just the depiction of post-production special effects...

Well

DAMN YOU INTERNET

Why do you have to make us, the customers disappointed 

having no hope in believing media anymore...

Why the heck you have to turn this incredibleness into the bubble illusion...=3=

I bet she must want to get everything fixed

Like...She wrote almost 5 or 6 items for me to tell the property maintenance

I was trying my best to figure out in what ways, to include everything in the request of repair 

will sound less embarrassing..

I made a call

Nobody was responded from the other end

And I waited, waited and waited

I tried for another 2 times, and still didn't receive any response

She then asked me to call him again tomorrow

I thought today would be boring day since nothing much happened

The only thing surprised me today was that I was asked to go interview tomorrow

right after I left a message to my friend, saying how I am interested in trying that sales job which was advertised from her post

I quickly re-edited my resume for a bit

and looking for suitable formal clothes I can wear for the interview

But I couldn't find any

As I asked for her opinion about whether my selection of clothes is formal enough

(sure I did try my best to look for the most formal ones too..)

Her multiple 'no' was the denial of almost everything lol

Including my wish to even go to the interview

What can I even do if I can't even prepare for something formal to wear?

She then said she can lend me with jacket and shoes 

Thanks hell lots Jamie... lol

In the rest of the night

I've been preparing for my interview

Firstly, to search up some basics of what this company is about

As well as what responsibilities and duties of the position I'm applying for

Then to look through the past 50 questions I've done for the interview from my file

In the meantime, asking for dar dar's advice 

By showing him what I'll be answering to some relevant questions tomorrow

And he had some suggestions in how to improve one of my answers

Lastly, thanks for Jamie's clothes, dar dar's support and mum's faith

Yes people, I'll be fine

I believe in myself :)

Foodie Asian (11th of January)

I wouldn't have a good day anyways

I just wished it can stop raining outside

I didn't want my day to be ruined

and when I planned something, I just have to do it...

This is just me

In order not to leave regrets

I still would rather go out and see someone

than staying home

Nothing much we did today

But seeing him is the best thing for the day

Nothing else needed to ask for

I helped him to carry 2 cans of honey 

And waiting him inside of the delivery store to get everything done

It wasn't a good time hanging out in such a rainy day

Even we had trouble looking for the restaurant to have lunch

Ended up in a Jap restaurant where I ordered a seafood udon

and he ordered his tempura udon

Later he said to me how less food they put in

Compare to mine which at least contained several different types of seafood

They weren't worth the price at all

But his was even worse

As this one was grunting how hungry he still was

We decided to have some desserts at LNC

the dessert house we were planning to go last time

Yes, we do make mistakes

I make mistake almost everyday o3o

Not like I don't admit that

I do, and it was the right time to check GPS to ensure if we were on the right way

Since I claimed that I couldn't wait to prove that I was right earlier

But I was wrong...It was like what he said

the next street should be it..

Mango bean curd jelly and the signature dish were ordered

Yes, I'm on my period

Sweet, spicy, cold, raw food should all be banned

But nothing can really stop my attempt to eat unfortunately..

The signature dish was ok with variety of toppings surrounded it

But the mango bean curd jelly was sweetness overdosed...

Oh we both learn the difference between papaw and papaya too...

Before, I didn't know there are two types of papaya existed 

At night, spending a couple hours staying at his house eating and watching variety show 

Laughing hell lots

hugging hell lots too

Can't remember how many times we have shopped for food together 

Every time when we do that, a little picture will form in my mind

as if we are now a family

 Similarly, there are so many times that he asks me to cook fried egg for him

Up til now, I still haven't done it for once

Perhaps next time, or next next time...

Thanks for the food anyways

Happy monthsary again...May our following months with more support and love altogether!!