Faith, love and hope (24th of January)

P and VP love my design

P has no problem at all 

VP only asked me to send the files so he could fix some wording and add some extra info in

I'm happy that my hard work has paid off :)

The rest of the day

I was chilling by watching that show with mum

It was the semi finale to decide who would be in the finale next week

I truly support the disabled, who assertively brings up his thought

and encourages his group of people

letting them see the hope, the positivity

and making the others to have more concern with the ones in need 

by magnifying the issue of the disabled should not be mistreated..

I was surprised too, when there were only 4 votes from the media judges 

 That moment of awkward silence on the stage, under the stage

onscreen and offscreen

a supposedly high votes to get him into the second position turned out to be the one losing his possibility to get in the finale

Wouldn't this be too obvious, and proving a point of view he just brought up from his speech

his mentionable isolation of the so-called abnormal people

the disabled

shouldn't they have the right to speak up?

Why don't we give them a chance to show themselves?

What on earth is happening to a show

that should be showcasing the truth of people's voice

instead of caring much about the result

that may favour the show itself..

I don't think it was a fair vote

none of us would feel that was fair

but I truly wish this little guy

will use more of his power to influence more people

He's just like any of us

regardless how much physical flaws have made him a bit different from others...

For others, the only female's speech has made me touched

I think that was the best speech she's ever made

Though I seriously don't think she should be in the semi-finale

Seeing that many contestants, whose are seemingly more of a super orators than her

Like so many of the audience, I would have thought that she might have used her connection..

But the most impressive speech from the last contestant

was the one that inspired me the most

his style of speech, from several small examples to reflect something big behind

I like how he made the word 'home', to resemble the country

the political issue, the returning, and the feeling we all have for having each other around

the separation from losing the closest ones, and the desire to have them back one day

It was not sudden at all

He does know how to make it sound so heartfelt...

For this, I would say I wish he wins the competition..

Btw knowing that the two Japanese will be executed by ISIS

if the ransom is not made in 72 hours...

To save the innocent citizens, or to think about for god's sake of the country

which is more important?

This is one question asked 

and to answer by the Society

the PM, and the people..

Let's pray for the victims...

PS: Thanks for dar dar's sacrifice to get up early and download my movie tomorrow>3<

Thish dedication (23rd of January)

A whole day of work on my pamphlet

two blog posts

and some animation work in AIT

though I had no classes at all today

Look at my dedication

feel my dedication

even my friend Carson saw me sitting in the computer room

and said to me...holy...no class? yet still coming to do your work?

So productive

too damn productive

But I couldn't spare much time to start doing my trailer

I wish I did

But that one hour of delay coming from two laggy computers

which I tried to run photoshop

but they lagged halfway through =3=

Getting so many likes and one comment for my video posted on screen editing group

Feeling so good about having people like my work

plus pamphlet is done

Not sure what kinds of comments I will get from my president

or I may still need to make some changes where needed

But now I'm tired

and I was also told that training may happen on Wed and Thurs

which I ain't available :/

Jamie gotta re-arrange another time for me
However, she did say the manager might not be free on the other days
since majority people have put their availability on Wed and Thurs..
Not sure if we gotta stay with this schedule forever
or just the first week of training
I wouldn't know..

Oh god...I have to say this...
The drama which my friend is in
is so damn funny
The new season is finally released
That's why I couldn't stop myself from watching it
though it was late night already
But since I've been waiting for this for soooooooooo long
Please allow my little wish..
LET ME WATCH IT FIRSTTTT >3<

Workaholic continued.. (22nd of January)

Feeling proud to get my pamphlet started in the early morning

I care so much of every little detail I put in

that is, every component is essential to make up the whole

Each of them has to be thoroughly placed 

and this takes time

decent amount of time

My animation was complimented by my teacher

She said I was on a right track

The only problem is

my setup wasn't correct

I had to move to another panel in order to change to a 12fps sequence...

She called Adam to come and teach me what to do

since I followed his step to do what he taught us last time

but the setting still wasn't right

He said, maybe I forgot to modify the interpret footage before actually do the setting for sequence

though the speed of my animation doesn't seem rapid at all

it actually keeps at a steady rate

which is weird, as Sharon said

Anyways, after changing back to a right setting

I could finally get going with my work

I bumped into a few friends of mine

Gold, was standing right at my face when I was looking for a computer room to do my work

Like what Mickey told me yesterday

He told me again his tragedy too

He said how he has been looking for a few lawyers

and waiting for the receipt or some sort for the compensation

He wouldn't come to AIT til next sem too...

I truly wish he's tough enough to face this

He does look he is totally fine...with a tricky smile

he even came all the way to AIT to help Pai lol

And I told him lots of happenings to me too

including my job found, my designing job and such

He described me as an usual busy one

whose got work to do like no tomorrow..

Which is true...I stayed til 7:30 again til I finished my ADR tut task and such

Btw I didn't know she would be this mad 

I mean...I know...but I didn't expect that would make her as mad as something big

I should just take that in mind

Finishing my bottle of water...>.>

PS: Nice to bump into Pai and Mickey again.

I was told that Pai would be going to somewhere else to continue with her Bachelor later on

which means, I won't be seeing her next sem :(

Wish her all the best in her coming future though!!

PS1: Babara is such a dedicated executive, trying to get everyone work their ass off and asking us to have a weekly meeting from next week

But I ain't sure what time I'll be available, since my training is also starting next week..

But as she said, she has made herself so clear to everyone that

whatever situation we are in, we have to leave a message informing everyone what's been going on

because nothing is going to help if we hold our silence

PS2: recruiting new members is something I have to do. And to make sure they are a bunch of active ones so I can have someone to help me when I need it. 

PS3: After a while of non-contact...Someone finally went to see her..>.> Such a relo...

so much to do with the patience, habits and cross cultures...

This is why they are easily to have conflicts..

They ain't trying hard enough to know each other...

PS4: Thanks dar dar for correcting me a word in Chinese...>3<

Be like a workaholic (21st of January)

That was the second time I talked to Folk in the class

She was sitting right next to me during animation class

We both were quiet til the end of the class when I had some trouble with my project

I asked her if she knew how to solve my problem

After a few minutes of explaining, she totally looked confused

Nelson was there doing his too

And he told me that he still had a long way to go

as he has to draw more than 200 pictures at the very least

to keep his animation running smoothly

I told him how he had make the biggest mistake

He just never listened...

so now he told me he finally realised how wrong he chose to do hand-drawn animation...

I didn't go anywhere during my lunch break after class

All I did was to look for a computer room to keep doing my work

Later at 1-ish

I felt the need to have some food..

So I took out my lunch box, sitting at student lounge to start chilling for a bit

Til there was this guy looking at me at the door

I took a glance, and once again, lowered my head to continue eating

He then walked towards me, and I heard a familiar voice asking me why I ignored him

I lifted my head, watching his face, then realized it was Mickey...

Since he has changed his hair colour and I haven't seen him for too long

I didn't recognize him in my first sight

Especially at a long distance

I was told that Gold got in trouble 2 months ago before they were going to move out together

I absolutely felt their pain for getting the house stained with black liquids

And the thing is

the house was rented

Now they have to pay for all the damages and such

which may cost quite a huge amount

Gold even quit a sem, just to solve this..

Anyways...Screen editing was nice

Putting the ADR to the video was a fun thing to do

If not all, almost everyone did theirs in an ironic manner

to show how funny we can do the remake of the trailer

I love Patrick's version

the humour was put at such a perfect timing

the gags he wanted to make us laugh, work so well

Once again, I was the latest one to leave AIT

I can't remember how many times I have done so

I don't mind leaving the last

but the creepiest fact is, the deadly silence in the toilet had creep me out...

Bruises rubbing killed the most...

It left me with scars

It's all about taking it like a man, and crying silently like a child

I couldn't bear with the pain brought by all these ruthless rubbing

Yet I had to stop myself from screaming...

Tough much....

Thanks fattie's encouragement

his words have made me feel the need for being humble

I still have a lot to learn

and I'm ready to learn more, and more...

Maybe in their eyes

I'm like a forever young

But I'll surely prove that I have grown a lot

so they can stop worrying that much from now on... 

PS: Feeling so warm by reading some wechat conversation

It really helps to heal the pain >3<

And maybe I've thought too much

sometimes it's still hard for me not to think the opposite of the fact

Maybe the imaginative annoyance is all from me 

who has been worrying a little bit more than I should have

But somebody does have his own way to give me a good sense of security...

Productivity(n+) (20th of January)

So much fun in my screen editing class
with all my retarded classmates who tried to make fun of each other
when doing the ADR for our film trailer-Avenger 1
Some of them even changed the dialogue to something rude
I heard several times of 'bitchslap'
and the guy who said 'We are not a team...we are a team'...lmao
I couldn't stop laughing the hell out of me..
Everyone took turn to do the recordings around the class
Some people didn't even know how to handle that little electronic device in the beginning
And Patrick was called as a sexist as he imitated Folk's voice like a little birdie...
.........
Yes...Our trailers would be so much varied if we mixed everyone's voice altogether
without considering the gender of the original characters from the movie..

Work work and work the rest of the afternoon
...
Having my loveable lunch box at the station while watching everyone hurriedly hopped on this train and next
I was sitting there and waiting a train that wasn't relatively too packed for me to get on
for more than 40 minutes
seeing more than 7 trains gone from my platform
5 people came sitting next to me, and gone when train came

More work to do when I got home
Henry said, there should be some images to add in the flyer
which I told him how I thought of keeping the design clean and simple is more important
He then asked maybe I can go with some clip arts and such
and I said, I will see what will be the best to fit in
As if I am the president which I ain't lol
I think I might be a little bit frank
and a little bit blunt
but this is me, I do say what I want to express..
But yes, doesn't mean I don't listen
So in order not to disobey someone's order, I downloaded some photoshop brushes
to create a simple version of image, putting it at some corners where they seem to be fit

Congratulation to Jay Chou
who's eventually married to someone he loves
Not a fan of him
Yet, I do listen to his songs from time to time
Some of his ballads are good to make me feel so relieved
and may go emotional too
Unarguably he is a talented one
just by knowing his wedding song is composed by him
is enough to prove once again, his love for music and passion for life is unbeatable

Heard that terror alert level has lifted to high for Aussie police
I mean, safety is all we care the most
because even the so-called strongest people are in danger
then what about us?

thanks, and giving (19th of January)

The strong attempt to help that granny as we both were told that she's got nobody to help her out

She told the story about her life when talking to mum

One round after I jogged back to the park, mum asked me if I could fix her phone

We've learned that her son is a prestigious one who's working in the government

he got his master degree at USYD too

Owning a big house, having a great life with his wife

One problem is, his wife was being selfish, asking this granny to move out because she wanted her mum to live with her

Yet, the son didn't disagree at all

says, the wife would get divorced with him if he didn't do it so...

About the daughter, she got her governmental payment

 claiming that she's been taking care of her mum

But she didn't. Or just hardly. Perhaps she only pays a visit once a week, for a short time

Every time when the granny asks her to sit down and stay a bit longer

 There is only refusal from her..

This granny has been working for 4 years

and all the earnings she had, goes to pay the mortgage for her son and daughter

But what's in return?

Nothing

Even worse, the abandonment, the irresponsiveness, the lack of caring, the unforgettableness 

Just like any of the similar cases I've seen in my past

or even happened in my extended family

What's wrong with people these days?

Regardless everything we gain from the materialistic world

where is the most essential parts for being a good daughter and son gone?

Why is our love supposedly devoted to our parents, now is engulfed by irrationality, luxuriousness and selfishness? 

Why don't we stop for a second, and think who's the one making us to become who we are now?

Just by looking into the granny's eyes

We saw sorrow, disappointment, and all the negative emotions we would feel

if we were her

And that mum and I have written her a note in English

just in case she couldn't get her phone fixed

then she needed to go to the store to ask around

Coming back home

she said, I actually felt comforting, at least having you to be with me

and helping me whenever I need

unlike the granny, who's been alone 

There has been such a long time she ever said such a thing to me

Because most of the time

when there is no comparison 

you won't know how contented you should be feeling

Like everyone else

we don't usually ponder on how much we have gained

but only focus on how much we have lost

until there is one day, you lose a thing

someone important

or even your own self

then you start to realise

you should've felt lucky to say 

that you have been lucky to be you

everyone might somehow go through some downhill

upbringings might not always be around you

but isn't this what life is about?

You gain, and you lose

you love and you hate

gaining and absorbing the good, or vice versa

losing could be good or bad, it depends

Being loved and love the ones you should, no regrets

hate might be too harsh, but you learn

And don't forget to thanks giving, especially to parents, to the ones you shouldn't forget..

PS: Too much chilli and meat last night, burning sensation coming from my a-hole when I pxxped

PS1: minor discussion on IELTS test. I am keen on helping somebody to get a good mark in writing and speaking. Time is limited, but strategies to improve is something we aim for

PS2: no work done today. Unproductivity. However after almost several hours of fix, a night of wait, I finally got her phone fixed as the software eventually installed. She found it strange to use the new system, I asked her to take some time to get herself accustomed to that..

PS3: Feeling so warm hearing her saying how lucky she has a daughter. She said, the scariest thing to a mum when she's old, is that the child isn't willing to take care of her. 

PS4: love the talk, one of the best talks I've listened to recently. Time, should not be forgotten, but recorded. Because time, is the motivator for us to do things. Perhaps, this is why I like blogging. This is my way to record my time, the values for the time being...

fun shared, love is there (18th of January)

妈妈的温暖

谁也代替不了

连衣服什么的她都帮我想好了

只是连环call多了点

连去到circular quay

我还在车站跟她聊了一会

对于颜色布料搭配适合度尺度尺码价格

反正能想到的她都能想到

所有的要求她通通跟我说了一遍

以方便我的选择

虽然我有时会觉得她做的每件事过于谨慎

但其实有时刚好填补我粗心的个性

好吧，在wharf互相擦防晒霜是第一次

但在众目睽睽下擦就不是第一次了

能无视所有人的presence就尽量无视

如果闪瞎了别人的眼其实我们也是不负责的 :3

kissing point跟别的point没任何区别

景仍然是蓝天白云树荫花草与海滩

但最起码静谧的地方还是让心情很舒畅的

而后在这陌生的环境中我们也渐渐少了刚开始的抱怨

我们牵着彼此的手走过一段通往不知道何处的小路

而旁边就是一栋栋各种造型的houses

坐在树荫下我们享受着安静的这一刻

我拿出了我的（书包里的）香蕉

^怎么感觉这句有点黄...

anyways，在kissing point吃香蕉会不会有点奇怪？

somebody躺下看着我的吃相

然后一如既往的会心微笑

接着我吃完后躺在他身旁

两人望着那微光

透过叶子

直直地照在我们的脸上

我们冲着对方的脸

突然有种要啃下去的冲动

当然，在kissing point怎么能不kiss

在这种气氛的催化下怎么能不激情

毕竟陌生的环境还是让我们走了很多冤枉路

尽管我有探险家的精神

并不代表心情完全不浮躁

也许我有时语气差了点

把某人当assistant carry this and that

我们找到了去另一边的捷径

可是由于那里需要我们攀爬过去

我犹豫了好久

最后还是决定去大路到另一边

那边并无任何特别之处

除了水公园被设计得有点像珠海的梦幻水城

还有几个人在那个小水池里浸泡着

就像是一个小温泉

其实我只是享受着某个人的陪伴

然后我拿着我新买的camera

在我无数次体验拍照乐趣

慢慢的在他每次跟我讲构图与技巧的学习中

得到的一点点满足感

就already make my day了

菜鸟的技巧有待提高

很感谢他每次看我拍的照片后提供的宝贵意见

有时候也许细节里我并没发现照片哪里有不妥

不过每次通过他的指出的瑕疵

我渐渐地了解到跟所有其他事情一样

拍照也得注重很多元素

那些图片所隐藏的所有元素

正是每个专业摄影师所追求的

好吧，之后回去circular quay的那一程

我们搭错ferry了

延着反方向前进的ferry

把我们又带去了一个叫armony的island

命运把我们带到了此地

是不是暗示着这里值得我们停留？

我是一个不喜欢错过任何机会的人

对人是这种态度，对事也是

sometimes things won't turn out to be as good as we want it to be at the very end

but believing and trying is a good attitude to confront what life presents to you..

而且我这次的决定也并没错

虽然他已拖着疲惫的身躯有点不请愿地跟我又走了走

嘛，调皮的我就是逗趣

简单来说，就一逗b

我甚至可以不厌其烦地对着同一个人说着挑衅的话

不过这个人一定得是一个有宽容心的男。朋。友~

男朋友是好人

他了解他女票是个长相有点点kawaii

性格也有点点借着自己有点点kawaii而卖萌卖到出格的人儿~

情侣间调情是必须的

撒娇是必要的

卖萌能增进感情，恩！

我觉得最后飞奔去wharf的那段路

又让我回想起gc trip第5天jet boating的那天早上

男朋友可不可以跑慢一点。。。。

downhill我真不敢几步完成

毕竟我对鲸鱼摔已经有了阴影...

刚好mummy在那时叫我填表

天啊。。。可以不要这样折磨人吗。。

^戏剧化的一面完毕

再来就是

我大腿和屁股蛋好！痒。。

我必须使用咆哮体here...

其实我是很注重形象的人

其实我也不想当众抓的

but I seriously did..

我们包船了嘛

不过就一个站

然后我又在ferry上疯狂了一回了嘛

因为抽风的个性好难掌控

某人还show me some hardcore Japanese meal

incredibleness? Nothing is really impossible

Japanese的勇气再次证明了这一点。。。

吃屎原来还可以这么吃的

different flavours..

我是不是该回去play一下two girls one cup来向这article致敬一下?

嘛。。我从tao tao 那里学到了直形码头原来是pier

额，还有就是hotpot的浓烟是真的能把一个人逼到逃到另一边的

你看，我们俩都坐到了对面了

貌似讨论了良久的language thingy

我跟他说了我的经历

他也跟我分享了他遇到过的尴尬

气氛很好

食物也很好

还有他帮我剥虾了

我们还说好，下次我们可以去一个地方做自己的事

因为他真的太忙了

AND。。。for some reason...I couldn't have my confidence to speak mando when asking for something from the waiters..

ahh...sorry for being such a lazyass..

应验了他那句话

我们最后是靠着意志完成晚餐的

leftover其实还有很多。。

可不可以不要吃完

腰已长多了几寸

像某人

那圆圆的肚皮

让我很想用手指戳一戳...

PS: GOD DAMN LA......LALALALA....I look too damn high class with those types of formal clothing

Even I have to say...I really look so good with them

everything matches the best

top, skirt and shoes...

mum's choices are good, always been

I guess I am not as resistible as before to try out my new look...