3 days (17th of March - 19th of March)

课堂上有点冷清。group work有点不想讨论。自个儿有点萎靡不振~
不过知道有熟悉的人一块儿上课还是很开心。又见到了Robbie和Cassie他们~
课后准备回家时看见了那两个posters。开始准备想着artwork的ideas
只是film it and show it那个实在太赶了，10天里要弄一个有故事性的短片，还要edit会比较棘手
当天晚上我很积极地弄材料，想concepts各种，可上官网查了要求后，就觉得得放弃参与了~
虽然奖赏还蛮吸引人的，但时间实在不够充裕，没什么信心能入围~

但，决定要弄showreel了~18号这天查了好多好多资料，以参考各媒体界人士为目标，他们说的如何approach VFX and animation的东西我给记下了

再，晚上去了PH大聚会。见到了很多朋友，其中包括3大presidents。我跟Bea他们坐一桌所以气氛当然是炒鸡激动的。Bea这妹子把每个人都搞high了。Mish他们还order 3L的beers4个人分着喝。我还好，酒量还是不错的。不过最后split bill时因为我太老实的关系，我给了20块等着他们等会会给我找15块钱，但最后他们竟然说餐厅没找任何散钱了。我这才开始后悔了。。某Andrew和大面还说最后会还我15块可没人再提起了那件事情。。。本来没有要去desserts的打算，因为这样，我end up去了。大家怕我不开心，分ice cream时都说不用我掏钱了~

再，就是回家后又是不怎么开心。。因为麻麻的手机又坏掉了。这次是连打电话的那个green icon都没反应，还有icloud的那个问题，不知怎么得一直就是pop出来。所以她特别郁闷烦躁~我尝试着帮她修复但无补于事。寻求某猪的帮助，他很乐意地帮我想法子，但依旧不管用~

那个烂苹果可把我急坏了！！！简直就是我来大姨妈时给我的负面情绪火上加油！

再吧~又到了第二天。。。19号惹~reset系统不work。。把手机的一切东西都save到hard drive了，可，reset完全没有修复任何一个问题呀！

所以！最后决定跟老妈子一块儿去hursy问修机店怎么回事。。。谁知道那师傅也非常无把握地说，要先弄好那个问题，就得先知道icloud密码~BUT，现在问题就是上不了icloud！这就是根本的问题！就是首先无法解决的问题！那意思就是说。。。这手机得告别了。。别无他选。只能买部新的。。。之后就跟麻麻去选购一台既便宜又跟我S4差不多的机体。回家后立刻帮她install她所有东西，弄好她的一切照片，还有！教她怎么用！~就像是教一个孩子英文一样，一步一个脚印地教她怎么弄好一个function各种

还有吧。。今天下午吃的盐酥鸡那一幕还真是奇葩呀。。我差点就觉得不好意思了。。。竟然能在柜台前argue这么久。。早知道我就order一份鸡肉就算了>.> 不过还是感谢麻麻带我去买我最梦寐以求的辣鳗鱼！！么么哒！

(15th of March - 16th of March)

Afternoon catchup with our dear PH president Millie, who described a lengthy love narrative of her own to me. I've never been to that coco cafe in uni and that was my first time to visit after I graduated. Funny much? Then Library, a long-time-no-see-missing-it-heaps place. We just chilled there, almost whispering to one another as the people surrounded were all quiet. That moment for not being able to feel the same as them now is hard to say what that really is behind...Maybe that I left the school, or maybe that I was never belonged?

btw I'm impressed by dar dar's promise because he can really make it at the end. Not like you say it, but not take any action after that. He does it as he says it. wubby you dar dar! :3

again....design crisis....conflicting goals.....somebody was being so stubborn that he has to change my design to his idea.....so I did it again....and I felt repressed for not designing freely....even the B, just the B....he has to ask this for hand-drawn~but as mum said, come on, if I can overcome this without being paid, I surely can get things done better and more patiently if I'm being paid from work. So this picky customer is like a trial test for me to learn how to cope with people...well thank you?

thanks for dar dar's photos~nothing better than seeing somebody's face :)

(14th of March)

Webby with somebody in the morning. Seeing him already made my day so far. Time ticking as we talked a lot, not even realised how 90 minutes were gone...

Back to AIT where I already missed the first lesson....damn that pw expired, if not, I would have attended it...It was a short appointment anyways. Then Lisa and I met Nick at the staff office, where I bet him if I could join his class....without knowing he only teaches drawing, embarrassing enough to know that what I want to learn is something he cannot teach >..> But Nick was nice enough to tell me more ways and easier to step in the door. Like the DLF thing, as well as the showreel thing~ I should really get to start my showreel a bit sooner then :)

Accidentally, Adam's class was exactly the same as the one I wanted to go....(grammatically incorrect?) anyways, what I mean is, the class that I wanted to join earlier with Lisa, is with the same teacher (Adam) of the class that Lisa attends. COOL THAT I COULD LEARN MAX AND MAYA WOOOHOOOO that's only if I can attend each and every class on mondays. Which I would, as he allows, unless the class is full... The talk with Lisa after class was heartfelt. She even gave me this lucky charm with her blessing gotten from the temple, to wish me to get a bf~~ and definitely, we discussed something about the media industry, as well as ways to get in. Not too much to tell her about the script writing and all which she has to know so soon anyways.

However, I can't go rock climbing on mondays as classes will be taken that time. :/ I will miss them feels, that groupie feels I've found....if ever they can change it to sundays some time, while I got nothing on, I would definitely be joining again!! >3<

(12th of March - 13th of March)

学长又很有耐性地跟我练习了1个多小时的车。今天练习了倒退和parking。倒退还ok，parking需要多练习，不过也算是跨出一大步了。接着吧，我们闲聊的时候涉及到了他的工作环境什么的，他跟我聊了一大堆他们公司繁琐的手续。我这才顿悟到原来背后有那么些故事是我们普通人所不知道的，还要什么抽电话记录来决定季度的加薪什么鬼~好辛苦的一群白领。我算是终于理解到了某销售公司每次打来的死缠烂打了。所以呀，人在世上真的得对别人宽容点，很多事情比你想象中的要复杂。

之后之后吧~design又算是完成了。。。只是。。。某人貌似觉得design的颜色不算是太突出咯，所以我又改了改layout去加进整体效果。。。我们俩以为这就ok了，还算是挺满意的

谁知吧。。第二天早上就收到信息，而且还是发错信息到群里的一条一秒激怒我的信息~我当时就一直狂飙怒气，只是刚好lunch time未来得及发怒而已。饭后就立刻spam某猪的wechat，跟他说了一大堆有的没的。心里太郁闷也不知道如何发泄，真想一下子捏si一个人 =3=  可同时我又很静下心来继续修改着我的design，然后又发了第三个修改后的设计给某猪~

整整一个下午纠结着一件本来与我无关的事情，我就是那种做不好一件事，无法move on到另外一件事上的人，所以我想尽量快点完成这个拖了这么久的design。其实我真心觉得第三个版本是还可以的，只是我还是达不到某人的标准罢了。这也是为什么我会很动怒的原因。毕竟每个版本我都花尽心思去设计，但还是沾不到他要的东西的边儿~是哪里出了问题，是我们沟通上出了问题吗？还是我们的审美眼光有冲突？

很抱歉我最后对猪发了脾气，还很拒绝跟某人谈话。其实我觉得我自己也诸多不对的，但我又无法容忍那谁的做事态度~ 之后某猪好像也跟某partner说了吧，所以某partner也跟我道歉了。。。但这事还是没完呢~我还是得继续设计。。继续弄。。。

Due to the fact that I'm now in Ait. Gotta use English to type up the rest here. So I watched the film 'Room' this evening. I like it for being so real, with the suspense that was withheld almost half of the film. Following by the discovery of the mother and son were being prisoned in the shed, I almost shed some tears at that moment. Besides the really purity and innocence of the son that had his anger towards all that unknowns of fear induced by his pushy mother. All my empathy goes to that poor mother who has been holding all the secrets of suffering all alone. Lucky they eventually had their way out back to reality, where they still had to adapt themselves to a complete new environment for some time. The mother was even more lost than ever, after she was interviewed by the media, and that what they asked has caused her guilt towards her beloved one. It was a heartbreaking moment for the son to witness his own mother's suicide too. What this film has given me with some thoughts would be highly associated with the special bonds between the two protagonists. Apparently, that is what keeps them not to give up, not to be surrendered in a hard time. Even when they were felt in a way of abandon. They fight, they stood up. And even more, the case of this kind evidently shows that there are lots of people like this might be still going through the same. The past is hard to overcome, people are ought to give them more support by getting to know them, and not to discriminate them...