Sweet memory (17th of May)

So I hardly imagined myself evolve into a lady-like one when I was a few years younger but I seriously feel that I am starting to enter that period where that girly side is gradually coming out from nowhere. Yet, I'm not ready to take it. My coolness, on the other hand, has always been there and I can't live without it...So here is the question: Can you be a girly girl and cool girl at the same time? Because seems like my uniqueness of being odd is slowly blurred into the really mainstream of being one of them wearing dresses and looking pretty...Yes, not to mention that my mum, is also the one that wanting to see her own daughter looking more feminine. Sometimes, a change is not really an option but a trend that get you to follow...

I guess if I didn't remind that bastard what he has promised me last week. I would have gotten so irritated for wasting several hours aimlessly wandering around at Central instead of doing my work at home. Yes, a week ago he said that he'd be home. I am not saying that I am not letting him go to his group work BUT please notify me any changes so we don't need to waste time on each other. You can go and do your group work thing and I can stay home do my own work. This is why I hate people making promises or forgetting about what they have said, just like today when I was almost close to Central, he then told me he's going to his group work and will text me back when he'll be finished. Freaking panpan spammed my phone for 50+ times as he said, I finally picked up his call at Central and walked to platform 19, this one suddenly hugged me at the back which scared the shit outta me. Soon naughty him, as usual knows how to deal with my grumpiness. He is able to cheer me up as fast as how he make me grumpy lol We were all good by the time we arrived at  his suburb. He then complimented how sexy I look today. On our way back to his house, he started his car talk again.

Back to how lovey dovey as we always have been, passion came fast between us. Funny how he wanted to force me to eat his apple pie as one of the things that I don't like, and he ended up cooking himself a bowl of noodles with chicken in it. While we were watching Mr peabody and Sherman, (the animated movie about a genius dog adopts a human child) Panpan fed me with his chicken and noodles. Too much sweetness you got from hugging a person while watching a kiddy movie together.

Going to Strathfield to have dinner was my choice. Picking a Korean restaurant was also my choice. He didn't eat much. Most of the time, he ate side dishes while staring at his phone and reading manga. I silently ate my beef udon, and being teased by him occasionally. Leading me to MSM, the coffee shop where it does generate us some sweet memories. The nostalgic atmosphere it creates there has somehow reminded me of somewhere similar I have been before. Yet, I cannot recall where it is. I love the theme there as every little item surrounded you has their own story, and a magical feeling of that you are attempted to extend their histories by adding your memories physically being here in an gathering or a date. After all, a great place, great great place to spend time at. Without a companion, it will be led to loneliness though. So I was happy that I had panpan there. We took several selfies, posted them up on fb, and talked about some random things in the remaining 2 hours. Much appreciated, we enjoyed each other's presence, at least I did...

*Dummy...you forgot your key though lool...>.>*

Family commitment (16th of May)

Since when I can finish what I plan for the day...Most of the time I can only get them done halfway through. Time...our precious time, you never think time is enough...Like today, I was dragged to go shopping with her after the MTC. My initial plan was to get my storyboard work started and finish it up by Sunday. Guess now family commitment would be taken up my whole day. But I'm not saying how reluctant I was to be with mum. The really last time I went shopping with her was a few months ago...

She introduced several new places for me such as the huge liquor store where it's located at the very ground floor at that huge Hursy parking. It's twice bigger than the one in rivy and they mainly sell wines. I wonder how many types of wines in that store no matter big or small. The huge differences in prices in each row is distinguished from the year the wines produced, as well as other factors that I can't tell lool They all seem to be relatively expensive to me anyways. I had this urge to take some photos here to show my fatty from oversea, the lover of wines, imagining he could pick different bottle once a week or so or simply just walk around this place already will make him so happy. Later on, she also led me to a massive Chemist's to get her QV product. Reason why she didn't purchase til now is that she needed me to ask for some advice as well as how to get that bonus 250mL for free from the shop. Also she got me some new clothing, the one that looks like a dress yet it's not lool...(how to call that kind of clothing) Mum also introduced me two more stores next to 85 degree bakery where they sell mushroom bread and fried chicken wings...Dinner time was at a Jap noodle place. I just miss that place so much. I remember in my first year of uni, I usually would have dinner at there after my Monday classes. Now today, I brought mum here to this one at hursy for our family time. She ordered the beef rib super chilli one. At the same time, I ordered another super chilli prawn noodle. During that waiting time, fatty called my phone and talked to us for another 20 minutes or so. 

After we came back home, I thought that I could finally get back to work but no....guess I was wrong again...She got her flybuy thingy from her mailbox and I had to read through the booklet for her to understand where she could get the points from and all that. Not to mention that the MTC letter, the one that I didn't think it has anything important to do with her English course but she just needed me to translate most of the contents from 3 pages. Lastly she polished my nails in purple, yes...the nail polish she bought me today...the purple nail polish...lool I wish I don't give this less approachable feeling to new people because personally, I find people with heavy make up on and those with dark nail colours are the ones that are less friendly. I try not to stereotype people but the truth is, in most cases, they indeed are less approachable o3o Anyways....zero productivity today >.> sigh.....means that I have to wake up early and do some work tomorrow T__T

panpan's support (15th of May)

I just couldn't get rid of that thought of not being unhappy after all my files were gone. Pai did offer me help by sending me one of her works, Gold did double check my student disk and went to IT department with me . I was appreciated of their kindness for cheering me up. However, not being able to save my large file after I got my work done on one of those computer because of some technical problems occurred has made me even more frustrated.

Panpan received my depressing message half an hour before his lecture started. I was already feeling extremely devastating having this do-not-know-what-to-do face starting sobbing in front of the computer. Maybe that irritation was caused by period pain or no food for the entire day. Suffering from pain, starvation and lots of frustration coming from so many unfortunate things happening within a day eventually pushed me to emotional outbreak. Panpan then came all the way to AIT for me instead of going to his lecture. I felt happy yet bad at the same time. But talking to him on the phone while I was crying silently, somebody kept saying he'd be with you on the phone made me feel the warmth quite a bit. Until then, I became less stress and started to clear my head copying all the documents I need in order to re-do all the tasks at home. I hugged my panpan so tight once I saw him. He got me 6 wicked wings and we continuously walked to market city where we could sit down and chill. The usual silly him made me giggle a bit but not that when he called up two of my guy friends, I found that a bit annoying by doing that. >.> Anyways, we spent another one hour staying at the park talking but we both were close to fall asleep lol

Lastly panpan's surprise- the letter was the most unexpected gift I received tonight. I seriously felt something inside of me, caring, supportiveness, love or maybe all of them altogether have made me feel that I wasn't alone, and I wasn't afraid to confront my problem. Thanks for giving me such a courage to pick myself up that quickly. I wub you my giant panpan chan :)

New things, new people (14th of May)

Great....Learning how to make flaming text is this tutorial's task for today. I doubt that if Mickey has ever listened to the teacher when he was busy texting or surfing on internet most of the time. But yeah, his Thai peep Pai is completely the opposite of him, she's a smart and hard working one. Really helpful and craving for learning new techniques although she's already a professional graphic designer. Btw one sad news is that my files are all gone....No, I was more than shocked, it gave me a heart attack, my heart did pause for a few seconds as my z drive was appeared to be empty...I seriously had no idea how this'd happen but Pai, she's so nice to offer me her works. I was still thinking if I should accept that...

Because the day didn't start well, not to mention that I forgot my watch and my key as well...I didn't expect what else could cheer me up after I got back to uni where I found my friend Kiah absent in Jap class today so I was sitting with the other two friends at the back and paired up with a new friend when we did the exercises verbally. She and I seemed to have a great time doing exercises together though we just met. We were starting to talk a lot during our break yet Fukui sensei asked the ones who could write kanji to teach the ones who aren't from kanji background in the class, then I had to move somewhere else to teach my filo peep Ferielle who is an enthusiastic one really engaged in learning how to write those 5 characters we learned in the lecture. At the end of the lesson, I asked her to add my fb so she could ask me for help when she needs it. Btw the girl was super funny when she didn't even  know if she entered the right class or not. That clumsiness of hers is somehow adorable as she was half pushing and half opening the door as if she wanted to get in but not entirely, she was one of us but she wasn't sure if she was lmaooo We then kept silence and waiting for her to confirm who she really was. lool

Ahhh oh hmmm I spent $2 on that little cupcake and ate it all sitting on the stairs in front of the library. Nothing much could get done within half an hour, Joyce then fb me said she could finally meet up with me for the remaining half an hour. I finally gotta see my boyish friend and spent our little private time having lunch together. Her spirit has always been so great, seeing her was one of the cheerful things when something let you down a bit. When she was away to get her food, Edmond was walking towards where I was sitting at, I was trying to get his attention by staring, staring and more staring at him until he realised it was me. Well, I am not that close to this guy but his fb updates appear on my newsfeed occasionally. Anyways I was really surprised I'd ever bump into him when he seems to enjoy his time having a close female friend around or his gf next to him this time of the day?

Ok...I had my fun in my media tut especially the speed dating concept thingy has made me quite happy. Our group's collaboration was great owing to our awesome leader when she actively encouraged us to do the reading. I'm sorry, but I seriously love her smile, she's one of them that carring this positive attitude and being super friendly allocating what each of us should be doing in our role. I explained to her what I critically thought about our assigned article, she then said my point was a thoughtful one and presented to the tutor when it was our turn to report to the class.

I love jap jap seminar a lot. But yeah, seems like Kai san has dropped the course awwww I never see him again since then :( Jacob san now has become the only white in our jap class after Kai left. We were going to pair up for the long conversation when Fukui sensei asked us to look for another partner. However, Fukui sensei added: 'you need to look for a partner that is not from your own group'....=3= As Jacob has always been my friend and sitting with us at the same table, we both were so disappointed that we had to go for another group. But then again, my new friend Damon san was a typical performer. Remember last time I told you that there was this pair during interactive exam adding too much humour effects to their conversation, a super entertaining performance has gotten them some bonus point? Yup, that's him. Damon san was that hilarious one. It was true that working with him was such a joyful thing. Both of us are seemed to be great pairing up xD I like how exaggerated he was trying to sound like a local Jap whenever he speaks lool

Ahhh....So I'd say my day is bad but then good? o3o Regardless how much pain period has caused me, I wasn't really that moody today x3

the 300th post here WOOOHOOOOOO (13th of May)

First I need to thank the mass audience out there even though I don't know who you are, where you are at or if you accidentally have clicked the wrong site and entered in this hysterical zone of randomness. But gratefully speaking, I'll keep updating my personal blog posts here yet I don't know if I'd ever stop writing about my personal life, well, I just hope not.

Same as every Tuesday, doing my epic readings for media course has taken a large amount of time, almost 6 hours to read through all the given materials and extra resources under the link provided at Moodle. If you're ever interested to read my media blog, here is the link: http://yishaliu.blogspot.com.au/

Nowadays, the power to drive consumption level is not really a choice but more of a contagion act that you affect others and being affected by others. I think I didn't get to mention that in my post so now adding this bit here in my personal blog. Sometimes having two blogs is a good thing for me to add some stuff that I wanted to say yet was forgotten somehow. Writing a blog is not just a way to present yourself to the large virtual world, for me, being an active blogger for almost a year means a lot to my personal development when there are times I feel that I am so lost, I have 'you' here listening to me, I don't need to know who you are, but I can feel you are just there. Somewhere afar yet close enough. And when I read back my posts, I'll find that there are still a lot happening in my life. Every day is special, I value the most is how every relation between events, things and people is formed through physical and emotional changes, luck, plan etc. You won't know what will happen next, but the unexpectedness could be something subtly change the state of your mind. I have once read one of my posts about how I was being emotional on that day and I found understanding is one hard thing to fully explain yourself to others. But at the end of that post, I was delightful for having something little from somebody. You see how little things relate to the changes of one's mind.

Life is around you, people are there for you, you are all great because Yoshism has proved that :)

Visiting le bf...(12th of May)

I can't believe I was awake at 4ish either but I really had to as it left me no choice, discussion forum is due at 2pm this afternoon and I haven't done any of them. Besides, my lecture started at 10, so to finish up everything before I headed to university is necessary. Up to my plan when I got them all done within 2 hours, washed my hair and ate my porridge in front of my computer...I was late for my jap lecture for 20 minutes though, and I went to the very front sitting with the new guy I met a few weeks ago.

During my three hours of break, I was staying at the main library the whole time doing my work, preparing for my final essay by doing some researches. The last lecture I had was so inspiring. The very first video Andrew showed us was the one that I shared on my fb ages ago. Reason why this video is important for this lecture is associated to how we are being affected by the media through different forms such as images and music. Most of the scholars have argued that affect and being affected are synonymous with a form of movement and relations that are being constantly changed and created. We may not notice how relational effects take a huge part in our engagement with gaming experience or other form of media as the patterns are repetitive yet across differences and that temporarily we are perceived flooding of light and acceleration of thought from that. This is still my personal blog, I am not trying to mix it up with my media blog so I'll just give a brief idea here.

After uni, I didn't go home straightaway but visited le bf. However, we didn't tell each other where we were going to meet up, and he just walked to market city without telling me =3= Without knowing he wasn't at UTS, I stood in front of kfc waiting for him to come back. He bought 6 wicked wings for me and dragged me to the restaurant next door to order his beef noodles. Silence, silence and more silence with my grumpiness. No response, just nodding. He then tickled me but instead, he hurt my waist, so I was showing with even more grumpiness. He did know how to tame his korara, because all he did was to take my food away as a threat, then I had to show my kindness or at least acted to be kind to do what he wanted. But he seriously is a bully, he made me choke with spicy soup, this guy is so not gentle. Really not. My nose was awfully congested with spices for more than 15 minutes after that cough, and continuous sneezes made that feeling even worse. Anyways that 90-min break was fun. So now I think he'd prefer me to be more quiet :3 since my way of talkativeness is quite crazy but I don't care lol Oh and UTS should built a proper ceiling>.>

LOL....my mum will be soon finishing that drama...that means I need to look for a new one for her>.> Btw, there was an oldie sitting behind me mumbling something scary like some sort of witchcraft when I was on my way home, next second I moved to upstairs just incase.

Alright, good night, sleep tight, tomorrow will be another good day :)

Happy happy mummy's day..(11th of May)

Oh? Mother's day? Still remember what I have promised my fatty a few days ago? Yes....mission accomplish today, not taking her outside but staying at home with her. Before expressing how much I love my mum like so many updates from social media yesterday, I really have to say: No luck in my day when trackwork from both lines have already largely ruined half of my happiness. Although I was only late for 10 minutes but not that I'd like to be late in this circumstance when I still treat it as a job, even though I only get paid for $50 for two hours.

Overall, Calvin was alright-ish today. At the very least I wasn't that irritated in the first one hour. And I found out something new from his family. I'd say it is really a crisis point where I see what happened to them is similar to what happened to my family back in 10 years ago. I truly feel how his mum is feeling now when a family is shattered. Glad that Calvin is still that innocent him who may not even know or quite sure what this means to his family.

I spent an ordinary yet special mummy's day with mum at home. I tried to make it up for her when I couldn't take her out for celebration. Happy that she was quite satisfied with today because my presence has already meant a lot for her to believe that she's the luckiest one in the whole wide world. Even when we had our afternoon tea together, she said something so sentimental that I went teary instantly. I've always been knowing how she doesn't expect much from me but I make new gifts for her almost every year except this year as I've been real busy dealing with piles of work. Instead of letting me feel bad about myself, her theory of happiness once again has expressed as simple love and little things that happen between us. Even without today, an official mother's day, we will always be happily living together. So what mother's day really means to us? Really nothing, if you dearly love your mum every second in your life and willing to share every moment with her...Every day could be mother's day...I wub mummy so muchhhhh :3

PS: I slept quite early tonight yet checking up updates for several times during those two hours before I really fell asleep...