I seriously couldn't sleep much due to my sadness last night
so I had a really bad feeling as I woke up in the morning
not motivated to do anything, even going to uni
knowing fairly well that I would be miss two classes
which means, I would be taking a risk to fail this subject if I am absent one more time within this sem
Under a bit too much stress from hating myself not being able to do anything
I cried so much while eating my lunch
being heartbroken ranting to dar dar via wechat
saying how I'm at the brink of emotional breakdown...
I tried to move on with my life by doing something new
and try to be more productive...
which I sort of did
However...
presentation was still not closely done
I spent a decent 6 hours just working on the script til late night
I blamed myself for doing last minute work
because it actually made me stress more than ever
as I was also asked to edit the design for both posters
.........
not much rest for me tonight....
no last minute work....seriously no....no no no no no.....no next time....just no.....
awful and stressed much.... :/
PS: looking for a psychiatrist to heal my pain...
I really do need someone to guide my way out of depression and anxiety
