Poetic Interstellar (23rd of May)

Morning world

It's Yisha again here

today I stayed at dar dar's house kept on working on chapter 3 with him

honestly I didn't help much

the re-arrange of order had taken him some time to do it alone

and I was occasionally asked how to correct some sentences

we slept, rested

and when I was sexually aroused

made out and yeh...

bet that I had too much meat last night

that's why lol

somebody complained for being suffered from hunger

and asking me to remind him of eating much more before this happens..

movie sesh 

intersteller, similar as inception

contains vast amount of scientific facts and poetic dialogues

that seems less appealling to some lack of science background ones

and for all the lengthy beginning and a chain of unknown side of universe

the conflicts, climax, with the characters' fate have drawn us back attention

without that code connects to the dad and daughter in terms of love

the dad would not make it back to the earth

I guess the timelessness outside of earth is what kills the hope

and the movie is trying to tell us what important is the confronting fact

you solve at hands

your bravery, your missing part, your beloved ones are all that you pull yourself together

btw, the dialogue is just too perfectly written

I would never think people can speak like that in reality

every line feels like a heightened reality, a staged one

which is what makes the film imperfect and detached from the common ground

but yes

the ending was touchy

the still young looking dad was finally back to see his already grown old daughter

I mean, such a reverse looking reality has gotten me in tears

time is the what makes the hardest to overcome a life re-union

either you have no time left to wait for that particular person to be back

or that particular person is not able to arrive on time

lucky the ending isn't too hard for the audience to accept

it calms us down from the heartbroken truth 

Peak productivity n+ (22nd of May)

Having a serious talk with Diana about the title sequence

while learning a bit of additional effects in that filling colours technique

asking Folk for that particular sheet for the tut task

later Diana told me to look it up myself from medialab

I started my long hours working on that tut task

including the next lesson which I was supposed to leave

but I didn't

That continuous 2 hours has finally came to the end

another one hour or more to finish editing somebody's chapter 3

apples eating on my way to central

raining, sprinkling

I waited

under the roof checking up the time

still, waited

home early tonight

having hot pot with mummy

the meat cooked nicely and tender

fattie food has always been the best ey

after din din

I started to download the movies from that recommended site

two movies were down

two to go, after my shower

taking less than 3 hours to get 4 movies

wait, I meant 3

because the theory of everything rar file was unable to open

assumed that was collapsed or whatsoever...

Having a bit of cleaning up

saving up doc files and photos to my hard drive

during the time for the downloading~

also updated something for PH

plus sorting out everything recently

checking up things for mum

saying night night to dar dar and my dearest at sharp 12

peak productivity...little did I know how peak productivity means to me 

really feeling so much fulfilling~

Le mood swing (21st of May)

Tina wasn't able to make it

I stayed at lib for almost the whole day

til this person came at 4-ish

a whole day of none reply

led him to question what the hell was going on with me

I covered my face with both hands

still, silence took over the whole time when he questioned me

gently with his tapping on my shoulder

and holding me like a lost rabbit

patting my back as that I was not ok

I tried to get my hands free from his tight gripping

he then pulled me even closer to get me speak

I finally let go of that abnormality

we both back to work on pc

with hand holding for a while

cancellation of that din din time with other exec

going to the jap restaurant again

Being like a babe teasing him to the utmost

even when we were waiting for the bus

home back early

papaya sweet soup was nice cook by mum

full....too full though....

went to sleep with a full face....like absolutely feeling like a frog...>3>

Le life talk (20th of May)

Showing all of our masterpieces at the class with additional comments from each other
letting us learn a lot
for both good and bad
There are several videos that were really impressive
including the HD girl
the choice of her song is cute-ish
and there is one effect that I found it really astonishing
so after the class finished
I walked up to her, asked if she could teach me how she did it
I learned something extra as she told me later how she created the website too
as I was that interested
I sat down and talked to her for several hours
chit-chatting almost the whole life of ours

her being such a badass
going rebel against her mum
just to get together with her bf (current husband) now
her being a nerd having two master degrees in the U.S
but to her dislike to what she had been doing
she decided to change her field to design
We discussed so much about career choices and future
including how we both think about how education has led us
including the difference between cross cultural marriage
and our mums' attitudes are similar
her fight for her love
the teachers in AIT
just a lot
I suddenly have a good friend
like ridiculously that I would have told a stranger a lot just in one night
even I couldn't believe it...

And I bet that first love to marriage is indeed beautiful
two beautiful souls have reached that stage of life
so admirable
that it got me a bit sentimental for myself being lost in that seeking, still
I have no idea when I will finally settle
or truly happy about what I have
because everything that seems to be offset
and tangibly gave me that feels of illusion and unreal
like I have become more and more apart from those around me
like as if I've never found that belonging ever again
friends, family or just those that I may trust and lean on
I've only been here all alone
and I'm afraid that one day, I don't even know who I am
I lost that sense of living, and my identity....
everything will only turn into ashes...

PS: Thanks for Tina's request again...
PS1: may happy 520 be a truly happy 520

Movie searched (19th of May)

Overly quiet in the class where I had my own thinking time

having called by the tutor who asked me to write one paragraph

to make up my missing attendance

lucky I was absent in week 9

and that they were talking about the film that I am more familiar with

Instead of working on something else

I instantly started writing that paragraph once I got to the library

a few hours passed

thinking about what question I would like to ask next week

still having no idea how to start it

by reading several articles to get myself with some thoughts to it

the hesitation, still pulling my legs to think a few times more

because asking question is not about just asking questions

I, myself would also be the one answering it

in depth

coming back home early tonight

mum's been telling me her childhood once again during dinner time

and that parental child loving talk was also being discussed

having that urge to watch those movies that I haven't watched before

like totally

I should get myself together to watch everything that I missed

finished doing a long list of movies from both 2014 and 2015

checking on that awesome website

and found out how much info it's given other than the trailers

it would be another good resource for me to exxplore a bit later :)

Hilarious one (18th of May)

Towards the really end of my breakie sesh

I quickly departed home with the really last typing on words

still leaving an unfinished doc

for some further research await when I got back to uni

leaving like an half an hour research for that particular quote

waiting for dar dar to print that page for me

as soon as I got to Webster

saw Jini at the door also waiting for her appointment

the one after me

we had a little talk about the structure and questions we would like to pick for the analysis

obviously she didn't prepare much

but knowing that everyone didn't prepare much

she felt fair

I mean

still a bit early to think about something that is due next month

I know that nobody is really that occupied

it's just a matter of priorities

which is true

we keep looking for excuse leaving the most unwilling thing to do last

anyways, trying not to off the topic

I mean, the appointment went well

at least Catherine had some direction in what she would be writting

I was given with some basics too

but only that what I was called brave because my chosen topic isn't taught in the lect yet

he said he was glad that I was more interested in that

which barely has people to show interest to such a question

about what movie would get me to analyse in relation to that quote

that is challenging, as he said

but he wishes me to do well 

as each and everytime

I always put myself at stake lol

so no seminar, as I was told by Catherine

I walked up to Sushi inn to see dar dar

we had our lunch there together

me being super random and acting cute-ish

putting my head down

looking at him up

he took a few pic of me with my big forehead

the shiny one

I was owned for saying bad canto even when I was mad-ish

even maddened, jokingly as he fixed my pronounciation

hilarious much

being such a douchebag

continuing with the randomness as we walked out

in the rain

having my hair covered by double layered hoodies

in a bizarre way of look

my hair is too oily to be revealed in the public

only hoodies would help to make me beautiful...

AND he's right

that variety show is so damn cute and funny

with all the kids misbehaving in a supposedly kid way

so laughable to reflect my own childhood because the scenes kinda remind me of those moments

slapping, trolling parents, unconditional love, so much more to say

now let's just say, being a child is great

that is the only period needed not trouble and sadness

you don't see the truth behind

you won't feel the pain beside

happiness is all made up a real life

now we've grown

out of the zone where all of us should follow the societal norms

and a lot more to think before you do

*off the topic again*

lastly...exec photos are up

you see how likes are piled up

comments are everywhere....you see

image is real important lol

Living in silence (17th of May)

Glad to know that somebody's mum would be put on air

bet that to make one's business to thrive really dependent on the honesty

one of the key points ey

I was also told that he would like to import goods for something big

there will always be some opportunities out there for you to seek for

and he has always been a good seeker catching all the chances around

silence, though

I was not really in that talkative mood or somehow

rather to listen to somebody's business talk

Indonesian restaurant was only ok-ish

no sleep deprived

as I've said the same to myself for too many times

only that lasting for a few days though lol...

but yes.....gotta prepare for the appointment tomorrow

waking up at 6-ish....is inevitable....

night night world..