changes (26th of April)

I went to a new place today with Joyce because I really needed someone to talk to. It was only a casual catch up for her but it actually meant a lot to me. Trackwork caused both of us late for almost an hour, much later than when we planned to meet up. I enjoyed being with her in every second. We chatted, we went to different stores to shop for her autumn clothing. She tried them on, I was on the side giving her some advice. To her persuasion, I also tried on something she recommended. But I don't think our taste is matched, I don't go for boyish style that much anymore, and she still does. At the end of the day before she headed home, we took some photos in front of the mirrors while some passers-by were watching us. Not feeling embarrassed or anything, we had our fun moments showing how happy we appreciated each other's presence. At night, I had dinner with another friend at Central. He hasn't changed much except that he has grown a bit maturer because I once told him that he'd look better if he could be a bit maturer. Catching up with a friend who you haven't seen for almost a year is one of the greatest things in life, same as everyone else, we talked about what has happened to both of us, what has been bothering us etc, just anything that you can think of. The really last thing I need to mention here is how our lives will be changed under the federal government. We are getting to see what's really on the table from the case which our generation has to start working for another 3 years, that is, workers aren't allowed to retire til 70 years old. Secondly, a small amount of payment $6 will be applied soon whenever people visit a GP. Thirdly, people will be easier to be a bigot because of some changes of racial discrimination act...If you want to know more, go and check them up yourself... I just feel really disappointed to this country believing how all these changes will enormously impact on our community and make so many citizens harder to live...Australia...what have you done here? Are you really helping us?

Dark mood (25th of April)

I agree with this: the first few moments of the day are some of the most important as they can determine the mood for the rest of the day. I did sense something wasn't right at night when she started talking about what happened recently. I have left this part of me way behind. There has been quite a long time that I don't seem to remember any of these, but they are once remembered whenever she brings this up, and new stories are to be continued for all of us to feel the pain. I've had enough, I don't want to live under this shadow...It only gives me a bad mood which I find jerk on anywhere.....yes...I shouldn't have let my mood dictate my manners...But I seriously couldn't help....

Intense hard workers (24th of April)

Unbelievable fact shows my spectacular laziness at times, like today when I fell back to sleep after I finished my breakie. My head was terribly hit by this vertigo feeling which I had this attempt to ask Seri to mark my name for me as I needed some sleep badly...>.> I went AIT at sharp 12 only to print out my portrait and comic strips yet I asked several people around and found them still being panicked doing their own work...Except Gold who has already submitted his, and chatted with me the entire class. He showed me his music video he made for his screen editing course. It is a creative piece that carries a lot of artistic meanings anyways. I felt so sorry for Tia who picks a pretty complicated one as her comic strip. But it's too late to change >.> And for Mickey who was only up to his second scene, Gold was there helping him to finish one image. So let's face the reality: if you ever find yourself running out of time in doing an assigned task, stop being a Mr man's up having this absurd thought to give yourself a hard time generating something big...Lesson learned...I was doing the same thing 2 days ago as well except that I still had one more day than them lol...Pai pai does want to drop pre-production class claiming that it might be the hardest course for her so far, she needs something more practical. So does Gold who has difficulty writing a script. And there are several guys didn't come to the class last week so I was asked to explain every component to them as well as the format needed for a screenplay. Then several others came to me while I was explaining so I suddenly felt that I became the focus of the class>.> Btw I don't know what I wear today is sexy or not, but Pai said so =3= but but but I am shooo happy being called as skinny by two girls today lol...Even though they don't quite know the truth, yes, a truth is that I am not that skinny. My skinny limbs are some pretty misleading indicators guys lol...

PS: taking me at least half an hour to finalise my work and print everything out when it was the first time to use AIT printer. My nails are too long to type my ID and pw to confirm the authenticity and get access to my selected items that's why *Facepalms for multiple times*
PS1: Someone was being emotional as he isn't fully trained yet dealing with hectic working environment there..But come on, it's just the beginning of being a manager, things will get much better
PS2: African loves my Jamaican big toys once he saw them. He even wanted to take some pictures with them. Btw now I know how they make those thick-Drake hair..

It's Easter show :3 (23rd of April)

Yayyyyyyyyyy finished my comic strip thingy at AIT before I went to meet up with panpan...I am shoooooo sorry that I made you wait for...2 hours =3=...

The last day of Easter show was shoooooo good but I seriously wasn't that active >< I was in the beginning when we just got on the train. Somebody fed me with some Easter eggs saying that's one of my favourites. He took out his camera, and took a few pictures of me eating my eggs. I went awkwardly silent revealing my shyness...

We didn't really follow the path or where the map directed us to go. I guess I wasn't paying much attention to the shops on the sides but looking for animals to take pictures with. Easter show is the same for every year but going with different people gives you another feeling. This year, my Easter show journey has been exhausted as I only got to sleep for several hours the night before. I already have used most of my energy before I even got to meet up with him to be honest...Panpan loves to pat animals. He was patting those goats softly as if they are his pets until someone came, and pointed at the sign where it says don't touch or feed animals to warn him. Same as usual, the piggies, well...I didn't see newborns. I still remember the year before last when there was a bunch of piglets were sucking their mum's nipples like SHOOOO DAMN CUTEEE!!! Yet I couldn't find them this year :( Oh Oh the alpacas are shooooo kawaiiiiiiiiiii as well. By looking at their big watery eyes, I had this urge to capture heaps of their adorable looks. Later on, we just wandered around aimlessly. The dinosaur adventure was fine, artificial models weren't that attractive, I was more into taking pictures of the fossils. Some particular miniature species such as frogs and snakes (?? those aren't small at all>.>) were exhibited at somewhere which made panpan seem to be quite excited. He bought some show bags claiming that one of them is for his family. I snatched his purple-ish hat away and put it on me. I love how I look with that hat. Not to mention how weird I looked when I was surrounded with four big toys we won from that game. Most of our time spent on lining up for the rides. (50 coupons) yes...the biggest wallet killer...I think the most glorious moment was when someone won three stuffed toys from one single game, I got my Jamaican monkey and banana, he got his teddy and brown monkey. We both carried two for each kept on walking around and people sort of had this admired look asking where we got them from. He must have been enjoying trying on the mask and full carrying so much things on his hands. Perhaps keeping himself busy full is his nature, I had this feeling that even he isn't working, he still has this attempt to do something to get that busy life going. Tech and craft exhibition were worth to have a look. They are the best places out of everything in Easter show in my own opinion. Highly recommended to check out the cakes. You will see how innovative cake makers are these days. Lastly the night performance was ok-ish. I really wish we could find a seat to leave all of our stuff there to chill a bit and watch the entire show, but somebody rejected to take me upstairs, and made both of us stand there for half an hour while carrying lots of stuff. And I guess he does have so many dodgy female friends, I am not that surprised whenever he says he seems to know somebody at some random places~We bumped into his friend at the train station, that girl is so nice that offering us the seats and asked if I was his classmate lol *nods* I am?>.>

Le comic strip(2) (22nd of April)

Mamamia....I can't find a word to describe how terrible I feel now. Re-doing everything in one day makes I feel quite intense for not ensuring if I could get this done on time. A torture, an act of SM except that I carry both roles in this case. Hence, I woke up at 6am today to get my first image started. The most complicated one out of the four scenes has taken me so much time to create patterns and lines to make it look as much realistic as possible. Guess time is the biggest killer for me to realise how important not to procrastinate. Generally speaking, procrastination is one human nature that we all do in our everyday life. But when I have realised how much time I have left by estimating the length of time I'd spend on each image, I'd not dare to waste any seconds to skim through FB or Youtube etc. It has become more of a mission in a limited time.

Apart from doing my comic strip in long hours, mum and I went to RSL to have a free brunch. Maybe I should really have looked up the info before making my decision, I admit that I was a bit rush to book two seats this time that I didn't know brunch was only attached with the seminar. I originally thought of that as a RSL event inviting people to come along or tag along. Feeling really sorry for her who didn't quite understand what the speaker was saying most of the time. I know that she has been trying pretty hard not to fall asleep. Luckily the food came on time so it could kill us some time after an hour of presentation lool I ordered chicken for both of us but but but she wasn't happy because the fish ones apparently seemed to be better>.> Oh and the presentation is for bed selling this time. Articulated presenter convincingly offered us how important sleeping means to us. In doing so, he brought up heaps of research, case studies to statistically emphasised on the point of what could be the real problems due to lack of sleep. This is just one way to promote how good their product will cause certain effect upon your body, and hence to improve the quality of sleep. Well, I don't know whether this will help but the truth is, every individual did seem to be quite interested in knowing the price at the end. This is why this promotion is seen to be a trap to catch the buyers' psychological weakness in an act of brainwash by telling them what they need the most, even though they don't in the beginning. The talk was informative, I learned something at the very least :) Or else I would feel crap as that has taken up almost 3 hours of my precious time for getting my assignment finished >.>

After I came back, I continued with my comic strip. Believe it or not, there has no limits to push yourself to do something twice or three times faster than usual if you do try. What it tell you here is that nothing is impossible, you can be the next legend. I took my 5 hours at night to finish 2 images...However, I might have used too much concerntration in these two days when I had to be overly observant to remember every little detail for not making a mistake. I am not telling you why here, if you want to know, make a comic strip yourself using Illustrator and please do tell me if it turns out to be a total mess disastrously losing your patience to do the whole thing at the end.

But lol...this is just the first try. There will be more to go...But yes, I still enjoyed a lot during this process...Oh and lastly...Easter show with le panpan tomorrow, I am now looking forward to visiting Olympic Park :)

Le comic strip(1) (21st of April)

I love challenges. This is as I am saying I love giving myself a hard time to complete a task. Yes, I do actually find myself pretty retarded and stupid for not choosing something much simpler. I went on looking for a set of comic strip from online comic site and got this comic called 'romantically apocalyptic'. Such image is not realistically to be done in 2 days because too much details have to be covered and traced especially the parts where plentiful of shadows are overlapped one another. After I've been trying my hardest to complete my first image within 5 hours, I was already exhausted in looking for layers as well as arranging them in a correct order. Being puzzled for more than 10+ minutes confused about where one particular layer wasn't putting forward, I finally found where the problem came from...I forgot I've locked that layer by accident...=3= Everything was up to the schedule which I planned to get two images done by tonight. Yes, now you may think I can finally have a peaceful night to chill out a bit before I went to sleep. BUT NO....I really wish I didn't spend that 10 minutes doing nothing but staring that comic strip pondering what I'd get for my result, because it usually leads me to have my second thought to redo the whole thing. Yup...I did it again...After a whole day of hard work, I went on another site looking for a new set of comic strips at freaking 1am while waiting for someone to come back....Another busy day tomorrow, epic busy, I suppose....

Insecurity (20th of April)

lol....got yelled at by her for checking up my phone for too long once I woke up...>.> When one gets cranky, anything can be a reason to be angry at... My day has been so wonderful and enjoyable with loads of readings....AND...obviously to update my previous posts...

You do feel lonely at times when things don't go the way you want...I feel this too often...and I need to be desensitized...

Lastly....to make this post short: insecurity is my weakness....Seemingly I've possessed most of the traits an insecure person has from what the articles says.... http://www.wikihow.com/Recognize-Insecurities