New look...(1st of Feb)

Adorableness of me with a dress two days in a row really made me have this feeling of that I've taken a huge step out of something I haven't tried for so long. Remember when I was still a child, my dislike towards skirts and dresses was grown after I tripped over in the toilet because of my dress when I was still in kindergarten, and that it has left a mark on my forehead from that day. I guess you can say this is how unfortunate I am when I was still a kid so that it has been traumatizing me all this time. I totally lost my interest to wear dresses and skirts freely. Until recently, I truly found me looking good in front of the mirror, like a narcissistic one observing myself with a dress that I took from the wardrobe. Maybe I should let that bloody traumatizing memory go?

Panpan was happy that I was really good looking and cute with that black dress. He soon became quite excited once he saw me standing at the door. Wellllllllllll.....bra also does the trick, mind telling everybody here, I rarely wear bra though I am 21 because I just find it so uncomfortable =.= But mum was quite encouraging asking me to wear bra with that dress or else I'd look like a weirdo with my training bra>.> Anyways we tried something new today ;) Putting sauces is really a good method added to sexual experiences but it really depends on what everyone's flavour is, please be aware of chilli sauce LOL You don't want to make the private parts on fire hahahha ok....I can't talk too filthy here >.>  

Free birds is an alright-ish movie. It was released on my anniversary with my bf but we didn't get to watch it as our schedule was too tight. He then downloaded and watched it with me today as a surprise. 

I finally got my phone after been waiting for more than a month. But his refusal to accept my money made me don't know what to do, so I hid it under his calculator before I left. I seriously didn't know it was a joke when he told me he didn't have much money left, and he needed the money I owed him to pay for our dinner tonight=.= We ended up eating in food court as we both were poor though we both dressed up tonight>.> So it was pretty much my fault being such a trolling gf....>3<

Having some romantic time alone with le panpan after our dinner was the last thing we did. Although I was really exhausted already, means that I was being quiet the whole time lool Firework was the only thing that kept me alive for a bit. I guess nobody would resist to watch the heart-shaped firework when there was someone you love being there with you. :)   

Chinese new year....(31st of Jan)

In short.. today was my first time ever after all these years I wore a dress to go out...Mum and I met up at Central after she finished her classes, then I took her to level 3 in Market City to walk around because she asked for it. 'Cotton on' caught her eyes in the first place, then you know....we stayed there selecting clothings for more than 1 hour. Precisely speaking, it was most likely mum who spent so much time choosing leggings and shorts. She asked me to try each of them on to decide whether she wanted to buy them as my size is somewhere similar to hers, only that she's a bit bigger than me. After we got out from there, Jayjays which is the one next to it, one of the leggings there once again attracted her to get in the shop. This time, we saw so many dresses at the right section. Right after I pointed out what types of dresses I like according to my taste, she picked quite a few dresses for me to get changed in the change room for another half an hour or so. I took off my dress, tried the one she gave me. That was the first time she has ever opened her eye wide, showing how much she liked my new look with that sexy dress on once I opened the door after I finished changing. I was like...>.> mum.....so how is it... She demanded to take a few photos of me in that dress. She must have been dreaming of dressing me like a doll, a much more girly and elegant daughter as she always wants to turn me into. I can tell how cheerful she was when I finally let her change me, or enhance my hidden girly side as it was taken her so long each time when she walked out of the change room, and came back with a few other new dresses in her hands. In the end she bought me 3 dresses. Everyone's happy...

However, we pretty much spent most of our time shopping around, my plan to get her to Chinatown and Darling Harbour to feel the Chinese new year's atmosphere was a fail...lol By the time we got there, it was already 6pm. We bought a pack of lamb skewers and a box of fried chicken bones for our dinner. Yup, Chinese new year's dinner....

But it was still fun having our family time together in the first day of Chinese new year. My new look is to be expected. If this really cheers my loving mum up, why not? :)

Chi new year's eve (30th of Jan)

I guess I should quickly adjust my nap nap time after 4pm because it seriously affects my efficiency for the day. I didn't get to update my blog posts from my schedule, but one thing was done is I have received the response from AIT in which one of the ladies called me this afternoon, asking me to go to the info night as well as the free course session next week. There is a guarantee here offering me with on-hands experiences from my chosen field with a flexible timetable for learning, plus I can take it as a part time. Perfect~

To my excitement, I went on their official website to search for further information. And I have browsed around their AIT blog, which is about some resources and tips of each course that can be utilized later on. I am getting to know more about what media really is from its explicit representation of both examples theoretically and practically. But then again, I am still quite unsure what area I should be specialized in since Media, is a broad term, consisting variety of things such as television, film, web, games. Also media can be classified as two types, interactive and digital. Anyways...I shouldn't worry too much now but to reach my first goal this year that I set for myself-getting the certificate within a year or two, edit my portfolio and learn more programs

Oh and I have done some research about finger nails and palms which can be reflecting your health in a way As I am always being told by the older generation. especially my mum, who asks me not to touch with people that are with grey/yellow nails, purple or red palms because they might have contagious diseases. Also I have checked some events that are happening next week so I can go travelling alone this time with my mymulti ticket>.> That has bothered mum and I for half an hour whether I should get a mymulti ticket tomorrow, but I try to make the fullest of the entire week since I am going out tomorrow, the day after, Sunday for the parade, Monday for the free courses session and Wednesday for the info night, plus I am taking Tuesday according to my own travelling plan. Yes, that day is only for me, myself and I...

ok enough of my serious talk.... so.....mum's been so happy after she came back home btw, she has told me quite a bit of what happened to her classmates and the amazing or shocking stories she heard from them. This is all about life, she has shown me that she has a life these days since she starts school :) I am happy for her to be this interactive and energetic, even has became more interested in trying to cook new dishes with the recipes her classmates have given her.

We talked and joked so much for the night. I have actually felt this Chinese new year's eve atmosphere filled up my house. I haven't felt in this way for so long when she was still busy working the past 4 years. But now 2014 is really a good beginning for both of us to start a new life, to me, is more like a turning point before I turn 22.

Le fatty called us from oversea, I was more than excited to receive his calls this time. I told him what I have planned for this year. But more importantly, I wish him having a great Chinese new year's eve. I miss him even more during this spring festival as it's meant to be a festival for family gathering yet half of my family is miles away. That part has always been missing, and I try to put it back together by talking to him more, making that connection between us and hoping that we are this close, just like back in the time when I was still 12 years old, the first time I left the mainland. Tonight, he handed the phone to my granny(dad's side) who sounded a bit unwell when she talked to us. The only thing I remember was her chuckle. She chuckled to almost everything she said, but I felt really happy to hear that kind of happiness since I haven't talked to her for so long. Later on, my cousin talked to me on qq, asking me if we could webcam because granny(mum's side) was right next to him. Mum recorded 10 minutes of granny when she was talking. My cousin showed me his baby girl, my niece who also has large eyes with a tricky looking face. And my uncle who stood behind finally showing his face after my cousin left for work, he greeted me with red pockets lool However, granny said I look chubbier for some reason=.= Like oh god.....oh no.....For her generation, she likes me being chubbier as it shows a sign of healthiness...

Panpan was busy making something for me in the past 2 or 3 hours I assumed. So my new year's gift is a post-card-like ps image :3 He has put one of our couple photos on the left side and trim it to a sort of egg shape with obvious eraser-ish border. His writing is on the left side where it says he wishes me to have a good time blah blah blah. And the background is an abstractive figure, yes..must be the horse. It is a special gift as this is my first time to receive a gift that has always been made by me for others, but this time, I am the recipient. Role change. Thanks for all the efforts you have put in making a special gift for me in this special day. Oh another surprise was his new haircut once I saw him from the webcam tonight lool New look, new side-face but still that handsome side-face I like :3 hehehe

Mum has also given me a big surprise haha hmmm reason why I call it big is because.....it was mum who gave my red pockets xDD >.> So I said to her why not just keep everything in secret instead of telling me how much she'd be giving me by 12 tonight this afternoon, as she told me she didn't have smaller notes to put in the red pockets, and asked me if I mind about receiving a hundred bucks note=.= Like come on....You have already given off everything so she has made a surprise not a surprise anymore=.= But then again....By the time it reached 12, she gave me this unexpected red pocket...Let me tell you how unexpected it was..I pressed it before I actually opened it, I felt that it was so light and guessed it might be only $10. Then I opened it, found that there was another red pocket inside. I took the smaller red pocket out, opened it. There was nothing inside>.> 'SURPRISE!!!!!!!!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR MWAHHHHHH' >.> Yup...that's my mum....She then asked me to look for my gift around in my room. I went back to my room, searched everywhere and ended up being recorded by mum, who intentionally recorded this glorious moment of me seeking for treasure or something..Finally found those two red pockets with money inside under my blanket. As she said, those two red pockets are represented as le fatty and her. This is partially the culture of my family even though one person is not physically there to share our fun and happiness...

Well, lastly, I wish everyone has a great Chinese new year's eve :) Thanks for all the supporters who have read my posts haha I don't care whoever you are, or if you accidentally have brought yourself here by clicking the wrong site, please keep that in mind: It's 2014, a new year, a new start, stay happy :)

Productivity...(29th of Jan)

I finally found that Angela girl on my FB list who I have added a few years ago at AIT, yet I didn't get to ask her further info about media course since I decided to go UNSW. Now I understand it'd be a good choice as well if I have taken a course at AIT...I initiated a conversation with her by asking if she was the right person I talked to. She replied me within a few minutes asking if she could help me with something I need. I told her about my problem and things that I've been looking for, a course that can offer me some practical experiences with a flexible timetable that can fit in my uni timetable. She offered me two options and fully explained how it'd work and that she'd ask someone to talk to me and send me a list of course selection via my email. I'm glad that everything goes to the way I want :)

I had two hours of nap nap time after my lunch. I dreamed about having a big birthday party with people I know and the ones that I don't. And I was surprised that one of the girls, who's my friend's friend disliked me because of my name. Weird isn't it? And that was only the first time we met each other lool If I remember it right, it was really awkward talking to her after she showed that she disliked my name lool Mum has been asking me to organize something for my birthday but I still haven't made up my mind whether I want to have a birthday party, or I just can't be bothered organize something for myself once a year. :/

Mum came back and told me that she's got something to show me. Three small boxes were in her hands. I opened them and have a looked at what was inside each of them. Not until I got the real thing out, a label inside of the box already has hinted me that's someone's hearing device. With a pack of batteries in another box, I asked her where she got them from. She said she saw them on the seat of the bus but wasn't dare to open the boxes. I guess the owner must be worrying about losing her/his hearing device now. She asked me to go back to the same bus stop where she got off from and give those three boxes to the driver, so I did. I went all the way down there, headed to that bus stop, waited for half an hour and went on 940, told the driver that someone has lost their property. I hope that the owner will be happy seeing her/his belonging again :)

After I came back from the bus stop, I talked to Eric. Precisely, he greeted me online. We both talked about some job related issues, and the time when I had this attempt to call the ambulance last time when she was in an urgent situation with lots of vomiting and fainting. I just can't believe that he has three jobs now. Talking about if he can handle three at once, he told me that they are all recommendations from someone. He told me how to tackle the problems if my mum ever has the same circumstance again, he feels free to help as now he's attending in a first aid class, and soon to have a job related to that. Kael's brother talked to me at the same time so I told him about this good news of my enrolment at AIT really soon. I know I won't be alone because Kael and him would be there too. He even suggested we could grab lunch and dinner, or even hang out together some days when we actually meet up at AIT. The rest of the time he has been telling me about meditation related things. Same as before, he likes to explore the mysteriousness of meditation, which is associated with the structural changes of human brain and cognitive abilities through the training of it. It was rather for fun yet scary to know such an unrealistic fact about something beyond what we can see with our naked eyes, because he seriously has experienced something that doesn't seem to be happened in real life. To my curiosity, I was being quite bewildered to what I was told, and I don't know what my reaction could be if I was him, who has once got screamed at by a female non-humanoid entity before he went to sleep, I might have shitted my pants? Yet I did some research about meditation, which is only beneficial to the changes of mindset, as in to be more aware of our surroundings and to manipulate the magnetic fields and hence, to affect people around you. Also it's a good way to release stress in a sense. So to put it this way, I should really try that, to let go of my burden and stress, as he said, you won't do something tomorrow if you plan to do it tomorrow...

Well, I don't get how you can adjust you frequency but he just said 'You can...if you BELIEVE'...To a person like me who never believed in anything or anyone completely, is hard to convince myself to believe something that seems non-existent there. But then again, how would I make a change to my life and think that's worth living if belief isn't there to create a possible fact?

Motherly (28th of Jan)

I recall every little thing happening between she and I. I shouted her name in the morning from the next room, she asked me to go to her and hug her before I went jogging alone. She prepared for a glass of water for me to drink before I left, and a bottle of water for me to carry while I jogged. Even I am turning to 22 in less than 15 days, she still helps me to tie up my shoelaces, opens the door for me, stands at the balcony and watches me to leave til I disappear every morning. I can't find any reason not to love this woman, we might have disagreement and I occasionally get punished by her, but after all, she loves me so much more than anyone can. She helped me to cut my finger and toe nails this afternoon at the balcony. In the meantime, this has brought back so many memories of my childhood, when I was still quite dependent on her :3 just so beautiful...

PS: panpan's british accent cracked me up so much. The change of tones is so amusing to be recorded, I kept playing them and I still found them so funny no matter how many times I listened to xD Oh oh oh and the childhood photos he showed me was too damn cute :3 I like how chubby his dad and him used to be. I guess you can say that you can't get away from that nostalgic feeling when that precious memories are remembered.

Family time...(27th of Jan)

I thought it would be quite boring today since I didn't go out. Lazy me took another 2 hours of nap nap time in the afternoon, woke up and I was told that we would be going out for dinner. We were supposed to go to that restaurant he wanted to take us to last time, but it sure loves being closed lol He then drove another half an hour or so to a Thai restaurant in Cronulla. I was in the car listening to their lovey dovey conversation and entertaining myself during the whole trip. Indeed I enjoyed the view, and our family time being together everytime when he takes us out. Unlike before, mum now has the gut to speak English, no matter how imperfect she speaks, he still finds her cute to talk to. That's how lovable when two people really fall in love with each other. He even missed out streets for several times as they have been having too much fun laughing and sharing their passionate moment holding hands. I didn't want to be the biggest light bulb (third wheeling), so I only silently watched them at the back, and minimized every noise I made.

The restaurant was not that big, but food was so good and worth the price. I took a few photos of them when they looked at the menu. That natural reaction I got from him when he found out I was taking some pictures of them, he smiled, asked me to take a few more. Then he asked me to pick a soft shell crab with salad and king prawn noodles. In the beginning, he didn't know how big the dishes were going to be. You know, he just wanted to shout me with a really good dinner once in a while, he was afraid that I would complain if I wasn't full. He asked me to order double for each of them, then I pointed at the next table and told him that the dishes would be hell lot bigger than he imagined. He sure loves chilli food as much as we do, which I highly recommended he should try out that bowl of salad next to the soft shell crab. He put some on his own bowl, and left the rest for me. Later on, he ordered a stir fried lamb as he asked what I prefer to have for meat. Anyways I can't really remember the name of the restaurant but all I know is that, this is a Thai restaurant that I couldn't spot any Asian customers there.

It was time to drive all the way back to our suburb. He told her how much he wants to look much more classy in order to match up her standard. I was surprised that huge age gap doesn't make him have the urge to look for another woman though. Can I really believe this guy that she still has trouble communicating with, is able to take care of her the rest of her life? I'd like to believe and hope, because it's really her time to seek for that true love. I don't expect for more, but wish her really find the one she loves, and loves her...

Straya day..(26th of Jan)

This is a huge delay for 26th of Jan because now, it's the 10th of Feb here. I am soooo sorry that I haven't updated any of my blog posts these days since I was out almost everyday>.>

In short, straya day was with so much fun. I am telling you now. If you ever travel to Syd on its national day, push everything aside, and come to the city to walk around and enjoy all the activities there. You will find that worth a visit than anything else.

My day was with mum, who was also excited to enjoy this glorious day like every citizen did. We went to Hyde park first of all. The first thing we saw was a long queue at the entrance, where there were several ladies handing out food and drink. Same with anyone else, we went to line up for 15 mins and I took a picture of the long queue as for my future storytelling material. Right after we got two big bags of food and crispy toasts with beans inside, we found a spot and finished eating such a free yet yummy food before we went somewhere else. We then heard some noises from somewhere afar where we followed a crowd of people who led us to that man, who was playing drum and hitting bottles filled with different levels of water inside each of them, therefore it has formed a beautiful melody with this creativity. I even took out my phone and recorded him for a few minutes. Another moment that I remembered the most was I followed a bunch of people who danced along the whole park. To that happiness I got from celebrating such a special day that day, I joined them behind and that lady in red taught me how to dance simply while mum was right at the side recording every detail of me doing the same as them.

We went back to the large stage in the centre of Hyde Park to watch a few performances referring to the origin of Straya day back then. It was more like a children show in their way of storytelling, that's why there were more kids shouting and giggling while all the adults were being silent. Mum asked me to go and eat corns afterward. We walked around everywhere in case we missed anything and settled down beside the fountain. She took that box of corns out of her bag and we started eating. Also a  few pictures were taken.

So basically we watched everything at Hyde Park. I suggested to go somewhere else afterward. Until then, we saw a guy whose charm attracted both of us once we walked by lool His remix was such a great thing to watch as he got all his work done by using a certain device to record his own beatboxing, integrating them all together, repeatedly playing them back while singing at the same time in such a short time. It was quite unique and hence, we stayed watching him for another 40 minutes or so.

Anyways...I have never thought of seeing that many antique cars in Australia until we found out straya day this year was also at the same day as the car exhibition loool You wouldn't be surprised when I tell you that we've taken such a big amount of pictures with all those coooooooollll cars displayed there. We even went to a bunch of good looking strangers and asked for a permission to take photos with them. Anyways, there was also a photo booth stall next to it, a lady was waving at us, and encouraging us to take free photos. Those two photos were so damn good I should say. They were much better than I thought they could be :) Next minute, mum asked to have a rest somewhere, so we went inside of that area, where there are so many seats around. An old Chinese couple arrived at the same time sitting at the same table as us. They then started talking to mum. Likewise I was right at the side studying how to use some tools of my new phone. I didn't ask her to go til she finished her interesting conversation with them because those two tourists have told her so much more about applying for travelling to Australia in a short period of time. It was something that she's been always wanting to know yet she couldn't~

Mum seemed too high and confident today with her high platforms on. She even bravely danced around that big painting on the wall when I recorded her. We finally found where those mini stickers on people's faces coming from. It was just right there, somewhere that close to Hyde Park. Both of us grabbed quite a few of them, used water to make them stick on our faces and arms. A common thing that most of the people did on that day. The only difference was we had more on our faces xD

The next destination was Darling harbour. She asked me to once again, record her when she did the cat walk loool Unlike the usual reserved her, she was so amusing and fun to watch hahah We found a spot where we could squeeze ourselves in to wait for the firework like everybody else. But then, she changed her mind after we waited there for more than half an hour. I was told that she wanted to grab some food first before the firework started in 2 hours. We then walked all the way to the other side, where the food court is located, and ordered two pieces of pizza that cost us less than what we thought we would spend. Being a caring mum as she's always been, she led my way this time in order to get away from the crowd. We tried to find a right spot where we could sit there for 2 hours of waiting, eating and chilling. We slowly and effortlessly walked to the front at the end xD weeeeeeeeee

During that two hours of waiting, we shared our greatest moment of taking as much selfies as we could. Also making another recording of our silly yet exciting sharing experience. Firework was worth the wait, as always. Another recording was made as it significantly reflected how proud of us being citizens in this country and celebrating for this day. If only there was a choice to get out of the crowd in that 40 minutes of pushing and squeezing after the firework, it'd have been a perfect perfect day lool But it was expected anyways. At least we stayed safe under the instruction of the police lool

Ok...here comes with the last thing that night :) On our way to home, a crowd of people were gathered at the front of a club were seen by us. Mum suggested to go and have a look. So we did, and we, as everyone else, became one of the crowd, crazily moving our bodies with the beats the music played. Even more amazingly to be mentioned was that I was dragged to go on the dance floor by mum, who wanted us to be even crazier lool The songs they played were all the ones I have listened to, or I used to like before. That must be the reason why I had such a feel to dance freely. No matter how much I reject to being a club fan, I seriously have to admit that I love integrating into that kind of environment that night. Shouting, clapping, jumping around and bumping into people's asses, linking arms with others, all these were just too incredibly fun to do, and to watch. Those three sexay yet super short phil girls, (as I could tell from their skin tone and height lool) who danced next to me randomly hooked up with another short guy that was intentionally approaching them in a way ;)

Straya day was just so amazing and fun for me to describe every detail we had haha xD Happy Birthday Australia :3