A day out with my girl (10th of January)

I forgive you dar dar

Apologize accepted

Thanks for your mummy's caring too

Wounds still there

but they are slowly getting better..

Sorry for the trolls...

I seriously cannot help it 

because that is so fun to do so

messing around with people is my specialty 

I didn't expect you to call me though

Pretending that I was talking to a stranger is my thing

so much fun, so random to begin my day..

Eventually, gotta see my lovely friend Haiwon today

We couldn't make up our mind in the beginning

when the price at 1pm one at event is more expensive than the one starts at 4pm one at Broadway Hoyts

Two things we needed to consider there:

Haiwon has to go home early

But she does want to save money..

After a short discussion on time

she decided to watch the one starting at 4

She's a great friend of mine these days

and of all time in these 3 years 

Each time when I see her, unlike the rest of my friends

she's a really special one who I see her as my other half

One thing she cares the most 

is whatever we do, have to ensure that is the least we'll spend

Hence, we don't go to any of cafes as most of the people do

Like today, we sat at the food court for several hours

just to talk

We do talk a lot, as per usual

Or should I say I was the one talking so much 

soon my eyes went sparkling as my favourites were mentioned

Animation, media, movies, design and family related 

are all the ones I would go so excited

I told her how Green screen works

how much efforts I put into drawing my animation

what my animation is about

how I'll be doing it with different types of animated methods

what else I've done for my own project and society these days

As well as something I learn for camera, from both reading experience and taught by dar dar

To exchange what she's been doing

A great listener, also a great teller as the one she is

I was told that she's been reading this novel about Steve Jobs

Some shocking things she found out how much different this entrepreneur is, from what we don't usually know behind the scene

A few hours talk worth a month chat with some people

We both learn a lot from what we don't know from each other, we give and we gain

Into the woods must be produced by a comedian I have to say

Its producer must want to bring his audience with fun and entertainment

instead of true storytelling

Why I say that?

Some sequences are just way too random to even show

The characters are out of their traditional roles

I had a feeling that my childhood memory has totally changed 

because little red riding hood is no longer that nice little girl

She now is one typical naughty child, who behaves like a little thief stealing baker's bread

and being so much greedier than I think she would be

Also, funny as hell when teasing this foolish child

Not to mention her signature scream made us go WOOOOO is this really little red riding hood? =3=

Others like Cinderella and Rapunzel are meant to be the beauties as they are

Luckily, the depiction of this doesn't go too much different from the original fairytales

the only scene which made me absolutely go dumbfounded, was when 

The baker's wife got seduced by the Prince

who then had an affair with him 

and forgetting about what her initial plan was

Also, this Rapunzel scene where she cried for the prince's blindness

within a second, as the tears went down his face, touched his eyes

he got fully recovered....

Is the producer mad? Or was he out of his mind by giving us a randomness driven storyline as surprise?

For me, I went ....   more than surprise I guess

Ahh and and and it was pouring outside by the time I arrived at rivy=3=

I seriously would not suggest running in the rain

if pools of water are right at your face...

Running will make yourself get even wetter...

PS: Not sure whether that lady was seeking for sympathy for money or truly injured
I just hope that her finger won't be swelling anymore...

Shoes are worn out... (9th of January)

Waiting at the bus for approx 20 minutes at the bus stop with her

Then I was talking to dar dar about the financial support we can get from the C place if we are unemployed

The lady didn't really like the lines from her resume
and due to the different version we have from our computers
she failed to remove those lines
So I was helping her to do so on her computer
Later, she suggested mum to wait for the call from one of the Chi ladies
who is obliged to inform when they find a suitable job for her
This year is the tiger year
The consultant said, the ones who were born in the tiger's year, will carry with good fortune throughout the year
She was trying to tell mum that 'Stay strong, everything will be good'
.............

In short, I didn't do anything productive
but having my family time with her
We went shopping for her quilt cover set
a pack of lollies
a list of things she wrote on her shopping list
And we also took a decent amount of photos at the food court
while sharing that large piece of crispy chicken together

Anyways, she really spent so much time checking out kitchen stuff at Daiso
I got a little bit bored when waiting for her to look around everything rows by rows..

And we were also planning to get my new pair of shoes
During that time we walked around the fashion stores, her own shoes were broken into half...
That was really unfortunate to know that now, it's her who needs the shoes more than I do
I immediately took her to Haymarket so she could pick a new pair asap
She didn't quite like the colour, but it left her no choice to be picky at that time
She had to get one as all the shops were going to close
......

Trolling much ey?
I thought that I wouldn't have gotten mine either
And it ended up converse shop was right there at the second floor
For some reason, there was a pair of shoes I like in the first sight I saw them
After trying several times to see if they fit
I finally bought them
With a bit of pride
They ain't platform though
not tall, or as cool as my red and blue pairs
But oh well.....

Lastly, sometimes people might forget you
which made you feel ignored or neglected
I waited a few hours for him to get back to me
but no response til 15 minutes after I was gone to sleep
Nope, certainly not happy :(

PS: So much warmth seeing those people gave out their food to the hobo and watching him eat
Though this world isn't perfect, but nice people must be somewhere willing to help others in need

Optimism (8th of January)

 A good good day started off with my bloody long message sent to my owner

To represent how sincere I felt the need to apologize to him

For everything happened yesterday

And all the negative emotions I had for bluntly using harsh words on him

I really hope that this will help us to find what we haven't done good enough

Like me, trust, is a long-term issue for me

And it still is, still will

Anyhow, I felt happy that someone put my sequence into her Green screen VFX video

Right after she posted it on Fb

I liked her video and commented on it

to express how much I appreciate her effort

for making it the first one among everyone else

But I seriously wouldn't like to view my own face when editing my video

Hence, I picked another sequence

But I have to say, Pricilla has done a pretty good job

for editing the 'Godzilla' sequence with Andy stepping over me lol

Having a deep talk with her in the morning during breakie

We both were discussing over how he doesn't know how to manage to have some financial control when purchasing luxuries

I totally agree with mum

and thinking that she might not sound correct all the time

But this time, she was right

Being an optimist is what I learnt from her

Being simple and happy are both the fundamentals from being an optimist

There is only a greater chance to have the satisfaction if we can be the one

viewing the half-filled glass as half full

instead of half empty

I am back to who I am today

I had my animation class with my peeps in a cold room

They were all complaining the air-con inside got them freezing

Towards the end of the class

We were asked to go to another room for sound effects collecting

Jim, the one asking me to explain everything to him 

came to sit next to me during that time

Because he had no idea what to do for his final project after missing so many lessons

And I had to teach him whatever I know from scratch..

Somebody talked to me on fb again

I told him what I have been up to recently

including the two videos that I care the most

He was surprised that I've become a director after couple months

Anyhow, thanks for his caring to the utmost

I can't wait to see Joyce

My best buddy in PH 

whose talent and spirit would always make me stay happy to be with her

Welcome back to Australia mate

No matter what, you will be recruited to my department

We need someone like you who have this enthusiasm and passion for our media field

It means a lot to me, my members and our society :)

Interesting to find out a bit more about camera
From both of the booklet and online research
I couldn't stop myself from taking pictures and using mum as the model against the white background
:)

Blue (7th of January)

今天我选择用中文写blog

原因只有一个

因为很久没用中文写过了

还记得我14岁开始写日记

到现在

8年了

第9年将要来临

从手写到开始online blog
从中文后来练习到全英文

从一个阶段过渡到另一个阶段

每一个过程都刻骨铭心

我甚至不知道从什么时候开始

写日记已经变成了我生活中很重要的一部分

以前小时候回到家总会第一时间把当天发生过的事情写下来

而现在，或许是由于生活的种种因素，有时候回到家吃个饭洗个澡忙一下就已经11点了

因为疲倦，后面的时间我已经提不起精神匆忙地记下当天发生的事情
但我不希望匆匆了事

因为对我而言，blog的存在不只是一种宣泄的方式

而是记录的真实性所赋予的生命力，足够在我以后从新再翻开看的时候享受一种动人的情感
我珍惜着每天我所遇到的人和事，见到的事和物
无一不让我希望把所有的这一切成为我生命里的回放
因为有一种对生活的期许
我喜欢记录事情，也喜欢上我自己所记录下的事情

....

最近生活有点不知所措有点blue

早上一觉醒来很心塞

我一如既往地去坐火车去AIT上课

在火车上一直站着打瞌睡

想跟某人说说话来消磨时间

可是到了上课时间还是没等到一个回复

我在课堂上几乎没说过半句话

虽然该做的早就做完了

照理来说，这时候的我应该是最活跃的

可是今天我就像只死猫一样，继续专注地做着别的事情

而Nelson他们在旁边打闹我完全视而不见

课后他们还问我去不去吃东西

我还扭了一下头说我不饿

于是坐在同一个位置继续做着自己的事情

旁边的一个女生跟我说他们要上VFX的课了

这时候我是应该离开的

可是我没有走

而是留在那里偷上了半节不属于我的课

12点到了，一个人去broadway吃东西

因为某些原因

我变得很没胃口

从书包里拿出那盒已经准备好的水果

很悠闲地一颗一颗地塞进我的嘴里

脑里却一直在想着各种各样的事情

至于在想些什么

真的想了很多，很多。。

打开了fb，回了几个我之前没回的朋友

其中有一个最近找我找的很频繁

让我挺惊讶的某人

就这样某人陪了我一整天

从lunch到下午上课，下课，回家

虽然时常还是因为某些msg，聊天的过程里还伴有欢笑

可不知为什么还是觉得心塞

尤其是等待上课的那两个小时

我在food court度过了一个online company的过程

是寂寞，孤独，还是我的不满足？

回到AIT上第二节课

我选择坐到一个角落，然后继续做我该做的事情

无人打扰

也不打扰人

看着那部电影

那部之前已经看过的电影

同时在思考着怎么做movie trailer

故事情节有点紧张

作为marshal, 主角拼命想保护飞机上的人的安危

与其他以劫机为主线的电影不同的是
劫机者并无明目张胆地出现在飞机内
而是通过神秘信息跟主人公玩起了一场心理斗争
这高级了喂
作为观众
我记得当时在Harry家跟打牌小伙伴们看时的那种心情
大家都在打赌到底谁是真凶
结果我们貌似没有一个人猜对 lol
我觉得如果我们是detective Conan的话
victims不知要死多少回...

好吧，归家的路上有点蛋蛋的忧伤
所以又听起了那首sight of the sun
在火车上止不住要犯困
貌似我还在睡的过程中流了这么一下口水
当时醒后看到对面有人刚好又拿着手机正对着我这个方向
也许是我想多了
当今的人大概没那么无聊吧
啊，不对
上次新闻的吃泡面大妈不一样被人照下来了..
额...

谢谢某人的陪伴多时
经理还可以那么悠闲
我们各自诉说了最近发生的事情
他也跟我说了最近形形色色被新经理pissed off的事
好多事真的很难调和
尤其是员工间的矛盾
只能一句good luck, you have my back

还有在郁闷之后，看了这么一集我是演说家
其中有这么一个演讲让我动容
一个心理医生8年前亲眼所见的病患跳楼结束了自己年轻生命的经历
引发了这么一个话题
究竟语言的杀伤力有多大
首先我也得承认难听的词汇，像伤疤一样同样曾经烙印在我身上
就我本身而言，软暴力绝对是不可小觑的
虽然不恰当的表达往往是在人愤怒或悲伤时才出现
而误解与矛盾本身就是漠视情感的开端
很多时候一方会强调自己的需求
而无法控制自己的情感，甚至是激怒对方，使得对方没台阶下
有时候，我检讨着自己在迫切地去追求理想和对身边不满的条件反射时同样有过的冲动
正是这个video带给我的一种启示
但是思想抗争何止是一种负面的心理情感
更多的是对现实生活中得不到的满足
而变得倾向于对身边的人缺少肯定和信任
于是软暴力是其中一种副产品
就像是，今晚睡前跟主人有过的一段小插曲
我的鲁莽与直言不讳让双方沉默了好几次
他说我在逃避问题，选择不信任他人，还有各种消极想法
像别人的赞美我不欣然接受，而是一味觉得别人伪善
生活里很多事情我们是看不见的
看见的又不一定是真实的
也许是这样，长期的保护欲纵使我对其他人多了那么一点防范
另外要维系一段亲密关系
我承认我做得不好
在害怕被无视后的扭曲心理是形成我对另一半不信任的关键因素
关于爱与理解
我还得继续学习

但是还是感谢主人的提醒和建议
生活的每一天基于不同的学习和认知
就像是今天
就算再灰的日子
或者比这更普通平凡更无奈空虚的日子
还是要懂得微笑
与接受他人对自己真诚的帮助...

Get back, AIT has started~ (6th of January)

I wouldn't be able to attend class on time if the C place still not responding to my phone call

Lucky that after an hour of waiting on the phone

A lady talked to me and solved my problem

That was the online reporting that was supposedly done today

And the page was unavailable for some reason

Not that my access level hasn't upgraded, but the system was down, she said

My patience was worth it

I mean, I even put my lunch aside instead

Because without solving this single problem, which is the most important for our family

I wouldn't have a good appetite to eat

She said I looked so cute and pretty with my PJ, especially my rabbit teeth are out when I talk..>.>

Thanks mum for loving your lovely daughter and said such a cracking joke lol

Downloading 'sight of the sun' again to my phone

This is still one of my favourites so far

It makes my day afresh

And I become happy again

every single time when I listen to it

Patrick hasn't come back from Taiwan yet

So for today's task, Sharon gave us the sheet for the tut task

We read the instruction step by step, and based on what we've learned last time, we finished our green screen VFX. If not, this will be the after-school work for us..

Presumably, none of us got it done within 2 hours

The green background is hard to remove and replace

I used different keyings to get rid of some parts, but left some parts surrounded the figures

So I tried several times to overlap a few layers of keying, just for making the figure look smoother and less out of the place

I was the first one to post my tut task online

Can't believe I was the first this time, even way faster than Joseph who would always finish everything ahead of everyone else

No matter how inactive ones are, sharing and keeping everyone updated is my job 

Spamming messages are more to come

since we have to get our video started

resources are starting to collect, same to interviews and copyright free music

just everything we need to make a promo video

anything that we can think of

But there are more for me to think

Like how I can master photography in a short period of time

while doing my two huge projects for AIT

I'm going back to listen to FUN's sight of the sun

that will make me forget things and relax a bit..

Accidents are=3= (5th of January)

Received some of my photos via online chat

And I got to know what someone's draft is about..

though this has nothing to do with me

to my curiosity, I still want to know about some engineering stuff>.>

Blog post updated

Reading quite a number of pages of something that I don't know

Then I was dragged by her to go shopping at Coles and Woolies

She's been craving for a fruit extractor

And she's been begging me to go with her to have a look

I went, but they were all sold out at Coles...

She was disappointed, but later found the same product at Woolies

except that the price goes $10 up from there

Helping her to carry bags and bags altogether

With fruits, snacks, and drinks..

Oh...Ice-cream too :3

Most of them are with half price xD

Cheap Asian much lol...

What's wrong with me and people around me

Like seriously

Dar dar was hurt by accident in the gym

10kg weight dropped on his leg....

In the meantime, my mum was hit by the shelf board dropping down from the shelf

when she was cooking that time...

Lucky she was a bit away from the kitchen table

or her head would get hit >3<

Spending couple hours in reading the booklet

while exploring more of my own camera

He finally went back after his IMAX movie time with a bunch of friends

But got me worried because of the lateness

Knowing how long it is to wait for a single bus back to uni

How can I not be worried?

The urge to learn (4th of January)

4th day in 2015

Same as usual, I jogged at the park in the morning

The only difference today was, halfway through the first round where I reached the top of uphill

There was a string between two logs hanging 

and I got tripped over heavily like a fat whale 

knees and palms were hurt

scratches and bruises everywhere

With pain, I picked myself up from the dust on my body

and kept on jogging regardless

soon completed the first round

I just realised I left my hat from where I tripped over

I jogged back to there, and found my hat lying next to the log

walked to a toilet nearby

to clean my wounds

I blamed myself for not seeing things clearly 

and the one who set this up for fun

But after all

it was just me being unlucky in the early morning...

Back home, an hour of nap

Had a dream of me driving by myself with mum next to me for the really first time

the only I remember was she kept asking me avoid hitting with other cars

I begged her not to use the word 'hit' 

A taboo word when driving on the road

like a curse or a magical spell which may cause car accident...

blog post updated

plastic sleeve folder designed and showed that to my president

He said ok, great

great then, I finished another task for the day..

With above and beyond's best tracks company

I continued to read that article that left finishing from yesterday

The one that is about 11 essential camera techniques in filmmaking

During my reading time

she was watching that reality show in which is for hiring people

There was a few times when she asked me to watch it with her in some particular points

where I also have the same problems with that graduate

who seem to appear big ego in the way she speaks sometimes

and was being judged by some bosses

Attitudes could be the determinant to win over someone's heart

I should learn from that too, as mum said

Now we know what kind of noise was made a few days ago

the really eerie grinding noise that appeared next to my window

was creepy like hell

using mum's word 'it sent chills down my spine'

I assumed that it was the possum

so I searched noise of possum on Youtube

Trying to find out if it sounds like what we heard

My prediction was right

It's totally the same, especially when it gets angry or moody

And I remember it came all the way from afar last night as well

as I heard some branches outside of my windows

were weighed down by some heavy creatures climbing up and down..

For the rest of the day

I learned some idioms again

and some phrasal words that I don't know of

And I revised that by doing several tests from the same site

as well as some words which go quite confusing, even for locals

Next I had a read of a few pages of that business and management vocab 

as well as that book for adjective memorisation based on the rules of base and affixes

These are all my plans for me to have some productive learning throughout my uni holidays

I don't want to waste any precious time on insignificant things now

Just like photography is something I need to learn too

Both for my own benefit and the need for helping the society

It has become more than an interest that urges me to learn

In that 2 hours of experimenting from taking pictures and reading from the instruction book

I started to feel pleased making this a part of my life...

PS: Thanks for Haiwon's invitation, I can't wait to see you on Sat :)

PS1: Cut my wounds open in order to clean them all up, because the sands got inside of my skin...she said I had to do that...I've been through that painful almost 2 hours slowing cutting my wounds open...worst time of the day...
PS2: Feeling loved for having parents' caring though. Distance is really not the problem, I still feel the warmth coming all the way from China. His words made me go 'Yes dad, I'll take care of myself..because I don't want you and mum to worry too much..' The huge love, is continued to grow without ceasing...