2nd of Nov

• In short, the last two sections finished within an hour
• Sent the whole essay to Michelle and she said the report seems pretty good with all the graph, pie and column charts I have put in
• She sent me another 2000 words film assignment afterward, this time I rejected her since this one is also due on the 8th, the same day of my own assignment's deadline...
• I initiated the conversation with Karen, Corey and Land because I was bored. Karen then asked me to go out tomorrow because she needed my company to go to so many places, besides, we sure do need to catch up after a long period of noncontact...
• So yeah, this is a really delayed update.Today is the 4th of Nov...I can barely remember details of things in the last two days if I don't put it down >.>

A mess...(1st of Nov)

• K...How to start this....
• The report is fine but I still like essay much better. I am not even quite sure if I did it right just by reading through the materials. In particular, aims, goals and objectives are interchangeable and that their definitions are too similar. Only that a goal may be a statement which is more specific than an aim and objective usually includes an outcome. I don't write reports for the courses I am doing so this person has provided this chance for me to practice writing a report...
• K..enough of report...I just wanna say...
• ^ Paris Hilton is not that bad, she's just one of the examples that the press doesn't do any good on her. ok I have no idea why I would be so interested in this socialite for over a few hours...I mean maybe she's nothing like how the media portrays, how could somebody be this stupid allowing people to take pictures of her crotch=.= She's already having so much that a normal person would be expecting to have, honestly, no one would want this kind of attention if she already has fame under her super rich family...
• Something just keeps coming back at late night. Some old photos and old stories have saddened me a lot T____T Yet I enjoy getting depressed with all my favourite sad music and crying alone under the blanket...

The last day of October

• Everytime after our argument, she would be treating me 3 times nicer than usual for some reason. In the morning, she woke me up in a really cute voice, hugged me and massaged my back for another half an hour or so. Her love is oh so unbeatable, the last second, she was pissed then the next second, both of us don't remember what has just happened and erased all that from our memories. This is our way to deal with each other and to forget each other's imperfection. We do need to put everything behind after we begin to put a smile on each other's face again...
• The last day of October, 31st of October, Halloween, it seems nothing different for me because this is another ordinary day I have stayed home. Doing that report is the first priority and not to think about anything else in this Halloween. But I don't feel sad or anything, in fact, assumed most of the people I know are just having a shit Halloween, I feel much better lol...
• I finally got to finish close to 2/3 of that report...Knowing Michelle has only done her 150 words for that 5000 words report plus her another political essay is also due on Monday..I feel so sorry for her..
• Panpan was doing that last min tax return thing online=.= That little kid should have done this much earlier, not leaving something this important next time!!
• Hope she won't have insomnia tonight....

Clingy her...(30th of Oct)

• Something freaky happened to me last night, when I woke up at 3 or 4am, I could barely open my left eye wide as the eyelid somehow felt heavy. That was completely not right so I got up and looked myself in the mirror, guess what, I found my left eye was swelling like hell, as if I got stung by a bee...I then kept rubbing it til it gradually turned back to normal...so weird...just so weird...it was even more weird this has happened right after watched something I shouldn't have watched...
• She cried for a few hours in the afternoon, not saying why in here but briefly saying, she felt extremely lonely and cannot have the life she wants in here...
• This is not the first time I feel how important my presence means to her...I can't nor I dun even want to imagine how she may feel if there is one day I am not there...
• I don't mind her being this clingy, after all, she's still my one and only blood related here, nothing will be the same if something happens to either of us, so this has made both of us even more cherish each other as well as every moment we have. 
• Even though she was mad at me before I was going to sleep. I didn't blame her at all because this is just her....Her way of letting me know what I have done wrong is still this old conventional way, asking me to stand in front of her for some time, and then a must-to-apologize request from her, lastly an admission of my wrongdoing
• So yeah...strict parenting...Though I wasn't feeling sad like I used to feel when I was much younger. My only thought was to calm her down so she can let me go>.> 

Relaxation(2)

29th of Oct

• Ok.. this DJ Darsy ft DJ Kokey remix got me really addicted...
• By the way, the mysteriousness of that video I watched last night was quite traumatizing. But please don't get this wrong, on the other hand, I was even more interested in doing more research about that incident, about a girl oddly behaved in a way that people think she might have schizophrenia before, and she found dead 20 days later in a water tank, which has placed on top of that hotel...
• Some have suspected that an unknown entity has possessed her body but some have argued that the killer(s) was/were just using this to draw people's attention from their attempt of murder
• This case may be one of the most unsolvable ones recently in 2013. As you can see, people are all seemingly quite incentive to provide their interpretation of the footage. However, in this case, a puzzle is surrounded by questions such as the uncommon phenomenon of the elevator's malfunction, the girl's weird bodily gesture as if she's not from the earth, and the unlucky number 14 in this incident. 
• Anyways it gives me goose bumps when I am typing all of theses in the dark
• I am not that brave, and darkness is.....people who know me do know what darkness means to me=.=
• Not like I am trying to train myself to write a scary post during this time of the day...only if I go insane and if someone is with me or else I don't take this challenge...it gets me really frightened..
• So the reason is because mum has been having insomnia for 2 nights. She then asked me not to turn on the light, the one which is much closer to her room as she's assumed this may be part of the reason affecting her sleeping quality...
• I can tell how bad she feels, how impatient she speaks from all the negative emotions she showed today...I truly feel her...She even thought about her life expectancy and any factors that may possibly be the reason, as well as if she's still having a healthy body even though she just did a blood test a few months ago. Having bad sleep really does affect a person's emotion and hence, distort their thought. I kept encouraging her not to think too extreme and negative, when she gets too tired, she will definitely fall asleep even if she's standing...
• Ok...this is such a negative post....should I change the title 'relaxation' to something else?
• Mehhh...just leave it..>.>

Relaxation after a few days of hard work (28th of Oct)

28th of Oct

• Shabrina texted me saying that she finally finished her essay at 11am..
• Michelle texted me asking if I can do that assignment..
• I wasn't even going to wake up that early and I already told mum not to wake me up til I naturally wake up myself last night
• So after my internal conflict of whether I should accept that 3000 words essay, I felt like I was forced to do it at the end...
• Hardly rejecting people is one of my weaknesses, and 90% of the time I have compassion towards people who beg me for something they want me to do is another...When two come together, it makes me so hard to resist somebody's request. Even some of my friends bet beneath that hard shell, I am actually a super softie...
• Today is one of those days I didn't do much work, as in uni assignments or any studies I should be doing during this exam period
• And I felt like singing loud. Hence I have recorded myself singing a few songs after she went out for shopping in that half an hour
• Later, I searched for some remix videos to watch
• That somebody finally talked to me so I teased him a lot by saying sorta things such as 'I thought I am already out of your life' Well who knows? Maybe I am?>.> lool doesn't really matter whatever I say here because somebody isn't going to clarify anything no matter what he reads from my post ehehehehe xD (taking advantage of him MUAHAHAHAH >3>)
• Lastly I read something scary...=.= 
• I didn't even have the gut to keep watching that video after I read through everyone's comment underneath...
• To be continued.....

Essay(3) (27th of Oct)

Stage 3

• The kid had a bad headache today so I tried not to be too harsh on him during that two hours
• His mum blamed him for playing Ipad too much the night before 
• Funny how he was in good spirit telling me about those girls who have crush on him in school, and his gang have been trying to guard him whenever he walks around because he's the leader of them
• Now I finally know what has made him HIM...That naughty naughty one..
• No rest once I got back home and I went straight to my final essay
• Once again, the third major point seems not ok to me, so I rewrote that whole section
• references took me quite a while
• At late night, Shabrina asked me for some help with her essay.. She's not the only one here feeling this media essay is one of the most confusing ones she's ever done in her life
• Besides she has started her essay too late...I just hope that she can get it done asap and get some sleep>.<