Relo tough times (2nd of August)

So sexpo is just another place to see strippers and hotties. This is where it shows what a white life is truly like. They've got all the sex toys and equipments with a variety of shapes and sizes suited for any of your special needs. For me, attending sexpo is only to see what's something new there, plus it's quite intriguing to see how fun sex could be like beyond much of your expectation. Performers are sexy, with perfect body shapes, just those typical sex-bombs you will see on the street who have a lively night life. This event is one of the greatest promotions for sexuality, and to help people to view sex as a really pleasurable thing but not a sin. The only thing that I didn't find enjoyable was I should have gone there alone or with somebody else since sexpo isn't really somebody's thing. To be honest, each and everytime I only feel like I drag him to go to certain event which he isn't actually willing to go lol...So of course it wasn't really a happy day at all as he asked to leave. Plus I hurt his arms when we were sitting up high. 

Then I acted like a kid again going to the wrong direction, sitting at somewhere, being stubborn and rebellious, and rejecting his warm hugs which I only found them annoying at that time. I struggled the hell out of me as he tried to stop me from being childish. I didn't want to surrender in the whole time yet I couldn't really get myself out of his strong arms. He actually used his force to wrap his arms around my neck and then my waist....So usually I laugh not because he has cheered me up, but his groping and wrapping make me so ticklish to the point that I can't hold my laughter anymore. I guess he can never get why I no longer look serious but still get pissed off at him after I laugh...Annoyance....just annoyance..

We had our chicken buffet at the Korean restaurant and the toilet is a super dodgy place in which I couldn't even find where the switch is...Three types of chicken were cooked in the same way but adding different sauces have made them a lot different from one another...However, I couldn't take the hot and spicy one=3=...I seriously can't...

An overall depressing night with lots of harsh words coming out from my mouth through texting. Each of us was standing on different side of the street as I left him behind. I wasn't quite sure what I was thinking, maybe it was my rebel side that made me so damn cold plus the inflicted vengeance was in response to the unhappiness in the day....And I went back was only for the sake of not wanting to end a day depressingly. A big fat hug as his train came, wiped his tears off his face without looking at him was to make yourself not to feel too bad. That doesn't mean the problems are all solved though. Well..To work out or not is not decided, who knows what will happen next..but I've never made any promises anyways.. 

PS: Thanks Eric who chatted to me a bit afterwards. His little wish sounds like a mission impossible for everyone and everyone else. I support him and hope that this minor thing won't lead to a huge problem in his relationship because it is not worth arguing with your gf for something that neither of you can change...

Hectic life eager.. (1st of August)

Right...I don't like being so carefree so what I do is to give myself a hard time working or studying more in order to make me feel that my day is also filled up with lots of tasks when I actually don't have any for the day...I woke up early to do my thingy for mum, went to attend my first lecture of international security. I was actually really into this kind of topic after I've got sort of knowledge in both areas- media and economy. Not trying to sound like a pro or anything, and neither of these is pre-requisite or some sort to enter this course. But I am just saying this is a right course for me to link that back to both media and economy somehow. As you know, lots of areas are actually intertwined...So the overall course was so good in my opinion. I like it. I like to the utmost when lots of political issues were brought up in the lecture. Besides, I like the lecturer :3 as well as his clear explanation that gives me a fairly good feeling towards the things we learn. Not too banal, not too crazy.

And up to the point where I started to plan a few weeks with lots of things that I have to get them finished by September. Don't ask me why, you will know why later on. I came to the library for reviewing the lectures I had for this week, as well as to get everything done including the tasks for next week's tutorials and all...Although it was only a preparation for answering the questions the tutor might ask in the tut next week, I quickly wrote a few pages for all the answers not because I was bored, but the attempt to contribute much more for my courses as part of my ultimate goal in this sem, and to achieve an even better result if it's possible. Oh and to my surprise, I found this exchange program goes around at the campus. So I also completed that application form online and submitted it. This exchange program is for us to form the maximum of 4 in a group, a minimum of one hour to meet up in a week, to practice the language we are willing to improve. I'd like to look for a Jap buddy for my Japanese so I went super excited for discovering there is such a program, which is free of charge. But then, adding to more commitments I'll be having AIT, uni, internship, PH society and tutoring, less spare time will be expected in this sem lol...But who cares, I love my life for being hectic :)

Milk tea.. (31st of July)

I was all alone in my studio class because I wasn't quite in a mood to talk to anyone else in the early morning until the second class started, where Nelson, Carson and Jim were all sitting around me and doing our projects together. I thought it'd be one of the boring days today as I wasn't having anything excited. Then I saw Tia coming with me to the toilet towards the end of the class, she was cleaning her ruler. The dark ink stained on her ruler was from drawing all the lines for her visual diary. We were sort of having a fun time washing it together while chatting for a bit. Then I saw thai brothers were just arrived at AIT when I was going back to my class to pack my bag. I was extremely happy seeing both of them as I haven't seen Game for almost 2 months, and now, we don't even have any classes together this sem. So they asked me to join them to have lunch as I finished my class anyways.

It was more of a mini catch up with them. They asked about how I've been these days, what food I'd like to have today etc. After picking a restaurant nearby which they both thought that I am so damn picky to my 15 minutes of hesitation, Kael teased me by saying he felt sorry for my bf >.> Anyways we three had a good time having Jap noodles at that Jap noodle bar. They ordered takoyaki and shared some with me. They asked me to go smash next week to hang around with them so I was like ok...I'll see....If I really do go...I am there for my brother!! :3 and lol...Leon's birthday gathering thing will also be going to smash, but on sunday...so I am not sure when to go really o3o...

And yes....they seriously love patting my head a lot especially Kael who treats me like a pet he owns..=3=Game, on the other hand, is much more generous and nicer. As I walked to Paddy's market with them to get their props for the cosplay competition, I was constantly asked to pick something yet I didn't want to spend my money...I shouted Game btw, and Kael...milk tea...They ordered the same regular milk tea. Game was the one asking me to get a straw so we could share his together. But as my straw was too small, he asked me to share with his to his kindness. Kael then said why his brother treats me so nice now...I was moved by hearing when Game said she's my sister!! like awwwww >3< I then put my arms around him attempt to have a hug, Game purposely gave me a bear hug while saying to Kael 'bro you jelly? I am not yours anymore' loool...It was priceless seeing Kael instantly went =.=||| I'm taking Game home mwahahaha...

Le fun time with them was the highlight of my day :3 But then again, I had to go back to uni for my media lecture. Gwinny wechatted me and asked if I was at her lecture. I told her that we ain't doing the same subject this sem....Yes....I miss those times with them having the same lecture and tut. But the fact is that I ain't doing media production degree :(

My first media lecture this sem was ok-ish. Nothing really that special. The first one hour was for housekeeping, assessment guidelines etc, and the remaining one hour was for us to watch the episode one of the newsroom. I found it quite amusing by laughing at some glorious moments between the characters. Though I have to admit that they do talk so damn fast which I was lost for a few times, so I have to rewatch some parts when I get home tonight...

Before heading back home, somebody told me that he mixed up the date of having his second lecture, so he was then in Central as I was close to be there. A short meet up with le bf was fun. First, I was forced to answer his call before he jumped out from nowhere and lifted me up as always...Second he kept on complaining my headset poking his chest for couple times, and claiming that I bought my luxurious good when I complained him having this slightest tendency to get his...We sat at somewhere to have our talk about people he met, friends he knew/bumped into, things he did during work, his stress day from having a shitty group while his manager was there, the new friend he made, our upcoming event sexpo on sat and so forth. I was being a dickhead dragging him to stay when his train was arrived at the platform already by refusing to give him a goodbye kiss>.> BUT...I ain't a complete jerk when somebody sexually assaulted me by grabbing my two balloons on our way to the platform before that...>.> (HA....I put it on my blog post! I do what I want!~ :3 ) Last word...night night to that flirty chicken... :3

Talk talk talk talk talk...(30th of July)

That was the first time ever I arrived at the train station early. Yet Corey dogged me for his group project T3T...I haven't seen my brother for 3 weeks by now. I really wish to see him next Wed morning if I am not late...So design principle class was totally fine with friends sitting around. Mickey kept on taking my things away as I was just sitting there quietly doing my work...Tia and Jim were sitting next to me doing theirs until Tia asked me this one question, I stopped for a sec, wondering if we should both ask Helen to confirm whether we were doing it right....She went and asked Helen couple times as she explained vaguely...She came back with confusion and asked her mate Charlie to go back and ask the same question, so Helen has sent a few of us with lots of question marks in our heads because what she wanted us to do is to draw letters in alphabetical order. However, she has mentioned that we had to draw the name of our font design first and do the rest of the letters that are left there....She just made the whole thing confusing when she told Charlie that we still had to follow the example but not what she told us to do in the beginning =3= So yeh....

I was sitting with Tia in studio as well. But she was sleeping the whole time whereas I have been working for my thingy and blog...

Had lunch with Nelson and Gold again at a Malay restaurant nearby. The toilet there is a dodgy place though. I had to go through that dark little tunnel to get through that door, and go down two levels to reach a toilet in darkness...There was nobody inside at that time. I doubt if anyone will dare to go down there at night...

Anyways...Nelson left his water bottle at the restaurant before he went back to AIT. Same as last time, I didn't want to make my friends to wait for me to finish my meal, I asked them to go back to the class first. Besides I've got no classes after that...But lucky that I haven't left yet, or else I wouldn't have gotten Nelson's water bottle back to him as I've been wondering whether that water bottle belongs to him or the restaurant this whole time when I was still staying. So I went all the way to give back his water bottle, sitting at the couch near that office to watch something online before I was ready to head back to Central. Then Tia came with an angry face, I asked her what happened, she went to mark her name and came out from her class just to talk to me about it. I didn't expect to be a 2-hour talk til her class ended...>.> However we did have lots of fun talking about her life in Brisbane, her formal and makeup thingy...She even complimented me for being pretty o3o *blushes*...Oh and reason why she was mad was because of her mum who pissed her off at some really little things...=3= the pumpkin seeds biscuits...>.> Yes...just that...

So everyone was out of the class. I didn't mean to wait for anyone but purely just been talking to Tia for two full hours...Gold, Nelson and Mickey saw me and asked me why I was still here...And I ended up walking back to Central with Nelson who kept asking me about uni life and such...

I had my little nap on the train so I could power up a bit tonight to do some work..hopefully...

Random... (29th of July)

What did I do today....

Updating my blog posts; reading online news; watching incredible survival stories...

When I look back, I really have wasted another day in my life....Oh oh but then somebody posted this status of volunteers wanted, I am exactly the one that fulfills all the requirements he needed, you might think this is a great opportunity for me to work for that yeh? But no, the only problem is I have to work on Sat :/...So I didn't take this offer...

Somehow that part of childhood memories keep coming back whenever I get pissed off at people who show no caring...It really isn't their problems but mine....

Day 1 uni (28th of July)

Day 1 uni started on this fine day. The first lecture this sem was Japanese. I dropped off from gate 2 and walked straight to biomedical building to attend my favourite class. Fukui sensei will be lecturer this sem and I am really happy to see her face again. She even called my name out once I entered the lecture theatre.

I made friend with this guy who was also sitting in the first row with me on the side, where two of us were alone having nobody else around so our eyes met, awkwardly greeted each other before we started having our first Jap conversation practice. He's a sleepy person, even more sleepy than me. I felt so sorry for him after he showed me his epic timetable. Good luck for that.....engineering students need so much luck...

Haiwon texted me during my lecture and asking if I'd be free afterwards so we could meet up for lunch. :3 My favourite Korean buddy..I AM COMINGGGG *big hug hug*...>3<

We had our time talking about movie making and such. Most of the time, we shared our perspectives on filmic elements as she was really interested in knowing what I've learned in film classes. Then I also gave her some new ideas on 'media', not the media that has something to do with devices, but its original sense and function in the very beginning. I gave her a really simple example by pointing at the toilet sign, saying that is actually a form of 'medium', as the term medium itself has nothing to do with technology in its origin, it's actually a condition, a substance, a cause, or an element that intervenes one subject over another, or representing a force or effect that is produced between two subjects. Therefore, toilet sign in this case, is an indicator exists in between the people (first subject) and the toilet (second subject), in which it directs people to where the toilet is. That being said, almost everything can be regarded as a source of medium in this world, you see how different it is when you use a pen on a paper, use a chopstick to eat next time...They all carry social function as to assist you to do something...

*whispers* So...how many people out there are into BDSM...>.> I know there will be some...Well I wouldn't say I am really into it. I only like to watch hardcore films, and 50 shades of grey, the one that my bf showed me seems not bad. >3< ehehehhee *grins*

So this person was ranting about his gf on the phone at 10ish because somebody felt so betrayed. He was the one doing most of the talking and I was there listening and tried to respond with something he wanted to hear. His depression and anger extended to this end even just talking on the phone, so I shared mine to him in order to make him feel a bit equal by saying how I don't really like panpan being flirty and all etc, soon my story has drew his attention, so instead of complaining about his, he asked me to tell more lol....>.>

Anyways first time ever talked to Jacob on fb as I was wondering whether he'd be doing Jap this sem. But computer person said no for having no more electives :( I'll miss having him in my Jap seminar. It was such a fun session being partnered with him! Oh and he told me he's South African o3o I was in shocked since he looks nothing like an African.....Smartass also said that he was one of those notoriously with bad social skills, maybe he was before I don't know, but he seems completely fine and hilarious....

LOL....Anthony lost his phone somewhere on the train tonight....He said how he felt losing phone is equivalent to having no social life etc>3>....way too serious bro....Just get a new one and put back all the contacts...=3=

Kiddy sesh (27th of July)

Kiddy session was totally amazingggggggg....The first one hour was joyfully completed. Same as usual, I tested him those two pages of grammar points, he still got some of them wrong but much improved from last time. To explain the new things on his homework sheets, I introduced this prepositional phrases etc using some funny examples to just get him listened lol I even laughed at when I said 'transformers ain't the potatoes' but 'heroes' when trying to link that to the word. He then showed me his mum's wedding album where she put it at the bottom shelf, I wasn't dare to look at them as he said that his mum'd get pissed off if she ever found out this.

His mum gave me their new address and informed me that there must be at the minimum of 2 lessons a week once they move to Arncliffe half a year later. On my way home, the train was packed with people, I was sitting at the stairs having difficulty to breathe...

Came back and helped her to check this serious issue on net. You see how much she's worried about whether the news is true or fake, as we would be one of those people affected the most. My words are not convincible at all, she was still quite worried, not that I expected how calm she would be after knowing this. Of course not, how can you not be thinking so much if this has something to do with your personal issue...I hope she can go back to China soon so she can deal with that though...