23rd of Nov

This is not getting anywhere I know, and eventually problem solved from tearfulness. I knew I said something wrong again once I saw his tears..

So let's skip this part, a common problem that I see myself as a reactive one, who easily lose temper with significant mood swings, subsequently unwanted feelings are flooded. I may appear to be calm and rational this second but cool head can actually detached from feelings the next second..

But yeah, that was the first time I suggested to go for dinner at night even though I was still being extremely quiet the whole night. Indonesian restaurant was relatively costly though, ordering one or two dishes already cost up to $30+. So this time I chose to pay for my own food whether he wanted or not. Having Nitrogen ice-cream was the second place we went right after we finished dinner. I didn't know how he did it, with a super quiet one, who seemed like not participating no matter what he said or did, he could still have fun all night long...That must have taken him considerable effort to make it lively between us.

He teased me a lot when we had ice-cream. Trolling was inevitable apparently. Hence a lot of angry bird faces deadly stared at this panda...a mischievous panda...grrrrrrr...

Don't know where that tiredness was from, we both fell asleep once we got on the train. Later hugging tightly during the time he waited for his train to go back...

ok..still a good day after all but it would be better if I was responsive a bit more...  

22nd of Nov

In brief, another ordinary day spending time at home doing something I had to get it done by 10pm. Luckily I woke up at 7am, not naturally not forced, only due to my really bad tummy started from 4am. I walked to the next room telling mum that I couldn't go to the medical centre with her because of that 2000 words visual diary due today, and the thing is, I haven't even started...

Apparently I had been working on that visual research and diary for the entire afternoon til night. Not blaming someone, but that someone should at least know how to structure a proper visual diary in a media course...Despite this is my first time to do a proper visual research and diary based on a video I made, I googled every detail of every section to ensure I am on the right track. Learning extra things made me feel happy, especially this is the field that I am really into it. 

I do have this slightest inclination to ask someone for help with something I wanna learn, but without the opportunity of knowing some really talented people outside of my social circle, it just takes time for me to explore things further alone. But I believe that being adventurous will take me further..

(super delayed post no.3)

21st of Nov

21st of Nov

• to be honest I barely remember what I did on the 21st...
• The only thing I did for the day was editing that 1 min video
• Since I thought that the footage has determined the resolution, without any knowledge on how to convert the video to the required resolution, I was quite frustrated for a few hours looking for ways to do it..
• But then again I am just an amateur video maker, so many technical stuff that take me a much longer time to learn and memorise. Frankly saying, 1400x1080 is not that huge different from 1280x?(can't remember..) 
• Oh I also watched something that reminded me of my deceased grandpa...
• Super delayed post no.2 here  

(20th of Nov)

20th of Nov

• First time to go MTC and the first scene I saw was an old man was late for his appointment for an hour and a half, apologizing yet seemingly getting along well with the office people...Weird how long he was late for an appointment yet the people there were being so nice to him...
• Later on..Mr Nigel led us to his block and thanked me for helping him to interpret between mum and him
• He then asked her to fill in some forms, explained the rules and all that, printed a few pages and came back...Once again asked me to interpret, at the same time he called somewhere to put mum in the English course
• Mr Nigel was nice, so nice to the point that she changed her mind not to transfer to Rockdale MTC at the end
• We then dropped something in run property
• Shopped around and bought so many stuff as per usual
• It was already 6pm when we were back, edited that video for another 3 hours or so...
• Super delayed post no.1 here...

Serenity(1) (19th of Nov)

• Talk talk talk talk talk...HSC finished, uni life is done even my friend in America is soon moved on to the next phase in life. I don't know what they call it in America but pretty sure it's not called HSC...I hope my editing did help to boost up his mark a bit..He then told me about those people in high school particularly one girl, who I used to call her as my unbiological mum, has earned a lot monthly compare to others...
• Been talking to Nick at late night as usual. He is another friend of mine who can talk to me for a few hours and we both have similar perspectives...but sighh....
• Anyways Ailin told me to check 2091 result and I did...But then I was disappointed to see it=.= I should have gone to sleep straight away before my curiosity led me to moodle..I knew it wouldn't be as good as I expected, and it has never been good anyways...Blue labels indicated the errors of my punctuation and panpan has told me about this before as well...T___T No doubt that I seriously need to improve my punctuation during this holidays then >3<
• Btw some people can be really good at maintaining a convo, as stated by Enoch, who I find him pretty approachable the first time I met him during rock climbing. oh and happy birthday in advance :3
• ^ Last night content
• Another fine sunny day and I have been out for a coupler hours to collect shots for my videos. I wasn't planning to take mum with me initially until she asked me to shop around with her afterward. By talking about the concept for presence, I tend to philosophize it by recording its contrast-the absence and death...
• Recording the slightest movement and change of the delicate things such as ants crawling on the twig, leaves waving in the wind, I have never embraced the nature this much in this way. And it has always been a new discovery to observe the little things surrounded us that we hardly notice..
• Then mum dragged me to get a 25kg of rice. We carried it home with some other heavy shopping bags later on...
• Another day's gone but significantly I got the things I wanted, now chilling here and ready to do my editing...really really peacefully..    

(18th of Nov)

18th of Nov

• 6am to 9am: 1000 words are done in three hours
• til 10am: friend in the USA asked me for help with his creative writing
• Told him I would go to sleep first and fix his once I woke up
• She didn't get to wake me up til 3...
• Came online, he was still there msg-ing me 
• Now time for him to go to sleep...
• Eventually spent a coupler hours fixing his creative writing, which is about one unrealistic policy to raise up the awareness of the issue of government corruption
• So getting eunuchs employed might decrease the level of corruption sounds so absurd, however, he has pointed out several valid reasons to support his point of view, which I also agree with that...
• I think my red highlight might be too much...Fixing one's work usually turns out to be a re-written process at the end..>.>
• Yup...that's my day...Another super delay to update all my posts in the past three days =.= sooooowieeeeee

Obnoxious kid (17th of Nov)

17th of Nov (delayed post)

• I do wish he's my kid so I can impose some rigid rules on him to make him zip his mouth for good
• I like how he kept telling me to be serious and strict yet he was the one being so not serious
• If I am fired only because I am not strict enough, then I have nothing else to say..
• Physical or emotional abuse to a kid is definitely not appropriate, unlike how I treat my bf in a cruel way, a kid wouldn't wanna have a super mean tutor to keep making him depressed right?
• Then tell me what I should do to be strict...=.=
• Anyways I started my report eventually just incase I can't get it done by 12am the next day...
• during the time when I couldn't keep up with it after 10pm...I talked to several people and tweeted a bit to get rid of my boredom
• It was only 11pm and I was already sleepy like hell...
• Not until bf got back to me, I went to sleep right after I said night night...
• Being such a good girl sleeping before 12, which was quite unusual
• P.S congratz to my beloved cousin whose wife just gave birth to a little girl a few days ago :) Another niece of mine must be shoooooooo cute >3< I can't wait to seeeee her via webby hehehe :3