(8th of August)

donuts for the first meal today...
so much donuts..
I love how the sweetness has drowned me..

After knowing several people have graduated
I started to have a sense of urgency as time goes
I thought Angela would be taken the same subject with me
Selestina would too
but neither of them is
Angela finished her degree last sem
Selestina has some problem in enrolment
Nelson graduated as well...
from all his photos update on wechat
I was surprised to know the fact that even he has graduated...
congratz man...all the best for the future

lots of things planned out today..
including several emails have to be sent to different people
the lecturer...for the sake of the first class I missed last week
the consultant...to send her my resume and artwork
as well as the resume for today Sydney
I spent a decent 2 hours writing that Chi version resume
and got corrected by somebody because sometimes my expression is poorly written

I truly feel him, and understand the reason for him to being passive nowadays
I pretty much would do the same if my partners are dodgy...

reading the lect slides before I went to sleep
I can't wait to go sightseeing at harbour sculpturesssssss
ferry ferry time...long awaited...

Interview (7th of August)

上4个多小时的Seminar是无比疲倦的

不过庆幸的是lecturer很nice

而且讲课内容还是比较能让我听得进去的

documentary还是个十分有趣味性的课题

所以即使我昨晚吃了炸鸡导致我咳嗽严重到睡不着

今天4个多小时的课我还是能挺过去

换作是平时的我

我大概半节课已睡着

下课的一小时内休息了一下

接着准备了Interview的一些问题

3点的Interview见到了那个17岁的小菇凉

萌萌哒出现在我面前

跟我畅聊她对设计的热爱

还给我看她之前做过的一些作品

这孩子真不错

不仅看起来乖巧

而且年纪轻轻就已经参加了各种社区活动

还在学校担任过班长和广播站站长

其中还包括帮残疾人做过的筹款活动

就是一些跟我们PH同类型的活动

尤其她的勇气是我最欣赏的

小菇凉才来澳1个月

就已经完全不惧怕生人

能够很好的用英文跟人交流

这孩子前途无量

通过与她聊天的一个小时

我已经感觉到她的诚挚

.............

interview非常好

好吧

接着我就等吃饭了

去帮某猪买了两包饺子

晚上吃饺子喂

很愉快的时间又到了

某猪要拿剪刀的时候

我瞬间挡在他面前

拉着他兜了好几圈

他的下一个动作是袭xiong

嘛

那是我们的相处方式

在观看着variety show那些煽情桥段的同时

我很带劲的high了起来

一下子变得很man

一下子娇滴滴地说起话来

脑子应该是烧坏了

哦，不对，其实我本来就是这样的

一直都是这样的

再者

看到了他房东的庐山真面目

比较大只

不过很感谢她上次的药

我差点都忘记跟人家道谢了

>3<

最后的最后

某人貌似就是死命抓着我某些东西不放额

只要什么东西做不到她标准我总得被责备。。。

做人难。。

生活真TMD难。。

坚持.. (6th of August)

一大早去到meeting

倍感压力

因为有着小萌jacq的帮助

最近group真的活跃了不少

不过也因为这样

她无疑间也施加给我不同的压力

but anyways..我们一个小时内讨论了相当多的组织内容

还有内部调整

对promotion的一些想法

虽然我病了

但大家依然很关心地问候我

看到members的积极慢慢提高了

我很开心

最后还得感谢jacq的一切功劳

她给了我所有的支持和总是第一个站出来说话

真心感谢

又看了一遍Psycho

发觉人性的丑陋永远在你看不到的阴暗处

那些我们所认知的真理还有表面现象大多都隐藏在各种不为人知的秘密中

然后我从看第二次的机会里找到了不一样的解释

还有Hitchcock的确是一位值得尊敬的电影人

他所设计的每一个细节在电影里都是那么天衣无缝的

铺垫做得好

整个故事线很solid

结构分明且故事带出的内容不拖泥带水

还有那些布局上的小聪明与小惊喜所营造的新鲜感

我们都大爱这部电影

经典真非它莫属

之后嘛

我见了intern appointment的Tamara女士

我很庆幸成为她的第一个客人

只不过我没为她上班的第一天带来太多快乐

因为刚好某个话题戳中了我那根弦

于是我就哭了。。

是的。。那话题被问起

问得我突然鼻子一酸

忍不住那掉下来的眼泪

很感谢她的热情

我之后还能振作起来

她现在知道了我的处境

也了解到我的毕业时间还有为我做了一系列的评估

建议我读完大学后就能申请Intern

而且她所推荐的intern可以取代我上课的credits

她还说我是有机会申请animal logic或rsp的Intern的

霎时间我心情复杂

完后我在一个room里的一个角落大哭着

很莫名的压抑和被激起的斗志油然而生

生活中的确是有太多问题要解决

还有很多是想解决但目前没有能力解决的

不过既然哭完后还得挺起胸膛继续走

因为只有坚强的自己才能活出一个坚强的人生。。

vhub interview (5th of August)

I had no regret at all to attend the Vhub interview

even though I assume that I wouldn't get in at the end

as soon as I finished it

it was overall a fun process

another interviewee

name Emily

we met 10 minutes before the interview started

we had some random talk for the preparation and questions may ask during the interview

then the actual interview was quite casual in the beginning as we talked

and got to know each other

we even joked for a bit

until it actually started by them asking us the questions

I started to have that feeling of me being nervous

and brain just going whole blank

I was given with a question to explain a situation of communication difficulty

and how to overcome it

and I already stuck on that question in the first try

next a few other questions I didn't answer well enough either

or the group activity was badly collaborated

I mean, my no-brainer side came out from nowhere

everytime when it comes out

I would not able to know what I want to say or do

or come up with something smart

because everything I say is just dumb to me

guess what...

Jurrasic World is devalued too, by the filmmaker

she doesn't like that film

neither does the guy

also Birdman was hated

honestly saying, I don't like that either

I only claimed that I like it because that was the first film on top of my mind...

anyhow...group interview has always been out of control

you never know what'll be coming after

night night world...

me learning sleep early these days...

(4th of August)

Got told by that receptionist that my intern appointment got cancelled

and that I need to re-book another time for that

decided to take it on Thurs after my class finishes

'Psycho' was great

the second time to watch this movie made me feel something different from the first time when I viewed it

nothing much in the afternoon

except preparing for only a bit for interview

also learning a bit for Maya

that's about it

heading home

grabbed an early night sleep...

night world...

PS: thanks for everyone's caring especially my fattie from oversea

.....

Continuous sickness (3rd of August)

As it's titled

my sickness extended to the next day

even worse...

high fever stayed high

39+ degree

almost 40....

I couldn't even go to uni...

the really first day of this Sem....

I couldn't even get off my bed to get some food

the whole morning for me was a waste

only thing I did was to sleep...

and sleeping more actually reduce more of your energy

which in my case

I was getting even more tired as I slept more...

I had to cancel everything, including the interview I was supposed to have with Julie

the friend of Jacqueline's..

later til Jacq asked me to have another urgent meeting this week

I almost refused it

but thinking I shouldn't

because speculating I would be recovered by then..

.........

that's not it...

I actually had a much tougher times as she's back

I drank uncountable buckets of water

I vomited more than 10 times because of that

I was even asked to get all the sheets cover over my head

because she said this is the oldest yet best way to get rid of fever

in order to make me sweat, which will reduce a bit of temperature

but it was quite awful to a matter of fact of rarely breath inside of the sheets

the lack of oxygen and the darkness had make scared to the utmost

My sheer frightening got trade off with drinking even more water for the same effect 

I really didn't want to do that anymore you know....

I know everything she suggested was to do me good

but in this way, may not go well with me getting even more awful in another manner

til fattie from oversea suggested her to get me to walk around the house

might even help me more

I then stayed at the dining room for the rest of the night

watching TV variety show with mum

discussing the cooking show and lip sync battle

she had my feet wash at the same time

tried every single way she could think of to cool down my temperature

at the really end of the night

she asked me to go sleep with her tonight just for the checking and rechecking my temperature

to make sure my fever wouldn't get any worse at night

as it normally does...

I was awaken by her to check my temperature a few times during the night

getting water from her for several times

and was asked if I was ok with everything before I went asleep

her over-caring made me touch

like I wouldn't have ever ask for...

Sick person..(2nd of August)

somebody was more than concerned for my sickness

nothing much to do today at his house

the plan was killed...

I was at the edge of dreadfully vulnerable due to my high fever

been lying on his bed the whole time

doing nothing

but just sleeping and cuddling him

my body was heat

even he could feel my breath was getting fire

when I breath right on his face

........

he watched my face getting reddened

staring at it like more than 10 seconds

saying nothing

but just watching

til he blinked

I asked several times why

he no answered

he got me water

he fed me medicine and congee 

he did all I asked for

I, lastly asked him to take me back home

because I was difficulty to support myself and walk

he sighed, but said he would

I must have been the most annoying one the whole night

anyways, with his help and caring

I finally got back home safely

right after I arrived home

I didn't do anything but wanting to go to sleep straight away

yes, you were right...

that was only 8pm...

the earliest sleeping time I've ever had recently...