Friday, 27 September 2013

One thing one day...

It's all about one single media project, which is a video compilation of some memorable moments in these 5 years..Of course there are still much more videos from my external hard drive other than the ones I have put in in this project

Coz the movie maker sucks, the number of items I put in is sort of limited to a certain amount. I have experimented to prolong my video with 93 items in 12 minutes, then the error of 'not responding' kept popping up during the time I was doing it, which was quite annoying when you didn't get to save and it closed itself...=.=

Doing one single video can be really fun but with a lot of effort. Please don't ever think the video creators are effortlessly to make a video, there is a lot happening behind the stage like me, who have spent almost the whole day just to select the parts I wanted from 66 videos, then put them in a right order to sync with two songs. Somehow the audio may be delayed so I wasn't sure whether there is something wrong with my own computer system or my movie maker has a huge awesome lag. I seriously didn't do anything but the video making, not even doing anything from the plans I have had for myself the night before I went to sleep...

That urge if you want to do something badly, you won't stop it halfway and I was in that situation, once I start doing a project, I won't be able to stop until I finish it

Now I am just waiting for the video to complete its saving process while I am doing my blog post here...btw, panpan insisted to say that my group of friends and I are going to watch porn tomorrow for some reason=.= no...we are just going to watch slasher films >.> (still waiting for the movie maker to save my video=.=)

Come on movie maker...I want to sleep...>.>

Thursday, 26 September 2013

Study break starts NOW!!

I don't freaking care about the snooze button, normally I would leave it there for more than 5 minutes...Mum didn't wake me up at 9:30 anyways. That was the time I should be awake (at least an hour to get ready for uni for me as it starts at 12) 

She broke into my room at 10:20 and dragged me off my bed by lifting my legs high...

Washed my hair, ate my lunch and ready to go...

My train was gone by the time I got there. =.= Another train came in 15 minutes so I sat there emotionless playing with my fingers...

Got off from central, Jodie texted when I can be in the lecture, I told her I would be at least half an hour late he..hehehe...=.= Once I got on the 891 bus, a familiar face just walked past and I shouted her name 'Ash!!' She turned back and saw me, came back to where I sat. We both were so surprised as I've never seen her again since last year. She was like 'hahahahaha you are such a small person, I didn't even see you til you called my name' >.> I like her even though she's being so mean to speak out the truth>.> lol Her 'working on image and sound' project sounds really fun, sadly I didn't get to pick that course for this semester

She dropped off from the first top and I gotta wait for the next one :( Don't know when will be the next time I see her again *sigh* Anyways I was more like an 'intruder' once I got in the lecture hall as the lecturer was quietly explaining something at that time>.> Jodie waved at me and I waved back just in that distance of 10 meters lol

After the lecture, Ailin tapped on my shoulder then I just realized she has been sitting behind me all this time lol Said goodbye to Jodie, went to the library with Ailin and checked my Twitter, Fb, blogger accounts in that remaining half an hour til the next tut I had

(In the tut) The second presenter was one of the best I've seen so far in my media tut. Love her voice, her interpretation from her section as well as her body language, it was a really engaging. I seriously don't get why the tutor has to be this petty picking on words from our presenters' brilliant interpretation, this has just added more to his sissy characteristic. Seeing him as even more woman than a woman, we, the students down there just giggled...Is this really his nature or he's trying to act funny...=.=

After the tut, Gwinny and Ailin led me to the PH stall to get our tickets with 35 bucks each. They also introduced their friend Nora to me lol We then made eye contact and said 'We know each other from our film studies tut last year lol' 

Then I bumped into Michael (panpan's friend) in my way to the main gate with my friends. He didn't recognize me first til I waved at him. We stopped and talked for a bit. He then asked me to say hi to panpan. It's a great time to catch up next week during our unsw break as well :)

In my way home, I grabbed my daily newspaper sitting at the corner of the train once I boarded. Looking at the view outside with the sunshine shone on my newspaper. The top news today is regarding to how the technological change has impact on our job within 20 years. Some of the jobs will be computerized at risk and low-skill workers will be likely reallocated their tasks under this circumstances. I am starting to worry about my future like the rest of the undergraduates, what is the best career path that is suited to the unknown 
change? Who can answer me with a valid reason?

I didn't really go home straight after I dropped off from rivy, instead I went to grab some snacks from the asian shop in the plaza. It was just an urge of finishing reading the newspaper as a task for me before I headed home that's all...

Sometimes mum can sound really inspired and educational when she's really into a topic of educating her daughter, her words are used to magnify some social issues and conflicts she sees from everyday news and hoping that I can get some lessons from her talk. I exceptionally enjoyed these times to be with her during dinner and lunch, just like tonight. Simple love may be from a simple family and simple family has the likelihood to have more love towards each other :) thanks mum, who has given me all that, she's awesome in her way for shaping who I am now

I would say I haven't done much tonight except for downloading the music I've been wanting for so long...

Study break is starting from this minute, this hour and to make it more like a break, I have already planned something besides studying :)

Wednesday, 25 September 2013

Youthful & active

That accountant fitted us in between the time when she was waiting for the next client coming so we didn't need to wait for an appointment on Friday instead :3 That's one lucky morning first of all

She remembered mum and I came last year, what a good memory or just because there ain't that much asians lodging tax return in her office lol

To my little kiddy thought, I also asked her about my payment whether it would partially contribute to mum's, she was kind enough to patiently answer my questions 

Mum was happy, I was happy for her

Then I went to meet up with Haiwon, just to accompany her during her break outside of the library, where it's near the Matthew's...As usual, we talked a lot, and that she also has taught me how to distinguish between Japanese and Korean Sushi as non-Japanese cannot tell the difference. Even though she's a Korean but she prefers to have Japanese Sushi because of my favourite Sashimi!! Yes, with lots of wasabi and soy sauce to get yourself cried, who can reject to have this great feeling?! well...I can't...I enjoy being killed by wasabi >.>

Then we talked about other food. I would say Chinese is considered to be a nation that eats EVERYTHING. Should I be feeling proud that I was born as a Chinese so that I can carry our honourable title of 'The greatest eater' throughout my life? 

It was overall a good catch up with someone that I haven't seen for a few months. Uni is a place to know so many people but also a place that you will be gone from their memory without keeping in touch after a few months. So re-connection is essential to be kept, at least once in a few months

After she left, I have stayed in the library for another a few hours trying to think about what questions can sound relatively thought-provoking. As Georgia has already posted the first question, then it was my turn to do my job. Just like a weekly role to get on with something that you are meant to contribute other than asking for other group members to help you out. Everyone is busy with their life, Cady has dedicated the most among three of us, she even wrote two questions last week... 

I posted one then did another one as the first one wasn't that contented. During that time, panpan and I texted to each other with long messages. Both of our phones' were running out of battery>.>

I bought a bucket of chicken drumsticks at Central, got my daily newspaper from that uniform guy. Another day of fine weather and good mood. I picked a seat where it was next to the window so I could read my newspaper while eating my drumsticks with all the serene views passing by. Every moment is a snapshot with muted movement that is never paused in its nature, but within you. 

I like seeing her face once I come back. She will open her arms and hug me tight at the back as if her other half. Yes, a clingy one she is, particularly to her daughter, who has only out her vision for a few hours but she has already been missing me so much

Later I was thinking of uploading my new profile on FB. Not to say that it is time to get a new face and start a new life in some degree. It is not going to be a big change but I have thought about a lot these days. If you start to feel yourself older by counting your age, that means, your life is not good enough for you to live on. Would you rather to have a long life with boredom or a short life with abundance? I would prefer the latter. 

Positive energy should be there, somewhere, if you can't find it, it must be elsewhere that you need to keep looking for it. So I did. According to my own plans for today, a little improvement from finishing off my notes for a whole chapter as well as somebody else's weekly assignment is all done. And the song 'Drive by' even has brought me with extra happiness :3

Panpan is still busy but I am starting to truly get over something...We then had some lovable couple talk before we went to sleep. The idea of creating the first time(s) as much as we can in our time being is something we want to achieve. Keeping a healthy relationship may be another topic for all of us to learn, just like my card pals who are still singles have been wasting their time aiming to get the most ideal girls in their dreams. The persistence of Harry who's been secretly liking a girl in his class is so admirable yet not taking any action to hint her, but waiting for that chance to come...I just want to say: Where are all the chances there if you don't even create yourself some? 

They don't know youthfulness is bound to be luxurious and self-structured. Why not give it a go when you see something that excites you, want to do something that fascinates you, viscerally YOU JUST WANT IT
   

Tuesday, 24 September 2013

Lack of excitement...

  • The heck H&R block was closed when she and I have gathered all the documentation that are needed to lodge a tax return
  • It was not even 4pm yet...So it was all my fault that we didn't get to do it by today even though it really has nothing to do with me...I don't even know what I have done wrong :S She just sounded like we didn't get to do it because of me..
  • When we got back, it was 4-ish, half of the day passed, and I haven't even started doing anything according to my own plan =.=
  • Finished that weekly assignment, not quite...still got another hundred words left but I ceebs continue with it 
  • Gwinny said that she's going to that PH dinner, that means I may go with her next Monday weeeee :3 
  • Got my online reading done with notes beautifully typed down in one of the saved file but I lost my interest to read that required reading from textbook after a few pages....
  • UNSW videos made by some talented students were showed on my newsfeed, one of my friends' video was selected to the top13 list, so I clicked and watched it...
  • I just assumed that one of the reasons he was picked as the protagonist is of he's the most good looking one in CSA  lool 
  • My assumption must be right xD
  • Doesn't really matter whether the video is good or not, himself is already a tool to earn a large popularity from the public voting hahaha
  • Well I am not saying that the video is bad here. The video is also really well-edited with thought-provoking narrative in there except for the subtitles, which can be with larger fonts 
  • Just having a thought here: If I have a video crew one day, I think I can make better videos than theirs but now, I lack of a partner and I am not sure where to look for one...Don't lose hope though, there must be some ways to form a video crew sooner. Joining that PH community may be my turning point once I am invited to their media department.. You think I am joking? No, I am being really serious here, damn serious here...
  • Oh btw, her bf came in lunch time and slept on our couch for an hour. What he said was right, our house is so warm, as in 'warm' between us, two of us that show lots of love toward each other from some delicate things we do together compare to his family, which he has never felt in this way before
  • Anyways panpan didn't come home til really really late and I finally knew why he has been so busy these days...
  • No time left for us to talk that much, and I don't know since when we started talking about marriage lol who has brought up this topic man, a topic that is still way so far to talk about in our age...well maybe not THAT far for some people, but for me, it's impossible to ever think about forming a family with another someone and maybe one or more troublesome kids (little evil creatures) later on... 
  • Besides, being a housewife is terrifying, I mean, being a WIFE is already enough to worry....Going to a kitchen is so not my thing, like asking me to cook? nah, you are not cereal... 
  • I guess my wildness will be lasting for ten more years until I gradually feel myself is time to settle down, get a nest and lay eggs...Am I even able to see that day comes? coz look at me NOW, sure I am playful yet maturity is not clashed in some ways, BUT doesn't everybody have pre-marriage phobia? What about the saying of marriage is a graveyard? It's just so scary for me to know the fact that you gotta see the same guy every single day the rest of your life, no novelty but banality? Then how can I survive as novelty takes one of the major parts in my life...
  • Maybe or maybe not, just a crazy thought of mine...

Monday, 23 September 2013

A dysfunctional brain after 8 hours of sleep

It shouldn't be that bad when you sleep for 8 hours right? :S It still is, in my case. Obviously I napped on the train, the stairway... this is what you call 'obstructing the stairway' as the driver has been making the same announcement these days

Once again I didn't go to my lecture but worked on my own readings and notes in the library, where I find it quiet and comfortable to stay for 2 hours. Gwinny took 15 minutes to walk from somewhere far to the main library to find me as she parked her car at the other side of the campus... I wondered why she said I look so sexy today though>.> I was just in my normal summer clothes...

Her speech for the presentation is not bad even though she has mixed up some concepts and components of the systems, so it was an easy fix when I read through her speech and suggested her to change the way of saying something when there is not that necessary to add some bits in...

Time to go to my conversation group at 12, she walked me to downstairs of the library. We both talked about relationship problems once she mentioned how her and her bf once had cold fight. They wouldn't take a long time to reconcile since they live with each other but most of the time, her bf is the one that ignores her first :S  .......

Vicky chose to sit with me in the conversation group. I only noticed that there were the other two new guys sitting there once I came in. Today we were basically talking about our travelling experiences, either the best or the worst. My dysfunctional brain prevented me from thinking about anything to say to that guy, who was in the same discussion group with me. In contrast, he talked a lot, and that he used big words to describe his amazing experience in both Germany and France, where he has joined the conferences of solar energy. Because he nearly took over our discussion, I wasn't bothered to talk about mine after he spent 15 minutes talking about his lol Great stories bro...

Vicky then followed me to the Matthew's to grab lunch, I only bought a sushi roll though I was so hungry. A sushi roll just wouldn't fill up my stomach at all but I didn't feel like eating either, I am just weird like that. Vicky challenged me to answer some of her questions for something she doesn't quite know while I don't know much either lol But I tried to answer the best I can...I took a glance at the people who sat around me, then only realized that Michelle was right at the next table when two hot Japanese guys captured my attention lol Now I see, she's been hanging around with Japanese, such a pro lol

Gwinny came right after I spot Michelle lol She patted me at the back and said...why didn't you look at your phone, I was texting you... >.> I am sorry.....She then sat with us and I introduced Vicky to her. We three had a light talk about life problems and all that. 

They took out their phones at the same time while I noticed they both use apple's... Then I mocked at myself how poor of me who is still using a dumb phone lol That also reminded me of a Chinese woman who's in her 60's carried a brand new iphone with her when we both were waiting for the bus yesterday lol well, I keep telling myself that I don't go with the trend with others but do I really think in that way? What is dragging me along here...Maybe the memory? money issue? my own pride to be a unique person that I never wish to be the same with others? 

Anyways Gwinny's presentation was good. When I said good, I mean the images she selected were so symbolically representative to the topic she was talking about, even each of them has its cultural value that is not repetitive to some other presenters...There was one of the presenters worth a clap from me, someone can do a presentation without any scripts, palm cards, whatsoever that you can read on/ rely on is incredibly eloquent

Btw, Kris has read my blog for the course I did last year, that's why she can remember my name lol

I don't know if you should call this a reconciliation when you start talking back to that person...that emotional dialog, is all caused by my anger and dissatisfaction...Btw Janice should be more brave to chase after the guy she has crush on, I just seriously don't get why she's so afraid of confessing and approaching to someone she likes. I mean she's close to perfection, isn't she supposed to be more confident in herself than so many girls?...Cat and I were being so supportive to try to let her see the brighter side of herself and praise her as beautiful, indeed she is beautiful :) 

Sunday, 22 September 2013

Sleepiness(2)

  • My fatigue is mostly from sleep deprivation but I still woke up at 7 today just to keep doing the preparation for my student...
  • I was late to the train station for 10 minutes because there was a trackwork at airport line
  • Chatswood's Library seems at least 5 times bigger than Hurstville's, Jenny took out her phone and took a picture at the main walkway between two sides of bookshelves
  • I guess staying here for more than 3 hours will go insane just by looking at limitless books placed on the bookshelves is enough to get us suffocated 
  • We started our lesson at 2:30-ish
  • Explained to her the mistakes she made from the work she did last time
  • Then asked her to do 8 different introductions just for practicing the skill of 'adapting to the question' for essays
  • She took almost 40 minutes to finish all that, initially I thought she could get it done in 20 minutes...
  • Following my plan, I ticked everything we've done
  • Lastly looked at her trial exam paper, the only thing I suggested her to do is to read through the questions more carefully
  • There were two questions she could possibly get them fully correct but she lost half of the marks due to her carelessness
  • We walked to the train station together, she walked to the escalator up there to go and catch the bus while I went to wait for my train
  • It was one of those days that the carriage was overcrowded
  • I dropped off from Central, transferred from there to Sydenham and got on my bus to rivy...
  • Peak hour: traffic congestion made all of our passengers waiting for another half an hour
  • Lucky I had my book there to read during the long waiting time
  • Oh god, this sleepiness hit me like BAM after I got home
  • my mind was even more foggy when I had my dinner..=.=
  • Ready to go to bed soon...