well....
I admit that I wasn't ready for the talk
other than how I see myself as a slack one these days
I also am disappointed at my own efficiency
sorry for that lack of preparation
thanks for giving me another allocated time to talk through my research final project
the rest of the day was to stay at the library to finish off my essay
which I was rushed to edit
and look for references
during the time I wrote my thing
whilst the group of 6 at the table on the side was practicing their presentations in turn
I heard some pretty impressive ones
that tall guy's public speaking was really well-done
even I would give him a thumb up if I was his marker~
but the other guy was speaking in fear
and was forced by all his mates to explain his project
while he refused to do so
yeh....my distraction was weird ass
it was just a way of looking for fun thing during my rest
washing off my tiredness
continuing to do more work
until that last bit I seriously felt too tired to continue
I called up somebody to have din din together
we had 'it's time for thai'
and spent some quality time talking about people around us
the irony of underestimate of his English was such a good one of being a laughing stimulant
thanks for chilling with me
me all good nao
me could continue to do work nao
til sad life continued as I found that weirdness of phone turning on and off with one click
not being able to hear the sound coming from another side of the phone as she called
and yes.....I couldn't find my water bottle in the early morning
she called me so careless and such
also my unfinished work was the reason to get her even more angry
she just shouted like a redbull
giving me no mercy and care less of my dignity
saying things to purposely harm my esteem
and being so restrictive to my daily activity from this moment
only because she thinks so big about something
the mark, the graduation and just making all these seem so big
which might not
but to confront her with what I really thought something isn't right is impossible
just not that I will be willing to talk to her through that
so let her be
might just get myself to have another 2 weeks of hard work
once finish
everyone will be happy
freedom comes
democracy there.....
PS: shit network gave me a heart attack
I almost thought the school network was down
after a while of failure to upload my doc to the assignment section = =
lucky it was just a troll....
