Group work (21st of March)

So much to handle these days, and PH stuff has taken so much time to do

some members are alright-ish

some ain't

some still haven't replied me

some just seem like they don't care

I love my Genec group

people were nice

productive-ish

smart 

so we finished the charter and presentation plan within an hour

we were going to take the topic of leadership anyways

case study will be the analysis of 3 different styles of leadership to reflect what it is like based on the conceptual framework

Thanks for Charlotte's thingo

I promised this editor will get all the typing up by tonight :)

Nothing much to do

but staying at lab doing all my executive stuff

admin stuff it is

Dinner was at that Jap restaurant again

We talked about my admin stuff, my members, the executives

just everything that happened these days

he was telling me how he wanted to earn some big bucks by taken the first step of having some financial base

Everyone has a dream

I have too....but it's far far away lol

Typography (20th of March)

I love AIT class

Typography seems like a good choice I made in this sem

An hour of designing a poster plus some conceptual work has to be linked together was my thing

Nelson was doing a super easy design compare to mine

which I chose Bauhaus, his artwork has the tendency to be the entirety of simplicity represented as a complexity

Our goal is to keep our design simple enough and readable

while we also need to bring the geometry out from the way of layout 

Thanks for Diana's suggestions, I have learned something extra outside of the class

less than 15 minutes of meet up with that girl at the new company

she told me how urgent they needed the design

I told her I couldn't get it done til 2 weeks later

she then said, she would contact me via wechat for the later brochure materials

For the banner design, she asked how much I expected to have for return
I told her approx $100...I don't want to be one expensive labour..

Under much pressure from those who had been asking me to promote
as if I didn't do enough for the society
I cried again with dar dar's presence
he patted me at the back, I was sort of uncontrollably frustrated at my own fault for not being able to do things
like a mess, it gave me a headache
I wish I have a twin to share some of my pain
I really have had enough..

Interview (19th of March)

So modernism lecture was to analysis this extract from the fiction story

Mrs Ramsey..such a good name, good plot, beautiful piece of work to the greater feminist movement

I see why Patricia, this candidate is able to impress Shannon and I

she's such a vibrant, intelligent, thoughtful one

who we both have seen her good vibe during the talk

I really like her thinking

her answers for all the questions asked

the most ideal one who is competent to be a well communicative one

while having so much tech skills I've been hoping from my members

She's definitely in...

And to the second interview where we had 6 members all in one

was so much for us to compare who is more suitable to which department

so each of us had taken down some notes of every single individual

The guy who was named as Kevin seems so bright in suggesting us with some creative ideas for the deadly race
Philbert had ticked 4 departments, including PnD, but he didn't show much passion in designing
but more of organising events...

Being bossy like hell manipulating people in the group...nah
I only wish I really am...
I was just doing my job for some human resource thingy too, for my own department by adding people
handing them tasks to do...
Being a head can never be easy, especially with some other fussy heads around, which makes my life even more difficult lol....

Choice of being strong (18th of March)

I didn't know how vulnerability has been living with me when that emotional outbreak was almost everywhere

I finished a part of my plan this morning

checking all my group work etc and was told that our group meeting was finally finalised this coming Saturday

the only thing I don't like about this online course is how frequently we gotta submit work

 and yeah, I cried for somebody's attempt of leaving

usually it would not be a reason for me to even shed a tear

but owning to all the problems I've been having recently

plus that morning call has kept me waiting for almost an hour, with extra minutes for the verification

it was almost driven me insane

AIT class was all good

I didn't know there would be that many people in typography class though

most of my friends were in there sitting in the room when I got there

the teacher carried a bit of Indian accent as she speaks

but nice enough to have all of our respect

I shoot a few questions during the time she talked about the assessments

she answered me with full of kindness

While Nelson was on the side having me to explain to him what our first assessment is about

he wanted to team up with me since I could do most of the work lol

but I was planning to do it alone anyways, so there's nothing different whether he partially does some work or not

Our president sometimes could be picky too

 I thought that I could finish everything by the time I got home

but no, the design has taken me more than a few hours to fix

since he never satisfied with the type of texts

until then, I finally got it done at almost 11, he finally accepted it lol

I don't want to express how negative I was tonight

all that conversation with my loved one who didn't seem to support me

has put me with extra burden upon my shoulders

I didn't want to have any argument, so I refused to respond

I had done nothing wrong

but she has made the situation overly intense 

she said I didn't seem to care much about the money

and described me as a boiling brat

even fattie was really speechless on the other end of the phone

asking her to calm down a bit

she then thought of us as team up to against her will for being a caring mother

I almost lost myself for not getting what I should deserve 

what am I doing all these for?

ain't I trying so hard to strive for the better life we could have?

But to look on the bright side, everything that bothers me is all I equally care for

and that I think they ALL are important to take a part of my life

I don't say 'no' to challenge because I choose to be in a tough life

So maybe...

sleep now

wake up tomorrow

everything will be ok again..

任务n+ (17th of March)

今早在巴士上睡过头了

去到lecture已经过了几乎半个小时

听了一下诗词的解说

记了一下notes

然后又到了break的时间

帮那谁改了一part的thesis

然后中午快要上课前去吃了点东西

不过最后还是决定skip掉那课

因为实在 太。无。聊。了。。。

好吧

我AIT也十分不productive的

appointment等了一个多小时才轮到我

进去不到两分钟就完成了我的任务

timetable很坑

为嘛就不能排在大学的同一天。。

还有那啥把学生卡也renew了

网站一直又上不去

问了IT department才知道他们出了一点小错误

导致网站http必须要有个s在后面才能access到。。

话说nelson和jim一定是看不惯我绑马尾所以才说我胖的。。

我哪有发福了。。。

拜托你们用词恰当点好吗。。

最后

压力重重

任务全部堆在一起

真有点不知所措

以为终于有点时间可以轻松片刻

才发现group work又要开始了。。

ph的东西又要弄。。posters..flyers所有的所有

新公司的老板开始给我booklet的设计任务。。

大学又开始忙这忙那

ait又开始了

天啊。。。老妈还忘记了（又忘记了report。。。）

精神又萎靡不振的。。

简直是无奈到极点。。

虽然知道这是考验。。我也尽量克制我自己的情绪了

真怕handle不来。。什么都做不好。。

算了，现在洗洗睡吧。。希望醒过来后又是一条好汉

PS: 心情郁闷  虽然跟ailin，who also has the same problem as me下午聊了一下

心情还是接着郁闷

这已经是事情太多，像电脑一样快跑不动的节奏了。。

Super boring film sesh (16th of March)

Grand Hotel was one of the most boring films I've ever watched recently

I couldn't bear with that 2 hours, even with Doris sitting next to me

she fell asleep in the second half an hour, woke up and I started to have my nap nap time...

3 hours of break was sort of productive

doing all my readings and all

completed my task that is due this Friday

also met up with Jenny, invited her to the secret group and that committee group formed last week

now half of my plans were done for the day

but the other half was still on my waiting list

which I couldn't spare some time doing them

but helping dar dar with his work after my another 2 killing hours of seminar

Finally done with the banner design too

the boss then asked me to go to the company for once when I'm free

day ended

Yisha's out...

Happy birthday to grandma (15th of March)

Haven't awaken so early on Sundays

I hurriedly headed to his lab

and started working on my own thing

the boss was fully satisfied with my design, finally

Dar dar and I were waiting for the rain to stop halfway to getting his lunch box

as the rain started to become heavier

he headed back to the lab to get the umbrella, and I waited

Our lunch time was full of talking

We had fun chit chatting so much about English

the use of 'overwhelm' as well as how to place the vocab in a certain context

Another boring afternoon in that room continuously doing my readings and all after he left

Waited til he came back from finishing all of his experiments

we stayed together working our asses off our own thing

I then was asked to ring up my granny who was having her bday today

There has been so long that I haven't spoken to her

delighted, I talked to her almost 20 minutes

and another 20 minutes, with my cousin who's been working

the closeness was still there, regardless the physical distance

the only change from us is seemingly only we've grown more independent and care for the ones we should care for

And yeh, dad has been telling me too, to not do any negotiation about the price of the design with the boss

I understand this fairly well...like totally...

Lastly

the video dar dar shared to me on wechat was too awesome

all the clips were clearly linked to one another in a well-organised manner

the transitions were made in a flow of perfection

like what I've been studying recently in my media course

in which that films are all about this part-whole-relation

you see parts, but it stands for the part of the entirety

you may see it as a whole, but it's the entirety that contains plenty of parts

the constitutive system is way beyond the physical mass and volume in the way of image capturing

I see all the linkages in an attempt of making things more realistic

in a spatially alternation for a depth of field

the success of that video is more of the adjustment of speed, pause, colour and lighting

in the mix of a defined clear timeline of a sequential landscape showcase

I haven't finished reading the link yet

what I know is, the producer is smart enough to know what techniques to bring up the utmost beauty out of the original clips

because sometimes you may have good resources in hands, however, the trouble to put them altogether coherently will have become a task of analyzing texts

since each text can be interpreted differently dependent on how you want the spectator to view it as

I wish, there would be one day I can make something like this too... :)