Dar dar is coming to town (13th of December)

Forgiveness is one of the best to resolve a conflict, especially to couples. Love is only strengthened by working through problems together. Same to my family, and to someone I'm happy to be with for these 2 months. Minor things might get on my nerves sometimes, and lateness, as I was the one doing that a long long time ago, now I understand why this is not a pleasant thing to do in the beginning of the day. But it's really not a big deal, nor a reason for us to stay blue in such a bright day. No madness, but the addition of humour to make someone understand is more acceptable. I've joked about how I missed my fresh milk shake which I could have had if I saved that 20 minutes staying at home instead of waiting at the train station lol

So here our single-day trip started as we reached Tumbalong park. Matsuri is held in the same spot every single year. There are thousands of people to come and celebrate this well-known Jap fest, like me, I see myself as part of this because I have already attended it three consecutive years since I knew it. I embrace the difference between cultures. For me, experiencing cross-culture is the ultimate acceptance among all possible cross-boundaries relations. By seeing the novelty one has, the manifestation of love for their own countries by exhibiting the beauty of their cities, and the excitement we see on their faces when introducing the cultural views and aspects, I have no resistance to say no to culture beats. We are under the name of freedom, that's what Australia is made of, a society with its really genuine demonstration of integration. 

But yes, admittedly, Japan is one of them which is famous for if not all, but almost every aspect. With the light-hearted song sang by some casual-dressed performers on the staged, owner and I planned to walk around all the stalls first. It's more of a yearly routine for me even though the booklets they put out there is nothing much different from the previous years, I still had loads of fun. Sometimes experience is not all about events and actions, but the person that you go with. Fun could still be doubled even if we go to a place for several times. Somehow we didn't get food, but walking back to the stage. Our attention was soon captured by this hula hoop performer, who attempted to dance with the upbeat music. During the entire performance, I occasionally joked around with owner. We both were expecting her to twirled them all (up to 10+ hula hoops) around her waist, arms to the entire body, but this movement would always be the last to show. After a short while standing there to watch it, we found two seats right at the front. Now we could relax a bit and watch the next shows. I have to appraise his Japanese listening is so well. He translated everything the guy said before the actual performance. Then we started to talk about the future Jap trip, some perspectives in travelling and such, as well as his recommendation in purchasing my camera after we come back from the trip. His friend's Thai massage experience is also fun to know too. 

Next, we went to grab some food from the stalls. Octopus balls, Jap style donuts and the Okinawan onigini were the chosen ones. Though he told me that he disliked the donuts but oh wells lol Having bad food is still counted as experience haha And I had my fun taking several pictures with the minion. I can't believe minion would appear at Jap fest because it seriously has nothing to do with the Japanese culture to be honest lol

Sometimes owner could be that someone making me go oh my gg...this guy is certainly a teaser. We would have our moments laughing to death, and I would be having that speechless moment to the max asking if he could stop talking. Of course, I didn't really mean to ask him to shut up. I mean, if he continued to make fun of the donut, where that part has the similar shape to the penis, I would never get to finish it....Btw thanks for telling the joke of human combustion. I don't get how this chemical reaction works without any external source of ignition, but it just does...Imagine if you have sex with your partner, that moment when you pull out your thing and find that turn into burning black like coal....>.> Scary ey.....

Moving on to where I had my calligraphy writing at. It was super fun holding the brush again. He was right, if I wrote it much faster maybe the characters could have seen much better and natural. But the point is, my hand was shaking when doing the stroke. I was wishing I could have done better, but I failed to do so anyways lool....Bet that my Chinese skills are worsened....NUUUUUU....T3T  I couldn't bear with me looking chubby in the photos btw. He said that's because I squeezed the smile, rather than having a smile. How this smile has widened my face in a way, but it can't be helped when I started to look so shifty...>.>

Next, we went up to the sign to check the performance at Darling harbour. With one moaning for some reason, he started giggling, and making me start giggling too...People say, great minds think alike. Our dirty dirty minds think alike too. I really don't mind how someone has been making me so wet for multiple times in a day. No, I'm talking about that playful moment with clothes on, that mischievous child pressed the auto-drinking button without me noticing. Everytime as my mouth approached, he released it, and when I lowered my head a bit, he pressed it. After a short while of me trying so hard to drink the water, wetness was all over my face, some parts of my shirt too. So please don't blame me for wiping my wet mouth on your face. You deserve this wetness man~ 

But yes, I have to say that lucky we went to the lego Christmas tree in daytime. (Thank me later) Some photos were taken with his camera. Some other photos inside of QVB were taken too. That's where I was struggling to have a spot to do my pose (which is no pose) Too many people come and go, kids stood there admiring the giant tree, adults were pushing and squeezing, owner was doing his asian squat a few meters away from me adjusting the setting and all. They were some good shots to be honest, except that my face went wrong. Chubbiness...again.....My smile has been too wide sometimes, really....

Complaining how someone else took some good photos of me looking pretty, he went all silent lol I know I've been way too blunt hurting this little photographer's heart~ (mwahahahaha) Going back to where we were from, I suggested to get some ice-cream from Gelato. We ordered three flavours, got back to Tumbalong park, and watching the traditional martial arts while enjoying the ice-cream. Funny how I rubbed my hair against him and got him this burning feeling because of the heat. Anyways I love his broadcasting of live martial arts lmaooo He was even better than the host on the stage for showing how phenomenal the sparring was. Especially to the sumo group where the combat was between the two big fat dudes, and the kids were running towards this fat guy, trying their best to push him, but the impact was only like a light tap on his belly...

For dinner, we had ramen and a small dish of chicken Katsu. He was really 'lucky' to sit at a spot where there is nothing at the back, unlike the rest of the comfy couch seats. And we have become the massive ‘stubborn nail' for our attempt to stick with our own seats, despite the later coming 10+ customers. Btw thanks for that lucky charm joke throughout the day. I really keen on carrying both bags..>.> 

After dinner, we stayed at somewhere else to have some rest. I removed all the photos which I look terrible in them. However, looking at the photos I took for him last time. He looks so good, which made me wonder how he could look so good. He then teased me for saying a good model will always look good despite how bad the photographer is..>.> 

Maybe that's why I punished him by not giving him water on our way back to darling harbour lol jokes xD Lucky we didn't miss the firework. And happy to have the last moment of fun for the day being together laughing at my piggy snoring recording. Maybe we should also have a naked video chat some time *wink wink* ;)

Thanks for someone's remark saying I've got a good body figure too though I don't really agree. It's so hard to believe which comment of his is not ironic >..> lol Btw I really shouldn't blame on that ticket machine. It had nothing to do with its own mistake made. Swallowing my one-dollar coin was really not its fault..(I think..) Whyyyy? Because I forgot to take my lucky charm with me.....geeeeeeezzzzzzz =3=

I felt sort of bad having somebody to wait for his bus for so long though >3< Sowiieeeeee....Next time we should go home earlier ey >3< 

Ahhh and and and and and unknown sentimentality I had for seeing Gwinny's photos of her Christmas tree in her house :( Sometimes I might just be a bit unsatisfied. Not to particular people or things, but towards some missing parts in my life. It's just le feels making me go moody....Yes, I do have someone who loves me a lot. I almost feel like I own the world like everyone else would feel. Nevertheless, maybe I'm the one hoping for more. But I really felt the warmth coming from this person telling this silly piggy not to worry too much about the future. His voice messages made me go teary for a bit too. Too often we underestimate the power of the smallest act of caring, all of which have this potential to make us smile and learn what we should. I noticed how this every drop of love will always be significant through our good times or bad too. And I really like how he's been caring for my health and all. From happiness to sentimentality, and from there, I had my hope back. Plus communication is somewhat the emotional response. It's way more than just words. It comes with courage to face the unpredictability. So I want to say, we really do have some particular people be there at some points. Whether you care or not, but they do, so why can't we choose to stay?   

We've got an English learner here (12th of December)

Not satisfying with any of my recordings so I removed them all at the end. Then I kept on editing my proposal and added some new things in as well. At night, I took some pictures for references, re-arranged the order of some main elements I put in my almost-done proposal and waiting for her help at the same time.

I had fun teaching her English tonight anyways. I read through everything she learned from the class. Her materials are not bad at all. I actually think they are beyond the basic level of what they are supposedly learned. There are some phrases and words already exceeded the medium level too. Seems like I've underestimated her a bit...She was happily telling me how much she's learned within this year compare to what her mates have been saying how least of things they learnt. In fact, it's really not about how one teaches, but how much the students want to learn. Like mum, she does learn a lot. And I am seeing her improvement throughout this year. But now her course has finished, she's still expecting to learn more. This is like the first time I've ever seen her with such a strong desire to learn English. It has never been like this before...Well, I'm really happy to see this. And I know that she's getting there :) Please carry on with this spirit mummy!! xD

PS: So much to do between 12pm to 1am since I didn't have a productive sesh much earlier. But finally I finished my prezi, and my script so I can start off my storyboard tomorrow. How good is this :3
PS1: Bet that somebody is getting way too busy to talk to this person. Well, of course I know family time is more important~why am I being unhappy here then?

Animation proposal (11th of December)

Been webby with dar dar for almost an hour in the morning before he went labing. I didn't go AIT because I fell back to sleep afterwards though. In the afternoon I started off my proposal thingy for animation which is due next Thursday. And I almost got it done except for several parts where I still need to think about what to put in. Adding to the references and inspiration which I also need to look for some resources for that, proving how I come up with my animation, I spent another good few hours thinking and jotting down some dot points on what main elements I should be looking for.

Anyways the trip is approaching. Fattie and her worriment is getting less and less. They know it's really time for them to let me go somewhere afar without them for the first time. They can't be there for me forever...And yeah, talking about the thingy I make up for my trip. I hope I didn't get someone confused for asking him to be one of my friends I told her who I'm going with. For now, I am just trying my best to finish my proposal and storyboard asap :)

Inspiring documentary (10th of December)

好耐无听过自己被人叫学霸。或者吾系因为我勤奋，而系他地懒姐~

^ I was called as that because I already finished all my tut tasks which would be due a week later. Seemingly everyone was still working on the ones left. I was the only one asking Sharon if I could go to the other room to start my major project. Hence, peak productivity happened to be real. Without anyone being with me, I was alone there designing some actions of my animation for two hours. As if I was living in my own world, or being isolated from everyone else lol

I didn't feel lonely at all after all. Instead, I had my own time going to Broadway grabbing some salad for my lunch. Then heading back to AIT 20 minutes before my second lesson started. I was sitting there and listening to people around me asking about marks and such. I already checked mine last night. It was ok I guess. But I wish I could have done it even better. Distinction was what I assumed I would get, but I don't just want a D..

For screen editing, we were taught how to remove the green background from all the sequences we filmed yesterday. Patrick tried to make this sound much more entertaining than it actually is, he then also taught us where to find the VFX assets from medialab, and create our own folders to collect the effects we want to put into our sequence later on. He was telling everyone, or simply making a funny statement. Asked people if they don't like my screaming, it can be replaced by other kinds of scream sound effects from medialab. During his explanation, he imitated my screaming in a way that made everyone laughed....

Well...so that first one hour was fun. Heaps of fun. The second hour was for us to watch this inspiring documentary of ILM (industrial light and magic), the largest visual-effects-making company in the globe. I got so much feels after watching it because now I was taught a bit more of VFX, is indeed developed from CGI and all. Thanks for having this chance to study at AIT. Thanks for myself being this brave to take a bit more of workload. Now whenever I am told how amazing creative industries are like, I will picture or dream of there will be one day I am one of them working in such a place, and that is, my final fantasy....

PS: Happy the second :) Thanks for all the fun and laughter we had together

Be ready for animation making (9th of December)

Too excited to get inside of that green room at AIT today. That was my first time ever get involved in an actual film production process with my mates. We all were pushing each other to go and act in those 4 sequences. But nobody was willing to participate in the beginning since it was quite embarrassing. Patrick then called out someone's name, finally has somebody ready for the first sequence filming, which was the one that lying flat on the table and doing that superman flying action...Nobody nominated themselves to walk up to the green area to the second sequence again. Andy was the one looking at Patrick that time, so he was picked by him to act an Godzilla. Later, somebody pointed me at the back and said, pick this girl to be the victim because she looks vulnerable and wants to be squeezed...lmaoo....Well...But I didn't resist at all. Instead, I took off my shoes and walked up there, listened to Patrick's order which asking me to look up, screaming and acted scared....>.> Yes...I did it...Everyone was shocked at how brave I was lol..

So after we finished the other two sequences, we were told that we would be going through the whole editing process to remove the green background, and replace it by something else. I can't wait to see the final product made by us. All of them would be hell interesting and watchable :)

So I was thinking about to start off my animation once I got home. But I didn't. What I did was to watch some animation made by the past students, as well as to search for more professionally-done ones by some creative Youtubers. I had gained a lot of ideas soon after I did a whole night of research. Even though I do have an idea myself, I still wanted to know what other elements, or methods I could add into my production. And yes, I found hell lots of different styles of animation providing me with more to think of. They each have some parts for me to learn from, I really wish to have my own version of merging everything that has inspired me. So let's do it (tomorrow)!!

PS: So excited that I told dar dar about my day of exploration. The fun I had for filming with my mates, my media related thought about my project and just everything I did in that green room, as well as I went all inspired by that documentary in which it demonstrates how much work an action movie is done with millions of selective items. Though we normally don't get to notice because of all the speedy drifting and flying actions. 

Relief (8th of December)

• The lady in that C place was so nice. Half of the time, she would feel so nervous talking to those people since most of them could have these poker faces when talking to us. But that lady even taught her how to improve English, being super encouraging and understanding when she tried to speak, and patiently listened to her requests and all. Mum was pleased with her generosity and friendliness which rarely could be seen from others. That lady said to me, next year, there would be a lot of dramas and complaints due to the change of the policy. She totally understands us, but she has to do her job for whatever she's bound to be doing and whatnot. These two women shared their emotional moments when talking about the families too. Oh and, I need to help her to write up her resume some time soon...
• After the appointment, we headed to these two Korean shops. She wanted to show me some dresses and shirts. So today was a right time for her to take me around. We spent almost an hour to shop around though. She asked me to try on this and that, trying to make me look pretty and such. We ended up getting a jacket and a dress at there. In the meantime, she bumped into her friend too and they had some sort of women's talk for quite a while...
• These might be a part of my Christmas gifts, as she said. More are coming though. Like that pack of candies I got from a lovely looking candy shop at Westfield because she said she wanted to get me something I like other than clothing.
• Anyhow she forgot to remind me to ask for the card during the appointment. She only remembered it after we finished lunch at the food court. Then she was so frustrated thinking about what to do, how much it would cost her after the 19th without the card. I then suggested to go C place to ask, but the lady told us they had nothing to do with this. So we actually went back to the M place to ask around too. They then told us C place is the right place to renew the card, the lady who talked to us might make a mistake on things....Oh wells.....We are always fooled by these people...
• So getting everything she wanted, including that 3 huge boxes of wine. We both carried them home.
• Not much time left for me to work on my thingy. But at the very least I finished those two tut tasks which are due at the end of this week. With her help, I made my perfect looking claymation with an imperfect clay figure moving on the surface lol Also, my silhouette task is finally done~~That 20 second video clip was made from 100+ photos taken with stop motion apps. Honestly, thanks for mum's help tonight hahaa *tight huggies* 
• Btw I love my aunt, the one who's the closest with her. They both seem like they could really talk about everything with each other. No faking, no deceiving, just some honest talk. We all love and hate someone at the same time sometimes. But what makes us not hate that someone as much as we love them is that they are still our families after all..
• Some Christmas talk with someone. I didn't feel that much warmth when things were dramatized though...And I rather not to be a realist at that moment...
• Lastly I really wish that girl would be healed soon. Something unfortunate happened to her which we all wouldn't wish that to happen to any of us...I really wish such a thing would less likely happen in Australia. Everyone should be equal. Racists are just so wrong..
• Too shocking to know Cat's tragedy too....I don't blame him for being boastful sometimes now. Perhaps teens like him who have experienced all these might still not be trained as strong as he is...RIP to that guy....Please don't blame yourself...we understand..we really understand your pain and helplessness...

Unconditionally (7th of December)

• Too late for the Santa Claus fun run. Everyone was gone by the time I got there. There were only a few of them coming back
• Pierogi was my first try of Polish food. Great to have a good first time in Polish fest
• Thanks for Calvin being a good child today during that two hours. I can see he's improving from the way he wrote on the exercises I gave him. Thanks for that toilet journey. But grow up child. We ain't kids anymore. Well, you are, but I ain't. Not to mention his testicle jokes. You do wish I would torture them. But sorry, I ain't a molester. Oh and your funny examples too. How can you put my name for three times without capitalizing them. I've been telling you for so many times I'm a pronoun, not a common noun. 
• Thanks for Jenny's pressie. I'm looking forward to seeing you guys next year
• Thanks for Calvin again for coming down to get me the sunglasses after this person left it on his table after tutoring
• No gifts because nothing is updated from that pinkish store. But I got her some chicken bites and squid balls. She loved them so much
• A lot of financial planning discussed on the train. I now understand more from her. I won't let her down. I will never do. I know what to do now. 
• Maybe that's why I'm a bit down. And I started to worry about my future. With that article she later showed me, as well as the one I read from wechat in which demonstrates a downhill from the economic condition, comes along with an increasing unemployment rate, I had this bad feeling. A really bad feeling. Apart from the unproductivity for the day, and one of the people that I talk to the most recently wasn't online...Somehow I turned into that depressing me again. Especially le feels when I wanted to share something important with someone, nobody was here listening. 
• I know how much she loves me. I even felt guilty that I've lied to her. Perhaps that was what drives me to punish myself for being depressed. She said, she only wished me to be happy and have a good life. But I ain't happy, not that I can't, but I choose not to. But I really love her from the bottom of my heart. She is, the only person shows loyalty to the utmost. Nobody else is. Same as fattie, those two have spent their half life time protecting from being hurt. They consider all my safety, welfare and all that nobody ever will. I promise myself that I will do a lot more for them, because it's time. It's really the time to act..

PS: That good feels hearing about the Polish version of Christmas song. I had this touchy feeling caused me go teary somehow...Looked around and had that feeling of being proud to be in this land...

PS1: Thanks for that special someone insisting to wait for me no matter how late it was...