Productivity*thumbs up*

19th of Oct

• One hour of tutoring in Chatswood because his mum mixed up the days>.> she even forgot she has booked me on Saturday...Then she constantly apologized and asked me to come over to tutor her son for another two hours tomorrow
• Calvin was being a really good boy in this lesson :3
• came back and finished two blogs I should have done last night
• Started doing the remaining 1400 words plus been looking for 6 more resources for the references
• The essay was done smoothly in approximate 3 hours
• Unlike what my mum thinks about me being so stressful and got no time to chill, instead, one of those indescribable good feelings I have here all because my dedication and effort to that assignment have enhanced my 'liveness'
• Productivity makes my day, workloads are my assets and they are really fascinating for me to just sit here for 8 hours or more sometimes, as in when I perk my mood up. Of course I am just like everyone else, when I am sort of lost in thought and lack of sleep, I would go for entertainment or something that is likable to cheer me up first...
• Checked my presentation for course 2091, the mark even made me happier. I have never gotten a presentation 3 marks close to HD since I go uni, such a huge improvement here haha but thanks to two of my awesome group mates :3 Great collaboration!! yay!!
• Ok what else, now it's time to relax by doing something I like :3
• good work with good mood in a good day *thumbs up* 

The power of L.O.V.E(18th of Oct)

Great parenting there

• 'don't stress out too much, we are always here for you'
• 'I will be living up to 130 years old so I can still see you live up to 100 years old'
• 'You should talk to your fattie more whenever he calls, you won't have that much chances to talk to him as he grows older and older'
• 'I don't know when I will be gone, but when that day comes, don't cry too much even though I know you would as we have a really close daughter-mother-bonding. When I am gone, you must live even happier than before, for yourself, also for me.'
• 'Cherish everything you've got here. Although you don't have everything you want but you have your parents who love you the most'
• 'I can't imagine what if you are a boy, will we still be this close?'
• 'I can only give good advice or put you on the right path, but decision making is in your own hands'
• 'Trust nobody but yourself, because anyone may hurt you when there is a conflict of interest'
• They have said all that, and there are much more but these are the ones come up in my mind so far

We talk about different things during dinner every night, and my fattie rings me up at least once a week. Communication is not a problem between my parents and I compare to other kids in this era. We treat each other like brothers and sisters. I would say they are one of the greatest gifts to me, their unconditional love has lasted for 21 years by now and I believe this will continue til they can't. Sometimes I even feel that my mum loves me like her lover, she hugs me to sleep, holds my hand to sleep even when we are out. 

When I ever reached that shell of adolescence, the rebellion caused me to resist anyone to understand me, and I still do. That hidden self is trying to guard that softie within me so I have once pushed them away, now I realize I should be holding them tight in the time being...To parents, their love is far more than I ever loved them, so in the recognition that I fathom the depth of their love, it's the peak of everything and hence, I have always triumph over any difficulties out there...

17th of Oct

• The chaos of battle in Nanking in 1937 is so unpleasant for every Chinese to remember
• From the historical fact has shown from all the documentaries I have watched so far, the movie The flowers of war is one of those movies that I find it so hard to finish
• There was no certain survival rule during the time of this military terror, the desperate civilians including the infants and the elderly were also be treated brutally; there was no way to escape when the invading Japanese Imperial army surrounded the whole city; there was nothing else can be more important than living when the violence happened everywhere 
• The whole city was 'raped', the women were chased, raped and killed, the estimation was recorded up to 20000 women got raped during this Nanking Massacre
• A country's victory is equivalent to millions of lives suffering
• Heroism eventually leads the disparate group to fight back, in this case, it's the prostitutes who step forward. They are not that bad sometimes
• Just like what John Kennedy said 'Mankind must put an end to war before war puts an end to mankind', there is no good war or bad peace, when the most vulnerable group of people become the target in the war, we should have realized that this has led to the loss of humanity, really really tragic
• So people, feel luck we were born in this 21st century, feel grateful that we have avoided that revolutionary change in that distant past...

nothing but everything(16th of Oct)

It's apparently contradicted to say I haven't done much for today yet I seriously did a lot...

I finished that 500 words assignment for week 13 and I also got myself really into the leadership style of Obama, especially to that forum where there is a huge debate on whether he's been doing a great job as a president. According to the data has shown there, haters are 2 times greater than the amount of supporters. Well, we can tell that the republican party in the US has massively influenced the online readers to trust every piece of information they have thrown out there...Politics, is really built on the concept of getting more eyeballs and gaining more trust from the public, whilst ordinary people like us wouldn't certain about when to trust, what sources should we trust due to our daily experience has taught us, nothing can be 100% believable. Life hasn't given us any clues on what to/not to believe, either has it directed us to go for the most accurate info, but life experience has, it keeps telling us to take 'trust/believe', this word more seriously. Similarly, it applies to the higher authority, they may draw our attention away in order to conceal a part of the truth, when it's necessarily to be hidden. We don't need to know the reason for any actions taken because we just take it, as the information that is injected into us does its trick, in a way of we are becoming more likely to believe than not to believe. In this case, the politicians tactically use the power of media to dominantly take over the grassroot's mind. As we know, media is closely linked to the topic of politics in a sense. In this era of information overflowing, if media is not there and that we go back to the stone age, where there is no such thing as 'hyper-connectedness', there wouldn't be conscious exacerbation of anxiety to trustworthiness. So to my conclusion..uni is such a good place offering us more opportunity to practice researching as well as how to do proper referencing. Yeah, I do hate referencing like everyone else, but when you think about why they are being so harsh on us student, referencing has really been one of the wisest ideas in uni. Because it doesn't only teach you how to be more honest to the information you have given, but also train you to be smarter to deal with those dickheads out there who may fool you after you graduate, start to work, start to know a bit about politics and a lot more beyond we can handle. 

Anyways sometimes I don't get myself writing a chunk of paragraph expressing something I am not even an expert in, perhaps I am just a little angry bird like to knock down the 'bricks'...Thanks for that person who  gave his chance away of learning more about these 11 Prime Ministers. I take it as double rewarded when I can earn and learn at the same time

Oh and I have started another assignment, the film review one. One of the films I picked was basically about a quite disturbing incestuous relationship. I am not saying one of the scenes inside should be cut since it's meant to be there, a full movie should be seen as it's made. But that excessive surprise at the end is really traumatizing to the protagonist...Ok I am not going to spoil it, so please check out yourself, the movie is called 'Oldboy' a Korean movie being made to enact an understanding of the issue 'what is not to be forgotten and the scar can be re-emerged' in relation to its political terror in the distant past. So come on, I am not weirdly into this kind of movies (maybe I am...who knows>.>), I just need to watch it for that 2000 words assignment (Ok...excuse maybe?) 

Btw, I have taken a photo of a warm but funny talk on the wall in the toilet...Sometimes you may think you are the only one having the problem, but then think again, others from elsewhere may have the same problem. By looking at that little talk when I was peeing there, I just suddenly felt so warmly welcomed to this world. Because it has proved that any places can be the spiritual asylum, and any talks can form a gathering, despite the fact that we don't even know each other, but we support the ones that are having minor/major problem out there

LOL...this talk is shoooooooo cute >3< *a pat on the back* dw man, no relationship, no problem, no worries ;)

Another happy family dinner at night with mum :3 She has been telling me how happy they were during new years when they were young, those times when they got to help their mum to make several jars of snacks compare to kids these days, someone like me who doesn't even know much cooking skills. They were actually so lucky in some ways back then :)

the 90th..(15th of Oct)

I was waiting for her to get some fruit from the shop opposite under this heat while holding two boxes of pizza at the bus stop...Everything seems so dull in my eyes because this weather was so unbearable that made me feel I would be soon melted...

Michelle then texted me right after I got home. I wouldn't know my winrar trial version was expired til she asked me to extract the compressed files she sent. But yeh, I tried to look for the key for winrar to solve my problem, likewise, she kept sending me lecture slides, materials that the customer wants me to read before I get his/her assignment done as well as that customer's requirements. I have been telling myself not to make any mistakes like last time again since re-doing a 1500 words essay is not a joke...

So I spent most of my time searching for some songs, calling the government and estate agency about the gutter cleaning and roof inspection and doing my(somebody's) assignment for today...An extremely busy busy day, one thing after another

Great, really great...Another 2000 words for film review and 1500 words for music both are due this week. To be honest, their assignments keep me really busy which make me feel so much better as I am at least earning something

But since when can I be not busy...I assume I wouldn't even like my life if that day comes...

PS: Congratz to my 90th post...

Time to relax...

I woke up at 6 just for this exam being held at 9am. Even though I showed up 10 minutes late and I thought to myself 'shittttt.....the exam must have started T___T' I ran to the lecture hall with my super high platforms in utter anxiety>.> 

I relaxed a bit once I approached the lecture hall, noises came from inside telling me that it wasn't in the exam condition yet...After I got in, there was no seat I could settle down so I ended up going up to the front row, found a spot that was close to the middle, and just found out my friend was the one next to me lool

That was indeed a really bad preparation, since I even forgot that we would have multiple choices that are meant to be colour with pencil...I whispered to my friends Gwinny and Sherry if they had an extra one, after they said no, I looked all over my bag, then accidentally found one in my pencil-case...geezzz that was a really tense moment...

The exam, briefly speaking, was not as hard as I thought, except that half of the multiple choices' answers were sorta similar to one another. It was even harder when some of the questions were related to the videos in the lectures that I didn't attend. I thought multiple choices would be the biggest area to gain marks, but seriously, I thought too much. I would say its theoretical answers were much beyond our comprehension from what we have read from the textbook as well as the online readings. So you can tell how unrealistic an exam could be, you don't normally get the concepts you have studied but there will always be more likely to bump into the ones you have no idea what that is. 

After the exam, chatted with Shabrina a bit. The look on her face revealed how negative she felt from the exam. I wouldn't say I did well, but at least much better than I thought. The last two short answers were in relation to how photo sharing enact social relation and communicative practices in this mobile culture. My answers should be correct except whether I have written down with some insightful sentences lool

Vicky asked if I wanted to grab lunch with her during our break. Shame on me...I couldn't make it to our occasional gathering due to my incompetent to get my presentation done by last night...I then spent extra a few hours staying in the library doing my presentation with Ailin, Gwinny was insisting her to do hers. Shabrina could suggest me with some better references. But most of the time, I chatted with Shabrina and asked her to follow me on Twitter(her another account). Now I am turning into one of those social media addicts under the influence of my course..Not to mention about Facebook, Twitter, blogger these three here, others such as Linkedin, Slideshare, instagram, soundcloud etc...Though some of those I barely use but I am compelled to do so when my course needs me to

Anyways...My presentation went crap, as in I ran through everything too damn fast, also I received some negative comments from other tables, one of them made a really constructive judgement to two points I wasn't really closely attached to...But then I explained myself because the god damn connotation DOES relate to the god damn function and uses...You people should have listened MORE carefully!!... It didn't cheer me up even if the tutor said my idea was really innovative in a way...

Ailin and Gwinny saw my unhappy face, Ailin then wrote a little note asking me to cheer up, Gwinny was trying to comfort me by saying 'man..only 10%...who caressss>.>' But still...I care....I care a lot...But blame myself for doing the last minute cram, admittedly I haven't done much work for that..

So after uni, I dropped off from Tafe, texted panpan I was down there and if he has finished class. I was told he was in elsewhere, disappointed, then walked back up to the train station..He instantly texted me back asking if I would like him to come so he can cheer me up. Half an hour later or more, he was there looking for his hidden koala, who was scribbling over the newspaper...We spent another one hour at the bench solving the sudoku, he was being so doubtful about my logical thinking as he is obviously smarter than me in some areas. 

My randomness is just so epic, that constantly 'going back to central getting the newspaper' joke can never get old; that pointing at the bird, said I wanted to eat it for dinner is insanely childish as well...I like mucking around with people, that really good feeling of making a person laugh so hard does make you feel contented. You don't try to be funny, everyone is funny in their way, humor only occurs once you feel comfortable and connected to that person...

After all that hard work of solving sudoku, he just dragged me to somewhere to eat as if I am his pet. No, of course not, instead, he IS my pet>.> Without looking at the menu for TOOOOOO long, I ordered a special chicken noodles to see how special can this be. Before we ordered the food, somehow it caused him start a talk about Vietnamese, the US and China as I have mentioned about my unwillingness to order non-traditional Vietnamese food in this Vietnamese restaurant. By listening to his history talk, it killed my mood a bit, I am seriously not the one into history, I don't hate learning it but just....just....don't like it...=.= I am sorry..(hate memorizing it I should say..)

He said I resemble to a chipmunk when I eat>.> just like the photos he has taken and posted on Fb...I seriously do look like one...>.> a cute but mean one...>.>

After dinner, once again I started teasing him as usual while holding my bloated stomach. In our way to the train station, he rejected to take me home so I appeared a ok-that's-great face and said 'seeeeee you next month then'...I use 'see you next month' joke a lot these days to him whenever he can't do something I want lol Dw man....I am being really harsh on you as well...>.> so do not need to feel sorry for being so harsh on me today >.>

(on the train)terrible randomness came up again, everything I said was out of context. It was an extraordinarily random talk and I made it...I pretended that I knew nothing about him applying for UAC; him being a liar to his dad; him cannot take a joke, lots of jokes; that silly statement of 'my forehead is a part of my head' omg i feel so dumb saying something like that...>.> yeh...that trip was fast as we have been having so much fun there

Sighh....but he left early after we got off from rivy (he actually took me home)....He was in a hurry to get home, not even wanted to wait for the next one, which only took him another 14 minutes to wait...(ok...sorry 14 minutes is actually long...>.>) So without goodbye hugs and kisses, I got away from him before he got on the train...that *tsk* face...my symbolic tsk face is so damn cute and sexy...>.>

PS: thanks for coming to cheer me up though I was the one made you happy like I said...not YOU made me happy...so shushhh don't judge >..>   and don't get killed from my overcuteness when I eat, I can't help it>.>

PS1: omg I nearly forget to mention about Yif, one of the newly discovered talented magician who was born in France (Please check him out...) I like how the top magicians have appraised him as the one not only brings with great performance, but a feeling to make the audience to cry. As a magician, he subconsciously differs himself from others as he's devoted to create more with artistic values, which is rarely to be seen from other magicians. That happiness we feel deep inside of our heart after we watch it, a touchy feeling will be generated once we emotionally felt his sincerity...

This busy Sunday(13th of Oct)

Sunday was damn busy, I didn't even get to have time to come and update my post :S

Exam+presentation are at the same day, you can actually tell how awful this is

And even worse, I only started revising the exam yesterday...Since I was busy as hell to get on with my presentation in the afternoon. There was quite a few of ideas I want to put in my presentation such as game genre and websites. But at the end, I chose to put my emphasis on egg-shaped buildings because those are not conventionally constructed like the rest of the buildings we can normally see around us. 

There was no time for me to do anything else other than studies...

Besides I already thought time has been slipping through from my fingertips every second I type something...

Indeed, this last minute cram is not less terrible than any other times....

Btw HSC is starting from tomorrow, wish my friend Karen, Geesoo, Corey, Jenny everyone who's in year12 currently ALL THE BEST!!! Rape HSC hard and rough!! *sigh....ok...also wish myself all the best for tomorrow's exam and presentation..>.>*

The link below is my presentation I uploaded on slideshare, so if you are interested, feel free to check it out :)

<http://www.slideshare.net/yoshiuil/2094-presentation-ppt>