3rd day in 2015 (3rd of January)

Crazily finished 2 rounds of jogging in the third day of 2015

 I felt contented and happy

Not sure how long I'll keep this up

But at the very least, in these two months before going back to uni

Somebody encouraged me to learn photography

For my so-called reason of unspoken rule lmao...>.>

I slept for almost 2 hours after lunch

The first day of jogging has always been so tired 

You know, after a while of relaxation

It takes some time for the body to adapt to a certain state when starting jogging

All the files were converted to jpeg after the camera raw update

But still, I've really tried to fix my printer for the really first time 

And I just realised the driver was downloaded from somewhere else before

instead of using the CD

But it was ages ago, I didn't think about this problem before removing it

so later, I had to look up that source back online

I actually didn't find any installation from the zip file

or I just don't know

I tried to look for any possibilities from its official website

to see if my problem has also occurred to someone else from Q&A

 However, it's hard to predict what problem it is when there is also one sign of not working-which is the red indicator flashing

I just gotta try to look up one by one some other time I guess...

Photos all sorted out and saved

been reading the script of Frozen for a bit

I seriously like some parts of description where the action words they use are quite precise

By looking at the idioms website, I've learned quite a few new idioms in English

But due to the fact that I didn't want to get things mixed up

I wrote some of them down for future memorisation

Been searching on some filming techniques too

That's why I have to learn the really basic of photography from now on 

I can't wait to see myself doing all these with some actual equipment some day 

I've noticed how over-the-shoulder shot isn't as easy as it looks like

when the right amount of shoulder in the shot is to work with a sense of intimacy

It might be my first time to know some shots are called crane shots too

The vertical translational motion does good job in adding some production value and enhancing parts of storytelling

However other shots are more likely used rather than crane shots because to execute a shot like this, it cost a lot just for buying the jib

Some others such as track-in shots with secondary foreground object 

Now I see why this 3D illusion will work the best when foreground object is out of focus..

I haven't visited TED for too long

I remember last time I watched a talk was half a year back then

I really enjoy TED talk

For anything that comes with meaning in life

Our discoveries are awaited 

Today I watched this talk questioning whether mind changes our body or body changes our mind, or both

The speaker has given us this answer with bodily movement could be even more powerful than that of a mind

She has pinpointed the direct contribution of the mind-body axis, which conducted in some evaluation into how the relationship works between posture and personality

For media, I've learned how emoticon claims back some action on online communication

Without having this face-to-face interaction, context generated could cause misunderstanding

Amy explained this too

as one of her examples to show how important it is to think about body and mind

Because insufficient information provided in online environment

which resembles to action is lack in this case

Hence, the replacement of emoticon is one way of showing some level of action

Apart from this, non-verbal communication

that is, body language

as the core of her argument

is a powerful tool that enables an effective connection

 And she focuses more on the addition of body does have impact on mindset

quoted from her, fake it til one makes it

How we feel dominant, submissive, strong and weak

comfortable, confident, demanding, inferior and passive

almost everyday situations can prescribe to any of the emotions above, and more

I've been to that such situation like everyone else

I have once noticed how incompetent I was to a task in a group work

The difficulty of that and my ability just weren't met

But knowing that if I didn't do that, I would fail it completely

and that I gotta tell myself

Whether succeeded or not

I gotta work on it

So I started to fake that I could do that

just for god sake of finishing it

Same for everyone who encounters difficult maths problem

We might not know the exact answer but we try to learn to solve, or fake to solve, end up taking the challenge and end up turning it into our own knowledge after taking the challenge

And she was basically talking about how the power of faking

has influence on the change of mind

which leads to the beneficial outcome for giving oneself a chance of showing something

For job interview too

How it's hard to have a bet to get employed when one gets so damn nervous

But to fake, instead of actually have confidence

by making the nonverbal signals to seem more dominant to convey a more assertive presence

I think what she suggests from her speech is to let us know how this intention is not completely about faking to make a breakthrough

but to get used to become that person that we are faking to be

gradually

Never let negative effects undermine the power of mindset

the significance to power poses or to act positively may achieve something different

PS: Good talk with owner before going to sleep

New to know someone wants to get the licence of something that I've hardly heard from anyone else who would do the same

Not so brave to swim, but somebody said he would help me out

oh and thanks for teaching me the term 'life buoy' in Chinese could also mean rebound...

A few things I want to share... (2nd of January)

Blog is up-to-date

Welcome to read how this girl has been through these days...

No I'm kidding

I don't want any particular someone rolls their eyes at me

Unless you really want to know how I've been

....

A few things I want to share here

The two articles I read, my thoughts during the time I wrote her resume, my success to batch convert my photos, AND the in trend electronic band..

I was really amazed of the fact shown on this article, which is about the topography of tears

Under the microscope, different tears have their own distinct molecules 

As it's explained, tears of sorrow can be so much different from tears of joy

And the basal tears are way different compare to the tears when chopping onions

The chemical composition has made different patterns, is just as similar as maps showing physical features in a diagrammatic representation 

Conclusion: That's why emotion is a complex, even tears, isn't entirely the same when hundreds of types are individuals. Each of them is unique, just like everyone of us, nobody can be duplicated

Creative business cards are much like resumes and cover letters

The article has given me so much more inspiration on how to make one's business card to stand-out out of a piles of others

This is all have to do with its creativity

If people leave one's business card out on the desk instead of putting it into a regular card holder

this unquestionably means a success 

Incredible success..

Business card speaks for a brand

and to express an effective relationship to the brand itself

as well as to have its attention it deserves

captivating designs will always apply to imprint on customer's memory better

Carefully arrangement of wordings and logo have become a bit old

Now they use cut-out or shapes to imply the symbolic meaning of the service itself

No intentional filthiness here

But I really like the one from plastic surgery

in which the design of the business card is focused on a pink-ish female nudity with two huge circles missing on the part of breasts

That part is covered with plastic where it's flattened, unless you use two fingers to make the hump

Despite the simplicity 

the design smartly uses the principle of fun, and interaction in the purpose to make the resemblance to what the business is about

There are quite a number of them I have to call as geniuses

But I'm not going to describe all that

another example I like among all these is 

the music promotion

How they make their card musically aroused?

The card doesn't use the usual card material and shapes

but a comb-made one with musical waves as patterns on top 

Users can play different pieces of music on a slight touch on the comb, as it's stated, the creation of comb is as different water amounts in glasses, enabling the creation of different sounds made

My conclusion: even the smallest change can make something big; think out of the box, not to be skeptical, and make your way out of the ordinary

OK...After sharing some thoughts of mine from some source of readings

I spent only one hour creating a resume for her

because she just didn't have much working experience or history to put into her resume

She asked me to make everything succinct

I asked her to think a bit more for that part of responsibility she used to work in that place

Since they need her to write at least 3 points

Anyways...even she has the slightest inclination to be an accountant like how she used to be

language has made it impossible for her to look for something similar to that

I just wish she doesn't work in somewhere too tough, and people aren't treating her too badly

It is hard to find an ideal working place with friendly staff there

Competitions are, and the human heart is unsearchable...

Too difficult to fathom the moves of people

So many factors can be the stimuli of intense relation 

And various circumstances don't usually have a solution

Kind type, is easily duped 

Sometimes if one agrees to carry the calf, later people will make you carry a cow...

Btw I finally found that it was my own fault not trying one of the folders he sent a few days ago

Photoshop does have the same function to batch conversion 

Easily clicking on the file, and image processor

to make the conversion happen

Easy

The only thing is that each file size is huge, so it has taken me quite a few hours to wait for them to be converted>.>

Lastly...electronic music band - above and beyond 

is good

This is another electronic music producer I like after Skrillex

Their music production gives me a blend of feels

Not just the power and energy I feel, but also the intriguing of a creative form as any other genre can be played, insofar, such a notion is heightened and fitted in this century..

Of course, I ain't a musician giving any critical remarks on what flaws, stylings or whatsoever from their musical production

But as an ordinary one who also has her musical standpoint towards my choice or preference of music

I'll say above and beyond is my type of electronic music production :)

Say hello to 2015 (1st of January)

Sunrise?

Still couldn't beat my sleepiness...

I asked for another a few hours of sleep

Waking up with my dear dar dar next to me 

Spooning me at the back

Randomness started again 

With my unlogical thinking and remarks

We both had a few hours of laughter

happiness was in the air

to fill up a room of emptiness

I sang my little birdie in English version

even the first line already made us giggle

Had my first yumcha at Haymarket with dar dar in 2015

the really first meal in 2015

was cheap and good

I soon grabbed a few that I wanted to have

He asked me to slow down

....

He then went on about the structure of Chinese restaurant and the relations between employees and employees; employers and employees 

It is bad enough that getting the relation quite intense because of the lack of cooperation and forgiveness

Right after Yumcha

we decided to go NLC to try the desserts there

Tofu pudding is the one I wanted to have a try

I was hoping I could get one from Yumcha

But they already sold out at the eight

NLC closed though

I couldn't have that taste of mango ice-cream with tofu pudding

I would be disappointed if meet fresh don't have that either

lucky they have their signature dishes, including the tofu pudding

Two customers left with two booklets on the table, we picked them up

Knowing they are two tourists guide giving lots of info on where to go in Sydney

I asked dar dar to keep them

He forced them back to me, asked me to keep instead

So I ended up having those two for future use

We would have more plans on new places, I believe...

Say byebye to dar dar means it's time for me to go back to reality

time to turn my studious mode back on

and time to get myself into the peak productivity I would possibly have

this is not the end

yet, I still had extra fun with mum 

to go dinner at Jenny's burger place

We ordered a few dishes: salad, lamb shank with mash potatoes, octopus and a mixed seafood soup

Here we are

1st of January

like the conversation I had with Michael after I came back

same old

but hoping we have some changes in 2015

good time sharing firework photos with him

Sincerely wishing him to keep his good work in his manager position 

Even with a long while of non-contact, talking to an old friend or someone that you think you would never get to talk to them ever again, or scared of any kinds of rejections because of the past

making that re-connection really means a lot

It does matter

Not just him, but to everybody

We would all be good

2015 is a blank new chapter

Let's get it started

live for today, hope for tomorrow..

NYE.. (31st of December)

NYE celebrations were kicking off everywhere. And I would like to start my 2015 with my resolutions in the upcoming year..

1. Learn to be more independent

2. try to sleep earlier

3. handle things well for both AIT and uni

4. always be true to myself and others

5. love the ones who love me, cherish everyone for the time being

6. waste no time on little things and people who don't matter

7. look for a job before my graduation

8. serve my society well; be a good leader 

Hello 2015, thanks for a good sunny day

Because of this, we couldn't let go of the umbrella holding in our hands

Not really the best spot for the day to settle in the corner of that fenced area

Though it was really close to the bridge, and opera house can be seen 

We sat there like everyone else, having some random gaming session

In the aeroplane chess we played, team red beat up others for couple times

He bought back a pack of Maccas and we shared for a bit

In return, I shared sushi rolls with him too

In a sunny but windy day, my hair was blowing high; fringe had the slightest touch of my face, causing so much trouble for me not to suck it in when I ate

He held my hair for me, just like one of those times he did that for me in the food court when we just knew each other

Due to several reasons, I suggested to move our well-built nest to the centre towards where the view is surely wider for us to take better photos tonight

The woman next to us was sleeping right on the spot under the shade because our umbrella already blocked all the light coming from the side for her

The stick of the umbrella is like a border making us a bit distant though

he said, sucking the stick if we want to make a French kiss>3>

I ate a lot, I admit that

Without waiting for a bit longer to have our next meal

I finished that big mac with him at 4ish

Not a while later, I was more than begging him to get me with more food from the exterior area

I didn't know I've made the worst decision ever for the day til later he was blocked out there for 2 and a half hours...

Power ran out rapidly

Connection was getting the crappiest for that period of timing when missing my dar dar

Worriment escalated to another level an hour of waiting

Kept reaching out to look for that person in white, hoping the next one I saw who coming to my way will be him 

But disappointment was the only thing I had

Several people looked quite similar to him, turned out to be the loved ones from other families

The coverage was so bad that I couldn't make any calls to anyone 

And this has lasted for quite a while of struggle

internet connection kept failing on me...wechat messages couldn't be sent

pop-up notice warned me that connection was unavailable

There was merely no messages received once every half an hour

Looking at others having their great time being with each other

I finally talked to the security guard walking past me

He said he couldn't lend me the phone because he had no credits at all

He let me try for several other phone numbers to see if that's what really happened like I said

He fiddled with my phone to see what problem it could be

The ranga asked me not to worry because her gf had also been away for an entire hour

But even her gf was back an hour later, I was still waiting for someone who I wasn't even sure where he was

Another one hour of waiting

The Indian couple asked me to go outside and have a look, they kindly said that they would look after my spot 

I said I would wait for another half an hour to see

I let fate take its course

I tried to think positively 

He finally got back to me via text

Telling me that the only possible way is I go and get the wristband to get him back in

I quickly asked the ranga to look after my stuff and almost running towards the entry

We finally saw each other and got all the way back in

We both shared what happened within these 2 and a half hours 

I know it's all my fault for being a hungry child

or else we could have stayed together happily

Mood was killed, somebody was full of vengeance when I was told how the security guards were so shit in handling one minor problem

But thanks for cheering me up by being a funny narrator who delivering a story of that boring family

The daughter had entirely no communication with her step father

And her mum clung with her husband on the other side, but seemed like there was this invisible line drawn between her and her daughter when both of them only focused on playing with their gadgets...

9am shots of fireworks weren't that perfect

One problem with this is that there was a kid standing at the front

His jumping and occasional kicking made the tripod tremble 

and hence, caused the images became blurry 

Since we had no rights to ask the child to get away tho we wanted to

We decided to put our stuff to fill up the space at the front so he wouldn't get there again

Another 3 hours of waiting 

With me was taught with some setups of camera, and my own practice in taking the same subjects with different setups to know how to adjust all that later on

We shared the last two bread taking out from my bag

One was with chili taste which he asked me why giving him such a spicy bread in such a timing (as he was jokingly being resentful towards that long wait outside.. lol)

Tight huggies lying down on the towel, looking upon the sky in the remaining 2 hours before 2014 ended

I'm sorry for hurting you with my nails of almost every touch on you >3<

I seriously need to cut my nails shorter yeh >3<

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Texts were sent to all my love ones, my friends, and my special friends...

Some of them replied me instantly; some replied me via wechat and also received lots of wishes from the ones I didn't send to

I didn't get to see the countdown on the bridge like the previous years though

That excitement I've been waiting for was gone

Firework show was on all in a sudden..

Dar dar and I were busy shooting pictures from here and there

He moved the tripod from the direction of opera house, to the bridge. Again from the bridge, back to opera house

Whereas I took a lot, but most of them weren't as good as I expected til I turned on the TV mode towards the end 

Lots of walking from Circular Quay back to Central, and from there, we waited for the bus home

Took a warm shower together

Checked out the photos he took tonight

Hugged each other to go deeply sleeping...

Towards the end of my posts, a few of NYE photos share here:

For last year's all the good or/and bad, bad might be more than good, and good were much more memorable than the bad. All I have learned, lived with, tried are to change myself for the better. I made mistakes, made glorious and amazing mistakes, made mistakes that nobody's ever made before. But mistakes let me grow, and for me to see hope kindle and rebound me; every kindness a prism

Same for happiness and desire

To make an end is to make a new beginning

I don't leave pages blank

Whether good or bad feelings, they are all that we need

NYE is called new opportunities, hope, goal, powerful force into play on a conscious and subconscious level

direction is not given, but we seek for our own

What we want to accomplish might still not happen yet

But we don't give up

New year has reaffirm of my life, and the ability I choose to be in my story

I start afresh about things

I love them more than I will ever do

 And I get myself with another chance of living

Just by thinking about the stampede happened in Shanghai

How essential it is to make the most out of every second since it can never go back

 What's left there without the happiness within you

When time is gone, people are gone, the possession of anything will mean nothing

So why not love everything around you

and yourself more..

Getting ready for NYE (30th of December)

• Somebody should lower himself a bit if he wanted to beg people to take care of his children...We didn't ask for more, but some respect from him when asking for help. That is the really basic to show respect, why can't you do it?
• Her frustration in what to get for my lunch and dinner even got me annoyed. I mean, can't you just make up your mind and stick with bread...
• Water checked, sunscreen checked, charger checked, camera battery charged fully checked, umbrella checked, all of what I need are ok....checked checked checked checked checked... I just don't get why she can't leave me to do all these myself...I'm old enough to put things and know where they are in my bag. I seriously find this annoying when I'm treated like a child...
• Getting started with my gift bag's design for my society, as president asked me to do it asap...Having a bit of trouble to turn the reverse colour of an image....Need more time to learn things~
• Playing five in a row for some time with the AI.... There was so many times I nearly won with a 2-way winning position in advanced and master level.....just close...really close...Still need to have more practice and experiments in learning how to improve my strategies in winning
• Replaying a song for the entire day.... 
• Creepy thing happened last night at 3am.... So right after mum finished her cooking and went back to sleep, some eerie grinding sound was loudly heard by both of us. In the beginning, I thought it was her who snored in a weird way; surprisingly after a few times of repetition, she came to my room asking if it was me who purposely doing this to attract her attention...At the same time, the sound re-appeared again. This time, it was right next to the window. She quickly closed the window and stopped that coming....Creepy as hell indeed....

Cunning daughter (29th of December)

• blogging...blogging...and more blogging...Finally finished all my GC blog posts today after almost a week of delays..
• Uni timetable is done. So there will be one online course and two film courses. Schedule is alright-ish even though there is a 3-hour break in between on Mondays..
• Photoshop is re-installed
• Saved all the pictures to my hard drive and sorted them all out, as well as removing some unwanted ones from my phone in order to spare more space for more pictures taken
• A minor discussion on where to watch fireworks and sunrise with dar dar
• Good timing to talk that all out with mum. She agreed with me to stay overnight in someone's house after the fireworks. I might be as cunning as how she described me, I do know how to pick a right timing before saying something, because this is the only way to ensure my request will be accepted by her..

Discounted goods.. (28th of December)

To open up yourself a little bit more, is not easy. We are all in the journey of probing the past to predict the future. For all the given possibilities from the past, we assume the repeating behavioral response is enough to have the acquisition of equally the same response from others. But we are wrong, and so does our hypothesis. Change is the only unchangeable element, nothing can stay the same. Variables may create new problems, including opening up yourself, may also put yourself at stake... Nonetheless, the frequency of trying has been through our entire life. Decisions are, all across that stuck in the road at this or that point. We never know what may happen and whatnot. To worry about what is worth, what is worth to try, what is worth to try to make your life better, should not be the first thing we care. But more importantly is that, we have tried...It's the breakthrough that makes us have this shared common with others, and also stand out from others at the same time....So yeh, I had this long contemplation on my bed this morning. Closing my eyes and quietly pondering on some specific life theories....There are times one of my friends introduce me with the idea of meditation. He claimed that this practice is hard to achieve but yields a surprising number of health benefits. I've tried, and couldn't keep it going because I was scared. Looking through some facts in soul encounters and such, I was scared that the deeper I go, like he said, the more sensation I may have, and later it may trigger a strong reaction or being more conscious of things from other magnetic fields...

OK....just ignore me from above^ lol.....

Well well well....I was greatly appreciated my 28th being with her. From the first second I opened my eyes, I saw her rolling over my body in order to wake me up...I felt loved...Though I was really exhausted today, I still wish I could bring her with all the laughter I can, to make her day. She took me to Myer at Hurstville because of that up to 75% off discount for all the clothes. Bet that I seriously ain't a fan of branded clothes. Because they are all too lady like...whereas I'm one of those types, only obsessed of irregularities...At the end, I could only pick one out of the many...

Later, taking her to walk around other shops at the CBD has made her even happier. She said she woke up at 5ish this morning because she felt too damn happy to sleep lol..>.> She definitely loves Cotton on. It was such a right timing I've seen my favourite tank type there too. Instead of going to other places, she asked me to try this and that....

Taking her to that camera shop where I bought my camera from. She then urged me to ask a couple sales assistants of that tripod. One of them suggested me to put some weight under the tripod to keep the balance in windy days if we do get one. And I was being such a cheapass asking if there is any discount for tripod too lol....>3>

Leading her to that huge apple store 50 meters away from Georges, we were checking out the gadgets selling there. Neither of us planning to get anything from there, we were just going there to have a look at the prices. The desire of luxurious goods does feed people's need for a great deal of admiring attention in my point of view. For me, I won't choose to carry several gadgets in my bag if I already have all functions in one...But what is to blame, it's the materialistic world, our media influence, the exponential changes of technological development...

Anyways...The girl in that AG shop was begging her husband to get her the dress is way too over....I can even see the lady who serviced her goes =3=|||....Miss...Your voice hurts my ear.....Mr...Can you control your gf for a bit......

PS: Another passenger jet went missing yesterday from Indonesia to Singapore....We don't know yet what fortunes this may bring to the passengers. The most likely scenario is it's crashed, as I read from the news. May my thoughts and prayers with the ones on jet and their families....