Transparency (29th of March)

Thanks for panpan getting me my Illustrator CC. Thank you thank you and thank you so much.

So somebody found out I lied to him for sleeping so late because I was talking to several people before I headed to bed last night. Not that I did it on purpose but thought such a thing is not even worth mentioning. We ate our dinner at Strathfield. My tummy has become so gassy after I drank that milk tea. Oh and he got a free milk tea because obviously they have made a mistake from their order.

On our way home, I was forced to give him my pw. Literally forced by him who took away my phone claiming that he'd troll my ex if I didn't tell him about my pw. The only feeling I had for giving my pw away was my insecurity towards how transparent my past life/ current life to him now. I have never thought to give somebody any of my private information because of lack of trust, low level of trust or even doubt that if I have ever trusted this person...

PS: Hard working brothers are doing their plots...

Slack (28th of March)

• Turning on my slack mode here in the morning watching a few talk shows...
• She told me her long journey with her friend catching the wrong train, causing them a lot of trouble to get back home loool 
• You know something is wrong with you when you don't feel stress at all even with 7 or 8 things that you have planned to get them done by today...
• Olly Murs's songs are so damn good....*whistling* thanks for so many great songs there
• Ahhh and sorry to somebody that I couldn't make it to the meeting today, maybe next time? 

This is where I belong (27th of March)

Thai brothers were late to the lecture, so did the lecturer lool But it was reasonable to understand why people were so late today, the rain was the cause of traffic congestion in the early morning. The lecturer just came at 9:30. She quickly talked about the 7'C' filmic components and showed us a short clip 'The lost thing' to illustrate her point. The lost thing carries a much deeper symbolic meaning evolved around the word 'lost' in a city and within one's state. The story begins with the giant lost machine-like creature to be found at a bizarre place where the protagonist starts to take it as his responsibility after they have formed this connection and trust between each other. Unlike others who turns a blind eye to everything that doesn't belong, he decides to help it out. Throughout the entire journey which he attempts so many ways to look for where it belongs, he is getting emotionally attached to this unknown with lots of uncertainties of what their future/ its future is going to be, but he isn't defeated by millionth time of failure looking for his friend's home, and that he has finally found that bright and vibrant place where it's full of other lost things there. His lost thing has to say goodbye to him at the end, he also has to go back to his reality and move on. I guess the lost things, the emptiness, the lonely and lifeless arena the producer presents here is to portray people's sense of rejection towards social change, which is ideologically represented by how the future environment has become quite suffocating. After all, it's a good clip worth a watch :)

So one of my classmates recognized my face in my digital images's class. Her name is Tia, a cute girl who sat next to me today :3 I wonder why I've been knowing so many Thai people these days lol A Thai girl initiated the conversation with me during our pre-production class while I was talking to Mod, who is also a Thai...Mod and I were going to go back to the computer room after classes in order to finish our tutorial task together but he told me that he had to rush to Central and meet up with his sister for getting his bicycle. So then I ended up going with my new Thai friend and two Korean friends. I once thought they are a couple because they are just so damn good looking as though they are meant to be together lol Also, Anthony and a few of his friends have helped me with some difficulties I had when I used illustrator CC during that 2 hours. Especially Anthony who was staying with me while teaching me some tools of premiere pro after I got my task done. His friend is also a nice one too, as I needed some water and tissue, he soon went somewhere to get me a free bottle of water and a pack of tissues. Soon they all added me on fb. And I am surprised that the Korean girl thought I am a Japanese...And somebody's funny being mocked at by his friends who asked him not to stalk me in front me lol He was like 'oh that's one pretty photo, you look so Korean :)' Anyways Kael and Game came to find me as they finished classes so we three could walk back to Central together. Game was really interested in discussing the issue of gay marriage with me though lool 

Before they went up to their platform, both of them asked me to take care. In particular, Game patted me on my back asking me to drink more water. I suddenly felt the warmth having so many people around. I guess this time I really have made a right choice studying at AIT. This is where I belong.. :)

PS: Busy weeks are starting now....ready to work for the media department >3<

Sugar high (26th of March)

A little confusion about how to combine the regions together before fill in the colours so I asked the one sitting next to me if he knew how to do it. He then sort of gave me this face telling me that he had no idea how to help me out by pointing at his own work which was in a mess...

Oh and this time I didn't get to eat anything before my Jap tutorial started, but more importantly is that I made it on time. Travelling from AIT to UNSW does take approximately 50 minutes as you know...I spotted my friend Kiah once I got into the goldstein building where I waited outside of my jap room, I actually was the one initiating the conversation when I saw her sitting there. The only thing we are in common is definitely the course we are doing right now. Thanks for Jap letting me have this chance to make such a wonderful friend lol So Kiah studies for Indigenous studies as her major, I didn't get to ask whether she is an aboriginal though she does seem like one. Quickly we shift to talk about how Jap writing system has frustrated her the most, saying that I'd teach her how to write some of the characters that she still has some problems with, the idea of forming a study group came into our minds. The jap jap class was fun as always. The difference between these words 'Korea' and 'Jail' was a bit hard to tell in Jap. At that moment, tutor asked who are from Korea in the class, several people including the big guy sitting at our table raising up their hands. By using that silly example of what it might happen if we describe someone from Korea but mistakenly say it as 'Jail', (She/he's from jail) the whole class laughed. And I got my first quiz all correct. Then Nana, the native Jap supporter came to me and said a chunk of message wishing me ganbatte or some sort...I only got the gist of her supportive message but thanks Nana >3<

Ahh so sad that I am still sick, coughing a lot here. Even sometimes I find myself pretty annoying when we have lectures and tutorials, my coughing must have been quite disturbing >3< Just like today when the tutor was trying to explain some concepts in the class while everyone was there listening to him, I was on the side coughing loud and repeatedly, then the tutor stopped and asked if I was ok...Anyways the discussion was good though, all of us did make up some random conversation during our speed dating activity before he stopped us. I got to talk to 6 people in a row as we took turns to move to the next person explaining some terms in our own comprehension. Lucky I have skimmed through some lecture slides although I was absent on Monday's lecture. When Andrew was waiting for somebody's response to his questions, we all have given him a tough time being fully silence. He was looking around, expecting somebody could be a bit more active helping him out at some points, there was only a few people contributing a bit.

Lastly my Jap seminar was one of the best classes I had recently, but I miss Nana who's leaving for Japan nuuuuuuuuuuu Nanaaaaaaaa...don't leave us :'( I super like this Jap native speaker because she's just oh soooooooo friendly and acting super cute in a typical Japanese way to the point that I was attracted by her smile and the way she speaks, as well as how nice she is to every student she has. I mean, obviously every supporter and teacher is nice, but I find her modest attitude, her encouraging and supportive teaching method, her positive mindset of being a teacher makes her even more beautiful. She's one of those types that I find really close with even though we only have known each other for 3 weeks. She remembers my name in the first class we had, picked me to answer questions at times and talked to me after some classes for a bit. I almost treat her as my bigger sister >3< I only hope that if there is one day I ever visit Tokyo in Japan, I can see her again. Anyways my friend Jessie and Kai didn't come today. You'd find that weird when both of them were absent at the same time lol But then, Natalie and I moved to join up another table with Beth, Jacob and another guy. I was assigned to partner with Jacob to practice our epic dialogs throughout the whole lesson. I got along with him so well and we were laughing at each other's silliness, perhaps I got sugar high again, I was more of playing the role out which cracked him up so much. Including the last part where we had to assess another group's conversation, we both were being evil pointing at the other group and asking them to perform first. >.> Good job mate...we are the best wooohoooo

Haha sugar high me with her sleepless night...

What comes next (25th of March)

Everything happens in a sequence. The news of Malaysian missing jet is seen to be the end of the investigation when the world is told that it ran out of fuel on its way to Australia. To be precise, still 2 thousand miles away from Perth. Yet, it's believed this news won't get to its ending soon but continuously grow with more upcoming news when the Chinese relatives are asking for more evidence of their missing loved ones, claiming that Malaysian government is irresponsibly providing them with insufficient proofs of their deaths. Hence, Malaysia has to have further investigation along the ocean with Australian's assistance in response to the public discourse and lots of speculations. What could be the next discovery? We don't know. Sometimes people tend to make any possible connections to any related problems so to enhance the issue or distort the factual information. And media is always the worst to make this happen...

Yup...media is the one to blame...

And guess what, I've been learning behaviourism, cybernetics, cognitivism and constructivism this week for my media course. Those terms have stuck in my mind for almost the entire day since I've been thinking about what I will be talking about for my blog post this week. But first of all, I had to finish doing those epic readings before I get on with it. Well...I only wish that I could have gotten more time to do more things because now it's 10-ish, which is when my productivity is slowly dropping down...  *back to study*

Bodily burning (24th of March)

Looking at the screen blankly, reading through a single concept for more than 3 times before I jotted down some of my thoughts...This is how I have been for the entire day. Today, I didn't go to Uni all because fever has lessened my energy to even go out. I know mum has been bugging me to drink more water, wear more and keep checking my temperature since last night as though I was still the one that had to be taken care of in 24/7. I was awakened by her for a few times at late night, my bed sheet was changed to her thick one, then she put oil over my back before I fell back to sleep...

A rainy day got her even more worried about my weak body so I was totally banned to wear anything that is not covered with my back and shoulders...I thought to myself that I'd be alright half an hour before I was going to the train station. Not until I realised that my body was heating up to the point that I had to lie down for a bit. The next thing I did was to feel my forehead and my cheeks. At that point, I had to leave my house so I wouldn't be late for my first lecture, but I couldn't. There was only 5 minutes for me to decide whether I should go or not go, I rested a bit, thinking that I wouldn't be feeling well though I did go...so..yeh...

Say, I am seriously not a lazy one here. As knowing that I would miss two lectures today, I've ran through everything I should do for the lectures, especially the media one which it comprises 117 slides with lots of models. After trying so hard to understand the concepts by exploring the historical facts on google with my fuzzy head, I only felt that today isn't really a day for me to be working productively.

But still...You have to push yourself to work through everything you have planned for the day. Zero productivity is just unacceptable. Yup...done with all my online readings for the week as well as the course reader that are required for the upcoming week although I wasn't sure how long all this information is going to stay in my mind. The phrase I see the most these days is 'media ecology' and you know academic readings, they like to complicate a term, making it sound so massive and intangible...

Anyways...I was talking about how hard working those Harvard students are during our dinner. You gotta believe this, true geniuses are those mad people, yes, mad people that are madly living in a piles of books all day long. In Harvard, you won't see any of them talking during their meals in the canteen. Why? Because they'd love to go to a corner to read while eating. You won't see a single person chit chatting her/his recent life to another person if you walk around the campus. Why? They only care about is how to finish reading the books in the shortest time so that they can read more books and resources. They dedicate 99% of their time to get drowned in the sea of books, and spend that 1% to multitask...with books still...There is no reason for anyone in Harvard not to be a genius, in fact, getting in Harvard is already one genius.

Nevertheless, I like how the author uses other examples in comparison to Chinese education in which the creativity and persistence are those that the Chinese students lack. Deeply embedded in the Chinese culture which the examination system acts as a major role determining the Chinese have to rely on this process to learn. They are only learning for the exam, for a conventional system, instead of their passion to keen on doing something they think they should, or like. Despite the fact that this is pretty universal for every Chinese school due to that super competitiveness in China, western education is focused more on comprehensive development. Not everyone is a genius that can take more than 8 or 9 subjects, and ace them. And knowledge does take time to grow, also takes even a longer time to make it your capital. Restricting one's capability to learn things is killing one's freedom. So I totally agree with this article where it says intellectual excellence and exploration are to grow into an independently thinking. It's freedom that has been there for years in western culture, encouraging their citizens to think about what is the best for them ; it's choices that extending people's creative thinking; it's interest that keeps a person persistently to go through the obstacles they may face in their exploration.

Anyways...back to reality where vulnerable me was having a hard time falling asleep at night. Guessing mum has put too much oil on my back, making it burning and hurting like hell =3=....

Ginger+coke? (23rd of March)

• Finally got my adobe premiere pro installed...Next...waiting to get my illustrator CC next week..
• But yeah, there are 9 steps for that...I have spent some time to learn how to do it by following the instruction..
• Hmmmm...nothing really special for the day except that I got a lot of work done
• One of the discussion questions demands us to look for a computer game that is useful to illustrate universe/solar system. I read through some others' posts and agreed on their perspectives based on some facts I've found from the links they provided..
• Ahhh and....don't know if ginger+coke will alleviate my soreness. She didn't suggest me to do it as there was once it got her voiceless after she drank it when she was young>.> 
• Anyways...I saw so many photos of cakefaces tonight....