River flows in you

By using Yiruma's song 'river flows in you' as my title, it generates the feeling of making every rotten little thing about life easier to be accepted...

Your encounter makes you the strongest when you get to confront the problems yourself but nobody else. And this is how I felt today, during the time when I argued with mum like those so many times, that high hierarchy from her as a mum, has been teaching her daughter how to respect her in the way of not to doubt about anything she says. 

I am starting to guess whether my short temper is inherited from her, I didn't even mean to boost her anger but she was just refuse to listen to any of my perspectives...It was so hard to make a peace when I was really unhappy of what she said that my bday gifts for her a few days ago, is way too less to represent my love for her, when in the really basis, I don't even show any respect to her now... :S The truth is that I am accustomed to her harsh words, surely she didn't really mean it. It's just a way of expressing her anger, yes, I do know that....Maybe it was just so stupid of me starting with the topic of my tutoring today, when I said the kid slammed the door after I told his mum about his behaviour, then his mum banned him from watching TV for the whole day... I go 'mehh...it's just a kid, slamming the door is pretty normal, I did that before as well when I was younger' and this got her...She thought I was being supportive to the kid, as I am a(her) kid, and that she mistakenly thought I was speaking for my own self...

Enough of this, getting me emotional much...I wasn't even going to cry, tried to act tough in front of her. But then whatever I did at that moment was wrong in her eyes, just like 'river flows in you(her)', an instrumental piece is the mixture of love and loss, the calm feeling that settles us by its slow tempo as the song progresses yet to the audience like me, who feels blue, only can interpret its slight climax is under the meaning of the dynamics.

Same as that moment when I told panpan about that period of time when my grandpa passed away. Recalling things can really tap into the senses of creating nostalgic images, in particular, when listening to the melody of warmth, it directly makes the story and the song relate to each other, a theme that can be only felt and remembered.

We endure the pain we got from losing someone in life, unable to get people to understand you and so many circumstances that mutual agreement cannot be met. But life never stops, time never pauses for you, so cherish everyone in your life and every moment with you...