Clingy her...(30th of Oct)

• Something freaky happened to me last night, when I woke up at 3 or 4am, I could barely open my left eye wide as the eyelid somehow felt heavy. That was completely not right so I got up and looked myself in the mirror, guess what, I found my left eye was swelling like hell, as if I got stung by a bee...I then kept rubbing it til it gradually turned back to normal...so weird...just so weird...it was even more weird this has happened right after watched something I shouldn't have watched...
• She cried for a few hours in the afternoon, not saying why in here but briefly saying, she felt extremely lonely and cannot have the life she wants in here...
• This is not the first time I feel how important my presence means to her...I can't nor I dun even want to imagine how she may feel if there is one day I am not there...
• I don't mind her being this clingy, after all, she's still my one and only blood related here, nothing will be the same if something happens to either of us, so this has made both of us even more cherish each other as well as every moment we have. 
• Even though she was mad at me before I was going to sleep. I didn't blame her at all because this is just her....Her way of letting me know what I have done wrong is still this old conventional way, asking me to stand in front of her for some time, and then a must-to-apologize request from her, lastly an admission of my wrongdoing
• So yeah...strict parenting...Though I wasn't feeling sad like I used to feel when I was much younger. My only thought was to calm her down so she can let me go>.>