Mature talk (15th of Dec)

I wasn't the one that was late, somebody was even later than me for another 15 minutes or so. It wasn't awkward at all though we haven't seen each other for almost a year after that breakup. It's also good to know that we can still stay friends. I don't know how others think about having close friendships with exes, but for me, I don't think there is anything wrong with it, and they are the ones that know me much better than anyone else.

My last ex is still the same, the only difference is that his qualities of maturity are even more revealing from his unshaved beard and mustache. The time when I asked if he still does regular workout. He answered me with 'I think I need to workout more because my abs is gone lol' But then again, he added 'I am not the weak skinny type though, I am quite strong.' I watched him eat in pepper lunch and we both shared about what happened in this one year. His planning of investing a media company is quite a shocking news to me, I even teased him to hire me if he seriously does that with his brother. He slowly held a glass of water, contemplating for a while and said 'No, I am serious, and why not? I would definitely hire you' With a smirk on his face, I continued to ask about his work and studies. However when I reached a topic of his family in Thailand, he paused and said 'Better not to ask about it.' It has been always a taboo for him to talk about his family in Thailand, which he still financially supporting them I assumed. 

To my amazement, he ate so little. The unfinished salad was so wasted so I helped him to eat half of it... In our way to the park, he said he needed to leave at 5-ish. I asked whether it's before 5 or after 5 when he said 5-ish, then I was told being so picky. Well, I was trying to make everything clear>.>

We found a bench to sit down and talk for a bit. Quite a bit. I haven't found someone like him who can have a deep talk with me for a while. His sign of maturity during our talk helps me to reaffirm how vital a connection works in a relationship. With a little bit of frustration and disappointment that I told him about my situation, he then claimed he has no trust in nobody, just like me, who's being so doubtful about things and people. I was understood by him, who has told me friends are temporary in different period of time, they come and go, so when I greeted him, he felt really happy. That is more than true, which I totally agree with him, when I find people's shallow side after they hear about my stories, and react in a way that I think they don't even take my stories seriously, I lose my interest in opening up myself. Ever heard of unexamined life is not worth living? Life does need judgement and require thought to what we have done and what lies ahead. 

Anyways as I wanted to go to toilet, he went back to Central station with me. Then we came back and moved to sit on the grass. Before we were going to walk across to the other side of the bench, he was going to lead me to go all the way to the other side, I dragged him and said 'why not just walk across? lol why bother to walk all the way?' He then said 'I was just being nice, didn't want you to trip over walking on the bumpy grass as you are with high platforms' Just a simple considerate thought of his, a delicate thing that most of the guys wouldn't have thought about, even I forgot it, has made me smile. Also the exception he made for me, which he said he doesn't chat with people that much anymore, but to me, he would always respond because he knows this side of me quite well, which I would be mad if he takes ages to get back to me. Maybe that is why the ones that I see as grown up, can win my heart easily, their unintentional acts simply keep someone secure and warm without themselves even notice. By talking to him at the park, I have learnt something in that 2 hours, certainly it was more like a heartfelt talk. And his wisdom of planning his future is worth knowing as a sample of planning my own later on. 

A precious friend is someone that can share something with you at a very high personal level and even though you guys don't talk, the connection is still there. No awkwardness, no tenderness but just closeness :)

PS: Talked to Panpan's friend Ivy and I found myself talking too much to a stranger before I get to meet her in a week>.> so weird that is....

PS1: I am sorry to say that...BUT it was quite a random conversation with le panpan after he came back, yes longie? lol :3 but anyways, I love my bf's childishness sometimes, the way he cheers me up is really his unique panpan style x3