uhh..what a day...(22nd of Dec)

Another super delayed post here...I was late for 25 minutes to reach Ashfield. He took me to his friend, Ivy's house and I sat there being a loner, knowing nobody there and occasionally asked people if they needed some help. Anna, the one with glasses asked me to untie the apron for her, Eunice came and only got to talk to her a bit. The birthday girl greeted me but we didn't talk that much, everyone seemed to be so busy helping. After those guys knew I am panpan's gf, they surrounded me and introduced themselves though I hardly remember most of their names. Overall I am bad at remembering people's faces and names..

The day was full of fun if only I could be more actively participating. But I wasn't really in a talkative mood making new friends. I wish I was...

The water gun fight was SHOOOOOOO WETTTT....>.> Some of them ruthlessly poured the whole bucket of water to us from top to bottom, to make us completely soaked wasn't a difficult task at all...Water gun fight can be never boring, it added much more fun to a day under this heat. 

The kris kringle thingy was rather a journey of seeking for treasure, doubt that if it really is a 'treasure' game as it was sort of bothersome to look for one shape within that big park with a failed clue in your hand. But Anna found panpan's one, in return, panpan helped some of them out to look for theirs. 

Panpan received a card game gift for kris kringle. I ripped it open. With a booklet of rules on the floor, we were reading while playing. Here came with a girl in black, who looked pretty badass and asked me if I am his gf...Later on, a question that was rather rude asked by her in the first time we just met. Panpan and I awkwardly laughed at that, and being silent answering nothing.

The pinnata thing was quite amusing in a way by watching people were blindfolded to hit the pinnata hanging in the air. Some of them tried to trick them by lifting up the string which tied up the pirate boat. 

A girl called Vanessa came and talked to me for a few times that day. She's really outgoing and nice from her innocent eyes. 

But I wasn't really that sociable that day. What I did was playing panpan's phone and ipod, and found out something that I wish it could be unseen. I lost my interest to talk to him in our way home. He even wanted to call my mum that he would not come to our house tonight because I was mad at him

As depressed as I was, I cried on the train, cried again at the backyard during the time we talked. Asking about why he's being so flirty to so many girls, especially to the one who actually thought he's being so flirty to herself, and hence intentionally kept distance from him. Yet he still seems so desperate to talk to her for some reason. If this is not an attempt to chase after a girl, I don't know what else can be represented as a sign of liking a person. He did the same thing to me once before we started dating by frequently asking me to webcam, complimenting me, talking to me a lot during breaks or whenever he's free. As a result of all that, we became a couple. Then tell me, how is this not possible to do the same thing OR like other girls when he keeps sending the same signals that gives me quite a bit of insecure feelings. 

 

The first time ever the night talk immensely has built up some bridges between us. I told him what we can do about our problems and what we will do after our anniversary. A deal was made. Truth hurts, but problems are needed to solve after all. 

We were late for dinner because of this. He might have been making himself too comfortable after he came to our house for couple times and that he wasn't considerate enough to act more mature in front of my mum. I always know that it takes time for him to build up his maturity, and I've been knowing that mum has a pretty high standard to everything and everyone, thus delicate things can turn out to be big in her eyes...