EAT it all up.. (19th of April)

Ultimate disappointment - a guy is still a guy, nothing can change their nature

You know what has been stopping me from checking someone's message? It's the disappointment I don't wish to have. I never have a good mood after I check it, each and every time. Someone's name appeared on his recent contact list, I clicked that and skimmed through their conversation. Nothing seems to be interesting but the only two things I noticed was the dates and he called her; the only feeling I got from all these info was one word: CARING... Either being flirtatious or being a gaming freak, you really can't change their nature, they are who they are. If you don't accept them, just leave, maybe I will one day, or I should~

Temporary happiness - STUFF that jealousy with food, EAT it all up...

Thai food, spicy food, spicy Thai food is to naturally get you on fire. Confronting a problem but repressing your madness during dinner time because you still wanted to enjoy your meal. >.> I enjoy my meal first and get mad at you later. But please don't take my silence as I am alright, I am cool with what I have found. 

Explosion of problems - Emotional instability under one cold night

Thanks for letting me to be one super hero by wearing your jacket. My mischievousness comes out of no where; my craziness doesn't stop me from being a 10-year-old; and my age, isn't a reason for me not to act the way I like. Nothing can be a problem. There is only one problem when emotional instability takes over. With half joking and half seriousness, I demanded to check his message. Now this time, you can't say I have no permission to get access to your privacy. But what I got at the end, a 45 minutes of silence from him who was sitting there like a stone. Adding to the coldness of the night, he froze. With no attempt to hold back any tears, he only stared at me blankly with teary eyes. I wiped his tears away, hugged him back and softened my voice to make him feel that I do care about him. Please don't ask me such a question of why romance can still spark between us when a problem is unresolved, you know, bringing two people together, with nothing in common or connection is already one mystery. I don't get how passion comes from when madness has empowered your own mind. However, if you are not a ruthless person, seeing someone cry is indeed, really heartbreaking. 

I can't find a way to describe whether my relationship is good or bad. Nor can you say there is actually a scale can really measure how good/bad a relationship is...I can only say, the more you struggle with someone, the more you understand who you are as they are your internal triggers to enact certain actions...