Unconditionally (7th of December)

• Too late for the Santa Claus fun run. Everyone was gone by the time I got there. There were only a few of them coming back
• Pierogi was my first try of Polish food. Great to have a good first time in Polish fest
• Thanks for Calvin being a good child today during that two hours. I can see he's improving from the way he wrote on the exercises I gave him. Thanks for that toilet journey. But grow up child. We ain't kids anymore. Well, you are, but I ain't. Not to mention his testicle jokes. You do wish I would torture them. But sorry, I ain't a molester. Oh and your funny examples too. How can you put my name for three times without capitalizing them. I've been telling you for so many times I'm a pronoun, not a common noun. 
• Thanks for Jenny's pressie. I'm looking forward to seeing you guys next year
• Thanks for Calvin again for coming down to get me the sunglasses after this person left it on his table after tutoring
• No gifts because nothing is updated from that pinkish store. But I got her some chicken bites and squid balls. She loved them so much
• A lot of financial planning discussed on the train. I now understand more from her. I won't let her down. I will never do. I know what to do now. 
• Maybe that's why I'm a bit down. And I started to worry about my future. With that article she later showed me, as well as the one I read from wechat in which demonstrates a downhill from the economic condition, comes along with an increasing unemployment rate, I had this bad feeling. A really bad feeling. Apart from the unproductivity for the day, and one of the people that I talk to the most recently wasn't online...Somehow I turned into that depressing me again. Especially le feels when I wanted to share something important with someone, nobody was here listening. 
• I know how much she loves me. I even felt guilty that I've lied to her. Perhaps that was what drives me to punish myself for being depressed. She said, she only wished me to be happy and have a good life. But I ain't happy, not that I can't, but I choose not to. But I really love her from the bottom of my heart. She is, the only person shows loyalty to the utmost. Nobody else is. Same as fattie, those two have spent their half life time protecting from being hurt. They consider all my safety, welfare and all that nobody ever will. I promise myself that I will do a lot more for them, because it's time. It's really the time to act..

PS: That good feels hearing about the Polish version of Christmas song. I had this touchy feeling caused me go teary somehow...Looked around and had that feeling of being proud to be in this land...

PS1: Thanks for that special someone insisting to wait for me no matter how late it was...