Choice of being strong (18th of March)

I didn't know how vulnerability has been living with me when that emotional outbreak was almost everywhere

I finished a part of my plan this morning

checking all my group work etc and was told that our group meeting was finally finalised this coming Saturday

the only thing I don't like about this online course is how frequently we gotta submit work

 and yeah, I cried for somebody's attempt of leaving

usually it would not be a reason for me to even shed a tear

but owning to all the problems I've been having recently

plus that morning call has kept me waiting for almost an hour, with extra minutes for the verification

it was almost driven me insane

AIT class was all good

I didn't know there would be that many people in typography class though

most of my friends were in there sitting in the room when I got there

the teacher carried a bit of Indian accent as she speaks

but nice enough to have all of our respect

I shoot a few questions during the time she talked about the assessments

she answered me with full of kindness

While Nelson was on the side having me to explain to him what our first assessment is about

he wanted to team up with me since I could do most of the work lol

but I was planning to do it alone anyways, so there's nothing different whether he partially does some work or not

Our president sometimes could be picky too

 I thought that I could finish everything by the time I got home

but no, the design has taken me more than a few hours to fix

since he never satisfied with the type of texts

until then, I finally got it done at almost 11, he finally accepted it lol

I don't want to express how negative I was tonight

all that conversation with my loved one who didn't seem to support me

has put me with extra burden upon my shoulders

I didn't want to have any argument, so I refused to respond

I had done nothing wrong

but she has made the situation overly intense 

she said I didn't seem to care much about the money

and described me as a boiling brat

even fattie was really speechless on the other end of the phone

asking her to calm down a bit

she then thought of us as team up to against her will for being a caring mother

I almost lost myself for not getting what I should deserve 

what am I doing all these for?

ain't I trying so hard to strive for the better life we could have?

But to look on the bright side, everything that bothers me is all I equally care for

and that I think they ALL are important to take a part of my life

I don't say 'no' to challenge because I choose to be in a tough life

So maybe...

sleep now

wake up tomorrow

everything will be ok again..