Trying not to sound too irritable on my post here
but C service really had me to say nothing good about it
like hello....how slow you answer a phone call
how suck the system is
why there is so much inconvenience all in one day
driving me like a mad monkey
waiting on the phone
refreshing the page...
now finally the report section was on
service unavailable?
are you kidding me??...
^swear to god, never ever rely on the third party providing you financially
yes....nothing else to say....
It had me venting everything out to dar dar on my way to uni
and being gloomy much, staying at the library to do my work
I was completely not putting up with something made me feel lost
but thanks for my classmate, my partner who almost told me everything we learned
from the lecture
she seems really keen on doing this course
I mean, just looking at how enthusiastic she is for telling me what she understands from the text
she indeed is 100% into english literature
.......
shooooooooo damn happy to see Ailin again
I couldn't stop talking with her about what we've been through recently
including how stressed she feels in taking a master degree
doing all 6 courses at the same time
we shared so much about private life too
dar dar came to the library an hour later
having me to read through the second edited version of his chapter 1
honestly, the Malaysian corrects better than I do
after all, he picks up some really really tiny mistakes
talking about captain,dar dar was imagining what if he was the captain in my high school
I teased him for being short
he argued back with him being a compact-sized of smartass
against whatever my troll was
He called me back as a low IQ condensed midget
my branded tsk appeared by then
asking him to leave
saying I would be leaving too
he dragged me and changed his mind for staying back later
we had our time talking shits
the courses, stuff I learned, my tut, my historical miraculous life
my thoughts, my celebratory surprising party made by my classmates
le cruise party preparation, PH, my tut mates, moments of despair and lost
sports....just everything that popped up in my mind
like a wave of information, overflowing into the forms of speech
There is lost, gain, happiness, sadness
the ups and downs, pros and cons, good and bad, ugliness and beauty
the mix of emotions
and a sense of fulfilment
with that distinguishable essence in looking at things in different angles
might have been, and start to change that little thought in your life
and a moment of terror, that one sec to the comtemplation of doubt
and untrust leading to a beginning of trust
maybe you still haven't found that particular way of getting the best out of life
maybe you are still on your way to seeking for a better self
the direction could be way much different
and that the realization could be way much further than the really natural occurence
but youth, is supposed to be thrived
and learning for what you think worth your time
this is our time
for everything we share, learn together, and from each other
he has dreams, I have dreams too
I feel that we are getting together to teach what we can
to one another
though there is so much for us to explore
like we still are learning English together
I really like how his questions are those that I hardly take notice on
in those particular instances of paying so much more attention on tiny details
small things might represent a bigger picture
I feel happy, for a person joyfully brings me with motivation
PS: Thanks for Ailin's invitation to her graduation some day in June
PS1: late promo posts on wechat, with an unfortunate minor argument with dar dar
PS2: MT Wilson seems nice, should really go there one day
PS3: old movies really are worth watching. I mean, I see her eyes holding with tears for how old movies have her felt the really deep down from her heart..
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