Unfinished work (23rd of October)

well....

I admit that I wasn't ready for the talk

other than how I see myself as a slack one these days

I also am disappointed at my own efficiency

sorry for that lack of preparation

thanks for giving me another allocated time to talk through my research final project

the rest of the day was to stay at the library to finish off my essay

which I was rushed to edit

and look for references

during the time I wrote my thing

whilst the group of 6 at the table on the side was practicing their presentations in turn

I heard some pretty impressive ones

that tall guy's public speaking was really well-done

even I would give him a thumb up if I was his marker~

but the other guy was speaking in fear

and was forced by all his mates to explain his project

while he refused to do so

yeh....my distraction was weird ass

it was just a way of looking for fun thing during my rest

washing off my tiredness

continuing to do more work

until that last bit I seriously felt too tired to continue

I called up somebody to have din din together

we had 'it's time for thai'

and spent some quality time talking about people around us

the irony of underestimate of his English was such a good one of being a laughing stimulant

thanks for chilling with me

me all good nao

me could continue to do work nao

til sad life continued as I found that weirdness of phone turning on and off with one click

not being able to hear the sound coming from another side of the phone as she called

and yes.....I couldn't find my water bottle in the early morning

she called me so careless and such

also my unfinished work was the reason to get her even more angry

she just shouted like a redbull

giving me no mercy and care less of my dignity

saying things to purposely harm my esteem

and being so restrictive to my daily activity from this moment

only because she thinks so big about something

the mark, the graduation and just making all these seem so big

which might not

but to confront her with what I really thought something isn't right is impossible

just not that I will be willing to talk to her through that

so let her be

might just get myself to have another 2 weeks of hard work

once finish

everyone will be happy

freedom comes

democracy there.....

PS: shit network gave me a heart attack 

I almost thought the school network was down

after a while of failure to upload my doc to the assignment section = =

lucky it was just a troll....