Today was a great day except for the moment I hurt my pinky with my rubber band when I was trying to pull that out and it bounced back, hit my pinky so hard. Soon after this happened, it reddened, also numbness and burning pain came up. When I looked at it, a tiny spot was bleeding and made it so hard for me to bend over when I moved it.
That's what happened in the morning when I just woke up and yes, other than bringing me with pain, it also made me fully awake... =.=
She called me from the other room and I felt she was back to normal, which is good. I just hope that pain gets away from her for a longer period of time, if possible, don't ever come back again. After lunch as usual, I turned on my laptop, started another day of hard work. To continue with my ultimate learning goal for a day, I feel like I would never do something enough, this just shows how much I fetishise to learn a language. Apart from that, there are too much things I love to do during the holidays, something that I may not have time to do when Uni starts in two weeks time. Time is limited but productivity can lengthen it the most. I intentionally prove this theory is right when I take my time seriously than I've ever had these days.
I did a lot today. I helped her to get the vegies she wanted. The first time when I had the urge to go out for her, it was rainy heavily. Then I sat back and waited for 20 minutes until the rain stopped. During the time when I was guessing when the weather would be fine, I read my dictionary. While she was busy doing something to distract herself from the pain she had. Anyways, I wandered around the suburb and the fact is that everytime when I do shoppings for her, there will be a reflex that I got from getting her stuff like the time she used to do all the shoppings alone before. I am getting to know how much she has devoted to this family and me. I wouldn't understand how hard for her to carry all the heavy vegies and meat until that day, she asked me to do the same. I would say this has been woven into a form of love and everyone would do the same to their children.
I came back with handful of vegies i bought from a few shops. She welcomed me. I went back to my laptop. We had a lovely dinner, it was lovely because I saw her smile when we ate. Her smile is something most important and rarely appears these days. After dinner, we talked a bit, and I looked at the clock. It was getting close to 9pm, which was the time that kind of itchiness came along as a visitor on time. I couldn't help to see her suffering the same as the other nights. I could only sit there with her letting her know I was with her to lessen her fear and to pass her water and items she needed when she asked for them.
Things will get better, positively speaking, of course I know she will. I've been having a lighthearted mood today :)
Maybe life isn't that bad :)
what a nice day to have~ especially on a rainy day! and i had no idea it rained hard >>" im happy you had such a good day~ :3 except for the pain that your mummy experiences of course >< it is good to know how much other people put into you, especially when they do it on a regular basis without complaint. and for so many years.
ReplyDeleteBut now i am sure you can feel a bit closer to her knowing that you have experienced what she has been, especially in a smaller body than hers ^^
all you can do atm is help your mum by being with her the whole time when she has the pains! hold her hand, hug her tight and let her feel you so that she will feel that tiny bit better. and i will try to help too!