Ignite Yoshism

I think I would stop my amateur writing career for good. By thinking about what could this temporary absence have ever done to me in the last 8 months? It's nothing, completely nothing, likewise, it's something that I could have a voice to externalise my feelings and my thoughts in this tangible world that I can get contact with. If this is something that benefits me, then home come i chose to stop doing this for a while? Everybody should have a motive, an attempt or a reason to do something/stop doing something. There is also a likelihood to stop doing something when we lose the motive to keep this up

In my journey, it all comes along with my own individuality, the one that shows a presence of mind and only myself can read and bans others to come in because I've been knowing I don't always display a positive attitude, but that doesn't mean I keep trapping into depression and contempt. I still need to stablize my emotion well enough to not let others to see through my mask.

Now you may ask me what my emotion to do with me stop writing. They are not even likely to be relatable. Imagine there is one day you find out yourself are getting too indulge into your personal world by writing your personal diaries, which is decided not to be seen by anyone until the day you die. What this has led to will be a feeling of detached from where you are living in, a sense of separation to the ones you love so much and due to their limited understanding towards you, you find it pointless to tell them the truth. BAM, it's totally not right when you eventually realise what you've been hiding is something that you're supposed to put up there for letting some others to understand, or else you cannot be understood.

However, truth has been covered quite well that not much people have found out my ambivalence. Stated another way, the experience of having a desire to develop my personal growth whilst my overly dignity has locked own self in a closed space.

Until there is a big change in my life has taken place. Frankly saying, this is not the first time but just like one of those typical changes have occured in my past. My inability still on its way to be trained when I am unable to make a choice in all these ongoing barriers and my mission is never going to be completed until the day I truly feel safe, also the one I love the most feels in the same way.

For the reason of not to straggle, it's time for me to take a big leap to chase after my lost 'coolness'. I will be really happy to see what this outcome will bring me when I am determined to rekindle my old interest- something that I have been enjoying doing for more than 10 years...

So...welcome to Yoshism, I am back! :)