(14th of Jan)

• After I came back from jogging, I used the same method to express myself again through webcam. And I cried miserably yet felt much better venting all out. The first time ever I actually looked closely to my own face when I sobbed in front of a webcam. To my surprise, my face looks pretty with tears dropping down on my cheeks. Mum was right, my vulnerability does make guys want to protect me a lot, maybe that's what you call a woman's weapon...
• I then sang a lot, almost an hour of Jessie J's songs and some others' whichever I felt like singing in order to make myself to have a more light-hearted mood
• During my lunch, I watched several videos talking about the huge distinction between traditional and new media. Statistically saying, no...I can't give you any data at the moment, I got the gist but not the details, and I barely remember numbers. But but but it does help to add a bit more knowledge of my field that I am doing in a sense. 
• Been watching two talk shows to chill a bit. I wasn't going to watch the second one but resulting in watching the first one, it led me to the second one...I seriously hate this feeling, it's absolutely the same as when you play games, watch dramas and series, start drinking and smoking etc, they all stimulate your desire to keep on doing it because addictiveness is one big thing that human cannot avoid
• Following by two talk shows, I watched another two documentaries of Jay Chou. I wouldn't say I am a big fan of this guy, yet he does have so many things for me to admire. One of his attributes that I like about will be his determination and dedication to music. I was just imagining by the time I warmed up my instant noodles here, he might be composing a song or learning another piece of music or another instrument in one of the studios there in Taiwan. Motivation, I need more to make me feel complete..Jay Chou is also from a family without a dad figure, hence his video has made me find some motivation here
• Funny how Panpan misread the word 'unFLAPpable' as 'unFAPpable' when I asked him what that means in a text. His mistake made my day and I had a great laugh. 
• He has invited me to go ice-skating with him, his stalker and the rest of her friends on Friday. I didn't take a second thought this time but said yes to him>.> This is getting strange when I am not indecisive...>.>