Options (5th of March)

It was a peaceful day until I got blamed for not picking up her calls at 2pm, right after she finished classes. The fact was that my phone couldn't receive the calls AND messages for some reason. It was a huge misunderstanding overall. This time seriously wasn't my fault not wanting to answer her calls, I even put my phone next to me, to ensure I wouldn't miss her calls. There was even a few times making me wondering why she didn't call me after 2-ish...As we planned yesterday, she asked me to wait for her at the plaza so we both could go and get something from there as she got something for me to ask the counter, as well as I needed to carry that pack of rice with her together. That was quite absurd when she yelled at me why I didn't pick up her calls or reply to her messages yet I had no idea she has ever sent me messages and called me for a few times. She was even more furious as soon as she mentioned her calls were sent to voicemails by Optus, which it automatically charged her at a normal rate. And my voicemail greeting is my friend's voice which I still haven't changed back or removed, so when she unintentionally said something rude, I felt a bit down once she repeatedly mentioned his name.

So I went to woolies with her to get two products she wanted. The spyro curls she bought was for me to curl my hair if I ever go to some special occasions, since she thinks that electric hair curler is less safer to use, also it causes damage of my hair. My mum is like this, the last minute she gives me a tough time when she's impatient and mad, the next minute I will feel so warm seeing her being so considerate. And I was asked to cancel that voicemail greeting by asking that guy who works at there to do it for me. Yeah...that voicemail greeting was gone forever...What happened today might be a sign for me to realise a truth that no matter how long something or someone has lived in your heart, and that you really want to reserve a spot for them to come back, they'll still be vanished by the emergence of some external forces as you have no options to keep them anymore. 

Anyways that pack of rice is relatively heavy for both of us to carry upstairs....After I came back home, I studied for a bit, read through everything for the first week. Also did some online readings plus some articles about the family issues. In my point of view, Chinese parents may not know how to express love physically because they tend to show it through actions. For example, the articles has stated the phrase 'I love you' means more of a commitment for most of the Chinese, whereas for westerners, they can even say 'love ya' so easily to those who aren't even close to them. There is this amusing example from this article, where it says there is this university experimented what reactions the parents would have if their children say 'I love you' to them, the results were most likely negative, as in the parents were bewildered, surprised, or some of them even wanted to dodge the topic. There was a dad saying 'I need to go to a meeting now, talk to you later..' right after his son told him 'I love you'. From reading this article, it makes me feel how different my mum is, as she's an openly expressive one who usually says corny things which make ME want to dodge the topic instead looolll....>.> 

Another article is regarding to Australians think how Chinese love money much more than their families. I agree with them when they list out so many examples that I have seen around me. Chinese is a diligent nation that so much more hard working than any others, even including holidays which are meant to take some days off for them to chill a bit with their families, they hardly choose to spend some quality time with families or spend some money for the families. Another example is quite common to the fact that some couples may live in different cities or countries because of work. For westerners, they think that living afar from one another over three months should be considered divorce for a couple. Seeing each other once in a while is too cruel for them. Not to mention that some of my family friends have been living apart from their partners for more than 10 years, I don't understand how marriage works for not seeing your partner for more than a decade either... :/ Their conclusion is, Chinese doesn't know what life is (have no life...) Humiliating yet true...

Anyways I tried to curl my hair with that new product my mum just bought tonight. It is not so effective as the curly hair only sustained for around 2 hours. But yeah, as she said, I needed to spray my hair first before I do all that...

Lastly I guess I have made myself really clear about something. I have thought about this recently even before we both started uni. However, it may be too early to say this, I shouldn't have brought this up at late night as it has saddened myself quite a bit as well...