Instead of staying home today, I went to AIT to work on my tut tasks with my friend Gino. I went there half an hour earlier and started my work alone at room c12. He came with Tia once they finished their classes. Both of them sat next to me talking about one particular task that they have difficulty with. I asked for his videos recorded from the classes which I needed to learn some techniques that I missed out. Today I even brought my 900gb hard drive for those videos and some of my tut tasks that are required for so much space. Anyways we got our results back for pre-production screen play. To my surprise, it was exactly the same mark as my pitch, they both were 73. I mean, why am I always at the edge of getting distinction...Why can't the marker just give me two more marks=3= Tia, on the other hand, was disappointed at what she got, obviously one mark away from credit, 64, wasn't good enough for her when she aimed for the better in this assignment as she put much more effort in screenplay than the pitch. Her cuteness of being annoyed because of the mark she got, had made Gino and I laugh so much. We both asked her to get over it as the grade is already decided. She then said she needed to ask the lecturer why. We didn't stop her, so she went. 5 minutes later after she came back, she told us that it wasn't the lecturer who marked it, but someone else. Oh and I didn't expect Pai would be coming on Tuesday though. She fb me an hour later and told me that she's on her way to AIT. She came and helped me out a bit with my work too. Gino left, Tia left another half an hour later. Pai was there the whole time with me til 5-ish when she needed to attend her studio class. So we moved to that room. By that time, I almost got 4 of my tasks done. I felt damn happy because the peak productive time for me today let me complete 90% of all the files I lost 2 weeks ago.
I thought that my productivity would be lasted longer tonight. But no. After dinner, my attempt to finish my storyboard was taken away by a lovable video shared on my primary school group on qq. I guess it wasn't just me who had this kind of reaction when my heart seemed to be paused for a second when seeing Hua's documentary of her pregnancy and marriage on Youku. The first scene I saw from her video was when she was giving birth to her baby boy who they named him as Shaqima. I couldn't tell it was her or not in the first a few minutes after all these ten years that I haven't seen her, she has grown a bit different from when she was a bit younger. But her youthfulness has never changed. She's still that mischievous her, even when she got married, her frustration towards her mum reminded me of that little Hua when we were in primary. She had always been a smart one acing everything in our class, the class representative that earned everyone's respect and trust. After all, she was a super good girl back in primary. Until then, she started to hang around with what we called those as 'bad people', because the lack of love she got from her family had huge impact on the following years. Her grade dropped, even another friend of mine and many others surpassed her in their junior year. Later on, she has gradually turned herself into someone that we are no longer familiar with.
And I've barely heard from her until tonight, her share link popped up on qq. I felt damn much especially the part where she mentioned about her family. Her mum was almost cried when she received a call from her saying 'When I got bullied at school, where are you. When I come back home and starve, where are you' Not just me, everyone else is able to relate to that. Regardless how little time we spend with parents, lots of things have driven us apart. We always say that they rather to earn more money than spending time with us. I thought of that too, just like a few years ago when mum couldn't come back home til late every night. That strong loneliness existed every second in my life during that period, once I came back home, I was alone doing everything, even before I slept, I got nobody saying just a simple 'night night' to me. And no, I didn't get to talk to her in the morning either as she still slept in in the morning before I went to school. Therefore, we never got to talk much, and that led me to start seeking love and a lot of caring from others.
Hua is a typical example of someone who chose the wrong path, and she has proved that having a baby in an earlier age does need to overcome so much more than we think. But most importantly is that her husband and her have this courage to confront all the problems they have. They did seem to be so happy being together and expecting that baby boy last year.
Just by watching the little scenes between them two such as the one she was described as a child by him, and I found that so cute when she insisted on saying he did something wrong. How can you not be touched by such a sweetness? Her husband, indeed, loves her dearly. So hmmm..The mixed feeling I have towards what I've watched and heard, and everything comes together led to how I feel about someone that I used to know before, has now become a mother. How time has changed a person? It could be subtle but also big. Maybe now it's really the time for her to be a grown up taking that responsibility to being a mother, and considering what others think. From her video, you interpret more than it shows, the meaningfulness of how life puts you down and how you pick yourself up, how you go through all these problems with all the decisions you make, overall, just what life has created for you. I cried for that, not only because of the production of her video that created that sort of atmosphere, but I had this magnificent feeling, to feel her, and myself. I am really a sentimental one I should say. Last time when Lin came to Sydney for a visit for two days, I already had this feeling that didn't want to let her go. I also cried for her departure on my way back home, as well as the next day when I was on the bus. It's good to reconnect with the old friends to see how they've been. Really, having this bonding, this unity makes so much more different from viewing our lives....I really feel the warmth coming from there, what about you?
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