Still a child (1st of June)

I forgot to say 'happy children's day' to Calvin today but guess he doesn't really care since he claims himself as a man...Look..I'm a manly man, *next min, smiles at me in sort of way that only a child will do* I am glad that the speech I helped him last week got him the top mark of his class, and he also got to have this chance to enter the school competition and perform on the stage. That two hours of tutoring was relatively pleasant. I spent most of our time reviewing all the grammar points I have taught him so far and he was cooperative enough to do the work. It took him 10+ minutes to memorise 2 pages of rules, mind you that the font was big so 2 pages weren't that much to be honest. He got things wrong wasn't unexpected, at least he gave it a go, that's what I care the most.

That emotional moment when you heard a Jap song from a music box in the room that brought back so much of your memories and made you go teary, it happened to me today at panpan's room during the time we both were chilling there. The more you try to desensitize yourself, the more it comes back to you in some certain points. You think you buried that part of you somewhere deep down there where you won't let anyone to find out, but a wave of emotions you have make it even more visible within you. Somehow I talked a bit of this though at the end of the day, I still didn't reveal to him what really went through my mind. I like how he brushed my hair though. That's one of the greatest thing a bf does to a gf. He said that I'd look prettier if I brush my hair everyday, not only when I wash my hair. It might be true, but I don't seem to care my image that much sometimes. I mean, the very basic thing to take care of myself well is neglected at times, and it's so obvious that I am not aware of what things I could possibly do to make me feel even better. Anyways he took me to the train station due to the darkness outside. Another touchy-feely afternoon panpan chan...somebody is now a pro ey ;)

Btw I saw two children playing games next to me and their parents were watching them having fun laughing at each other. I saw a complete family there, an ideal family that I also want to have for years...

Happy children's day to me. I am forever a child and I let this side take over me because this is the only simplicity you have for forgetting unwanted things...