A comforting visit (21th of Jan)

I wasn't allowed to go out today as she asked me to go to the medical centre and line up at 1:30. My plan was totally ruined so bf came over and visited me at the end. It was a rainy day, jogging didn't seem to be a good idea plus my period pain prevented me from walking too much. I met Panpan at the train station then headed to the plaza afterward. We sat there for almost an hour talking, laughing and doing something that we usually do such as tickling and pinching each other. I honestly was so glad that he'd come over to see me today, he even asked about the bruises on my legs that I got from yesterday.

The only thing I felt bad was I brought him home without mum knowing. We both were so tired lying on my bed and relaxed. Almost an hour of napping got us energized again. Before he left my house, we talked a bit in the last one hour. Once again, we've mentioned about psychological related issues, illusion and meditation. I specially like the moment when we looked at each other's face closely and quietly, that kind of feel as though two hearts are electrically connected with a strong attraction. His wriggly motion when he got changed was so amusing and cute :3

Anyways I failed to line up for mum because by the time I arrived there, the door was already locked, that is, they no longer accept any customers for the day. I then went to a Thai restaurant with panpan to order his food. We went to the train station and chatted a bit before his next train came. I told him how I've became so paranoid each time I bring a guy to my house when mum is away. And I seriously wanted him to stay longer but oh well lol somebody is busy. With my unhappy chubby face to say goodbye, he went on board and left. The last thing I remembered was he blew a kiss through the transparent window and hoping that'd cheer me up....

At night I talked to panpan again about my plans these days, what events I am attending and how much changes I have made so far as well as my improvement of getting more interaction with him and others . Sending him some of the pictures I have taken from New Year celebration in Hurstville and telling him what I really did on the stage was fun to share as well. Lastly...I like that recording of his...so comforting...as if you can feel the brightness and hope even in the darkest day lol