Le god damn crappy feeling when you couldn't get up in the early morning as if your head was stung by thousands of bees plus the tummy was cramping...Even though I was planning to go to AIT as mum dragged me up, I couldn't stand for being so sick today going to have my classes...So I went back to bed and napped for so many hours, woke up for a few times for drinking two jars of water and kept pee-ing which to make me feel much better...Only feeling a bit sad when somebody only sent me a message just then which made me feel that I was forgotten all this time. Maybe I was... :/ I'm just that unimportant someone in someone's life as always lol
I asked Pai to mark my name for me, and texted Corey not to wait me at the train station. Sleeping for almost 15 hours today has been one of the amazing things ever in my life. I woke up with better condition so I could get started with my AIT project that is due next week. But before that, my chilling time was in its way, things such as watching scary encounters and weird side of youtube, and and and one of the scary movie trailers that happens to be the most popular most recently has stimulated my interest that I went searching for more details and background of that afterwards. I didn't know something will come after what I have been watching, like this video is about a scary Jap experiment based on an historical fact when you face the mirror and ask yourself with 10 times of 'who are you', yes, only 10 times but keep doing this for not less than 30 days, a person could go mad because of the sense of realism of something will be losing after overly repetition. This will then expand a person's comfort zone of creepy into realms like the world is starting to be unreal and illusional-like. This is exactly the same thing when you look into something for too long, say, a Chinese character or a symbol, which it might turn out to be an unfamiliar mark in your mind. Now that explains why I have had this sort of feeling which I thought it was weird feeling in that way when I couldn't explain why.
Oh and mum bought her new mixer. Now she's happy that she could cook more stuff.
Btw the most touchy moment in which demonstrates the significance of love tonight was when mum has been worrying grandma for hours for being unable to make contact with her without knowing what was going on there, as grandma didn't pick up the phone at all. Anything could happen as an oldie lives by herself without anyone's company, so she called dad instantly and asked him to go to her house to check what happened. After hours of waiting, non-response, the impatiently wait plus escalating worriment have made her rant a lot when ate. Until then, fatty and uncle both arrived at her house and found out she was actually having shower, and the phone wasn't ringing at all. That moment when she heard her voice on the other end which made her unable to hold all the tears back anymore. She cried so loud and crazily asking where she has been as if she lost her child, but in fact, it was her mum whose she's so scared to lose. I was there having my porridge this whole time but tears dropped down to my bowl once I saw mum's tears...
I guess not just the moment when you know you might lose someone is horrifying, but it is the feeling that you're scared to confront...
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